been busy these few days. stressed mostly. AM STILL STRESSED. but that's because i ask for a lot out of myself. everything. i want the best. nevermind if i'll never be the best in certain things. but i'm sure i have my place up there and i will fight for it.
random day after school last week. ate lunch with nehnehpoks. was talking about some stuff. heh. fidgeting so i tied this thing with the plastic bag. at the end of the talk, the styrofoam box which was used to contain my rice and veggies had "disintegrated" because i was breaking it apart. yea, i know it's wrong to play with food stuff.
this is the packet of fruit loops sis gave me! YUMS. fruitloops are awesome because they provide visual PLEASURE with their cheery colors. and they are sweet, which is a dietary unfavorable food, but hell, i'm not THAT healthy sometimes. (:
as you can see, the bob's assignment below stresses me even as i prepare to devour them. zzzz.
-beams- give me fruitloops and i'm a happy girl. temporarily. sugar high. HAHAH.
another random day out with nanny. can't remember exactly when, though. the days are escaping me. time is flying past way too fast. sigh.
went to wcp for late celebration of mid-autumn festival wtf. HAHAHA. we must have looked weird playing with sparklers and candles and lanterns zzzz.
as you can tell, this angle was cleverly manipulated so that the heart shape actually looks "heart-ish" in shape. nanny has very very very bad aesthetic knowledge HAHAHAHA. which prolly explains why he'll like a girl like me. =D
sibei uneven lor! and he insists its heart can. dots. your heart bu ping heng.
candles are pretty. the flickering flame attracts me. i could stare at them all night long. but their life span is short. and the wax burns.
pretty things hurt.
bloody bloody HOT. i was perspiring in my tee and there was no FREAKING wind. i almost died. zzzz. luckily it was dark. cannot see my chui-ing face wtf. but i still look spastic standing there. zzz.
but sparklers remind me of that time ocip gathering for new year countdown HAHAHA. so much fun. aye i miss all of them. =(((
pretty. (:
more sparklers.
sometimes the sparklers scare me because they make really shrill whistling noises when lit and they shoot off in all directions. a bit too dynamic and unpredictable. zzz.
the damn out of place lanterns HAHA. so cheena looking zomg. anyway i lit one lantern with 4 candles in it and eventually it burned. wtf. i was freaking worried i'll burn down the entire wcp because the flames didnt seem to go away.
then this cyclist stopped by with a bottle of water and helped put it out. omg. i was really grateful. zzz. teaches you never to be too greedy and light too many candles. HAHAHA.
one day in school last week again to finish up PR assignment with nehnehpoks. that day killed me. and i looked so chui for the entire week taking pictures is OUT OF THE QUESTION. i don't wanna scare people.
i was fascinated with nehneh's computer screensaver wtf. it's bubbles bumping around the screen SIBEI COOL CAN wtf. HAHAHAH.
pretty bubbles ok. got color. looks real.
ah! i remember this because we had com443 group meeting on that day. met the fatbear after meeting for dinner and movie MIRRORS. geez.
i was starving and pretty much gobbled down everything. =S no image sio. and guess what? xinchee and gf were eating in same restaurant as us! we went our separate ways after project! omg what are the odds HAHAH.
anyway the movie was crap. i did mention that earlier on. =D
another of our project meetings held on sunday last week. sheesh. in suntec macs. thanks to fatbear who sent me down after i managed to complete the report, printing and binding. (: or not i would have been ridiculously late. zzz.
rough speech. zzz. altered. speaking of which. the presentation that was supposed to happen today didn't happen for my group and nehneh's inspirad due to lack of time.
postponed to wednesday. zzz. and the critique given today by bob was REALLY bad except for bazhang's group. sian man. seriously. i don't know how.
and i figured out most of our reports is screwed. like...uber screwed. SIAN. all the groups probably got the direction of the assignment misunderstood. =(
praying for the best. and do what we can for wednesday!!!! GO GO connect@6 works! (:
so i have a problem with figures still wtf. HAHAHAH abby chan no one to share my pain liao! how do you READ this number? HAHAHAHHA.
speaking of abs dear, i shall dedicate a small part to you. i wanted to do a romantic poem, but i realized i don't have much romanticism with you. HAHAHAH. the poem would probably revolve around 4am late night chats, weird kinds of sex objects, hua-ing characters, explicit flirting between both of us, arguing about our various affairs and recently, your room mate HAHAHAHA.
not very romantic huh? so yea...
just rest assured although i still have many loves in my life, you're part of them. go cry your eyes out at the school counselor and hope you get a new room. or not you really might go crazy. =( if you need to rant, im here. if you need a lighter for BBQ HAHAHA, i'll send one over. but please don't kill anyone ok. zzz.
nua-ing in macs.
omg WEISI IS SO CUTE CAN HAHAHAHAH. and today for presentation i was sitting next to her the entire lesson and i kept smelling her perfume. she says it's from HUGO boss and it's freaking gorgeous. i couldn't stop sniffing in her perfume. she smells like my mummy. (:
weisi, please be my girlfriend HAHAHAHAHHA.
shagged out face, after running so many places to do so many things. i looked worst by the time i met up with fatbear again. =(
helllo helllo. hello teeth! long time no see in this stress period. gonna get rarer! =S
missing the one in MANILA and xc who was in a job briefing. he came afterwards only.
left after discussion. headed back to clementi to get binding done but it was too late. met with the fatbear just because i felt like seeing him (omg how come i'm so mushy wtf) and we decided to head over to wcp just to get some fresh air and sit watching the waves.
felt less tensed at the end of the day. the waves are soothing. the wind was good. the night skies a tad bit too cloudy. but all was well. until the bXXgla next to us started singing on the top of his lungs.
wtf. and the songs he sang sound shittily tragic can. machiam someone dying or he just broke up with his gf. zzzz. and he sounded drunk. plus he smoked. stinked.
AHAHAHAHHA this pic was taken in macs after he insisted on getting something to eat around 10plus. omg lah. sofat. and ate nuggets meal 0.0 shits. HAHA.
but anyway the picture was hilarious BECAUSE can you see SOMEONE TRYING HIS BEST TO ENLARGE HIS EYES? HAHAHAH. shit ok sorry dear. nice lah huh. =D
but i still think we look weird in pictures.
see my face bigger than his lor. win already. wah lau eh. to counter this, i must not look fatter than him HAHAAH. so i'm forcing him to eat more. cos' seriously i eat more than him right now. wtf. i'm so sad.
i miss being around marshy cos' marshy eats like a monster and i feel so much better HAHAHAHHAH. i miss you dude!!! can 4 of us meet soon before i die from missing all 3 of you?
super sad can. i'm like forgotten. at least 3 of you got meet up. HAI.
in any sense, the fatbear says i know how to sa jiao OMFG??? serious? as in the tone of my voice contains some elements of that. sheesh. this is like...a wonderful discovery to me. but sa jiao works meh? zzz HAHAHA. i hope it does. =D
today after class. bob said he noted that we were dressed very nicely and he said we wouldn't have to wear so formal on wednesday. smart casual would be great. =D yayyy. i'm in love with connect@6 indefinitely. ((((:meeting at the benches to settle the poster stuff. (: did i mention that we were one of the groups to be shortlisted as a potential SIM/UB poster for a talk? i'm proud of my group. really. we were really shocked when we heard bob say our name. zzz. like HUH???? we thought we stood no chance at all ok.
but we're very encouraged by that. shall continue to work hard to produce the best results. we must fight!!!
omg my big face. i must learn to grin less widely. this makes me look like a pancake. god. ain't weisi cute? =D
and my eyes are small. =(((
taken with weisi's omnia. wheee. clear right. also 5mp but hers is like clearer. she attributes it to my poor care of camera lens HAHAHA. wtf. win liao lor.
group mates. =D
hello hellooo. i have bunny ears.
a last pretty picture to end the picture series.
xoxo
these few days have been good with you around. you always try your best to cheer me up, and it rarely fails. you sincerely want me to be happy and i can feel it. you make me smile and grin at my handphone in the morning. your messages make me want to roll my eyes, yet they make me laugh.
you probably know you aren't my ideal, but you're part of it. and it seems to grow each day.
we belong to two different worlds, separate lives and souls who have met and are still understanding each other day to day. i feel like i'm giving lesser...and you give me everything you've got.
it's little acts like these that touch my heart time to time. without fail.
it's not that i refuse to give what i have, but more of like...needing to learn how to slowly let down my guard; allowing you into my heart and life. it's been 2 years. and i need to learn.
i need time. and i'm glad you understand that.
21st september 2008. 210908. 5am nonetheless.
not the most romantic. and not expected by me, at the very least.
what a sneaky trap. haha.
i didn't agree. but i didn't say no.
but i guess, it was a mini turning point.
and perhaps verbal agreement would have been redundant.
actions do speak louder than words.
and on that day itself, i've unknowingly let you turn the knob of the door.
the door into part of my heart.
i do hope this isn't a wrong step or choice.
and i'm gonna try my best.
(:
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