okok.

i thought i was being quite unfair to those who are bored and click on my blog link when you are working just to obtain some entertainment news.

hahaha, so i shall blog for thee! =)
though i haven't checked my blog counter for quite long. stagnant place this is. sorry guys!


been rather busy tuitioning and marking the stupid papers and teaching and travelling and helping my mum and msging and calling and going out till super late and getting scolded by my parents.

but i'm happy so far. leading a quite hectic life. at least it's not too mundane. hmmm. spending FAR too much though.

monz and i just set up a SAVERS COMMITTEE. hahaha. who wants to join man! =D


i think we both shall be president. hahaha. the most cannot make it and break all the rules in the committee presidents.




hahaha. i really appreciate friends alot. like ALOT. i realise that one single, simple msg from them can eally make my day. of cos', provided the msg contains decently and non-vulgar or *insert bad stuff* lah. hmm you guys get the point right. hahaha. happy happy girl. especially when you know your friends are in army and they make the effort to reply to your messages or message you first after a tired day. it really touches me. the effort.
=)
i hope you guys are doing fine in there! do take care of yourselves!


hahaha. zh and his monday, tuesday, wednesday shalalala.
white ass with his very hiong company cougar but still holding on strong.
abbas though sick but fighting on too.
and him. =)

amongst a few to mention. hehe.


ok. i was thinking if there was a need to update on the past weeks events. i think i better not. it's getting late and i'm distracted online, multi-tasking as usual. i may never complete this entry. hahaha.

i'm trying my best to remain happy. and yea well..try to forget unpleasant things and people along the way. just so you guys know, no unis have contacted me or whatsoever. i'm starting to plan for my future AGAIN. sigh. this is getting depressing. but i'm not going down without a fight. never.



hmmm. alex the long lost forgotten pig has msged me out of the blue. and i suddenly realised i missed him lah! hahaha. he misses me too. LOL. damn..super long never meet up. gotta meet up one day! REALLY. i still rmb you hp number ok! and birthday. hehe.







in case you all miss me so much and forgot how i look. this is a recent picture of me. never changed much. see the silver ring and the black coco rings? sisterhood! hahaha. the jacket's new. military style. makes me feel like a pro teacher when i wear it. cannot stand it man. hahaha.

and i need to highlight and trim my hair again. =X


okok! i know the picture is retarded.

i miss you all! take care!

ps: exclusives outing!!! arghhh. i really hope we can coordinate a time!!!

time flies by.

time does fly! look! i'm here updating.

short entry though.

got my internet connection again. NEW connection to be exact. with SINGNET. WAHAHAHAHAHA.

SUPER FAST CAN.

i'm like very very happy.

zoooooooooommmmmmmmmmmmmm!



never so fast before. and all the pictures load lah! omg. this is amazing. must savour the feeling. hehe.

good ridance to star***. hahahah. cannot take it already.



hmmm. my highlights are almost gone. thinking of new haircut with hairlighting job all at once. tsk. no black. hahaha. i hope the highlights and cut turns out decent.

tuition was good. earning their respect already i think. need to be strict with those guys. if not climb over my head already lah. secondary school kids. bah. can rmb those days. =)


missing him still. =)

busy busy busy.

fat fat fat. haha.



i love monica.
hahahah.
WE GOT OUR FREAKING SISTERHOOD RING OK!

damn cool can. hahaha. engraved it. shhhh. secret. hehe.

BUT that idiot went around telling everyone she knows that she's a lesbian. AND she is getting a ring with.....*insert drumrolls*....ME.

DOTDOTDOT.


nevermind.




WE ARE STRAIGHT OK.

hahaha.
love u babe. =)

sorry!

apparent lack of updates.
hahaha.
been kinda busy with life to even want to go online and blog about it. have been keeping a written diary instead. kinda cuts down the frequency i have to blog online.

hmmm. and it's more intimate in a sense. i can truly dump my feelings there. no need to censor how i feel. no need to censor all the names.

tuition. working for ma. going out with monz. going out with sis. going out with family. life's not a bore. it's tired me out.

i've fallen sick of late. =(

sore throat. loss of voice. cough. slight fever. blocked nose.

hmmm.

i will get well soon.

you know, i really do hate people who send the wrong signals to me. pisses me off. sigh. one moment you're so high, then the next you come crashing down.


i really don't know what i want. to bask in the present, or to demand for more.



*shrugs*

life's a bitch.

the coming week will be hectic. no promise to update.

miss all my army friends! =)

miss all my non-army friends too!
take care everyone.
the weather's really shitty.

十八天恋爱/i miss you so badly.

i'll be strong.
i'll smile for you.
i wonder about you now.
how are you corn?
i'll try not to miss you too much.
but YAM and YAAOMM.
=)

funny how you can make me cry and make me smile at the same time.

the hills have eyes.

sunday was shopping spree with sister in the noon and movie with the family at night! =D

happy happy day. but broken broken pocket. hahahah.

shit lor, where got people spend one day can hit $200 one. 4 hours only. what the shit. so screwed up spending habits.




hahaha. but at least i'm super happy with my purchases.

realised i'm experimenting more with colours and styles now. hahaha. not so much of STYLE lah. but different ways of wearing things. hahaha. and i'm liking it alot. it makes me happy. my style is pretty much the same with that face of mine. but i feel damn contented now. =D



damn damn contented.


and i had chocolate waffles and pocari sweat home delivery this morning.
sweet.
=)
i hardly believed my ears when i heard that.
hahaha. i had to contain my satisfaction and contentment. =D if not his head will swell.
but very unexpected. very sweet.
he is forgiven i guess.
*grins*
*smiles*
it hardly even matters anymore. anything.

i'm not looking for long term. i just want whatever to happen not to be sad.
i want whatever that lasts, to be sweet at least.
and it's mutual.
so it's not too much to ask for i guess.
no expectations.
no regrets.
=)

looking forward to wednesday.

tuition was ok today. tuition tml again. rahhhh.


tired. but contented i guess.

must constantly remind myself not to have too high expectations of everything.

the higher your hopes, the greater the disappointment.


i'll just take things in stride i guess.
and be happy while i'm at it.



thanks to monz and gene. =) thanks for the sweet tags. i really needed it.
been too busy to think lately.
yawns.



hating you is the most exhausting.-grey's anatomy.

open mind.

they say we are moving towards an open society, being less conservative and less condemning of off-rails topics.

it's bullshit.

sensitivity?

bullshit.

the only reason conflicts will arise is because people shun the topics and subjects which are deemed as taboo.

the more we shun, the more complicated things become. we MAKE them complicated. it is very simple really.

why must things turn out like that? so what if it's not the normal-usual-everyone-take-route? so what? can't i just be the different one? can't i be different from the rest?

i hate rigidity. i hate conforms. i hate rules. i hate restrictions.

fine, i do abide by them time to time again. there is a limit to everything. i know my limits. and i execute them appropriately.

i know i can be hurt. i know i will be hurt. but by stepping into this, i acknowledge that and i brave it. in everything i face, where can there not be hurt? where can there not be betrayal? where can there be NO insensitivity?

freaking bullshit. EVEN FRIENDS CAN BACKSTAB YOU AND PUT ON DIFFERENT MASKS IN FACING YOU, WHAT MAKES YOU THINK EVERYTHING IS PERFECT?


even the bestest of the bestest friend can go against you.

everything is unpredictable.
this is too.
so try to respect it.
i know what to expect. and i've thought about it.
all i'm asking for is some support and well-wishes.
i'm not perfect, and not even close to it. how can i wish for someone perfect too?
i simply embrace them. everyone deserves a second chance. a bitch may not forever be a bitch. people change. things change. i respect that. be it for the better or for the worse.

embracing and accepting. it's not difficult is it?

i just want some happiness. it's not too much to ask for is it?




what is love? what is liking? different definations. different perspectives.
i go by mine, and you go by yours.
i have courage to face whatever that lies ahead. i've been hurt again and again. it's no big deal. it comes with the package.
at least i know when to let go, when to move on. at least i know what are my limits. at least i know what i am worthy of. at least i know what i should do and what i should not. at least i know i will not hold on to something so full of jerk/shit/bastardness/(insert more irritating words) when i know fully the consequences of it.

I KNOW WHEN TO STOP.


what's wrong to YOU may not be wrong to ME.
so please stop judging and criticising by YOUR standards.
i'm tired of being nice and telling you stuff. you are my close friend. this is why i tell you all that. i don't go around telling the entire world.

i tell you cos' i trust you.
cos' i trust you to support me and stop judging me. or us.

please, just view this with an open mind. please.





friday night was gd steamboat with endless quail eggs peelings, flying mushroom battles, ancient storylines, ben and jerry ice-cream, american pies, and the list is neverending.
but i just did not feel the need to contribute anything to say. it's just satisfying sitting there listen to people i care about bicker and laugh along. because it is their mere existence that keeps me alive.

hardly slpt. talked alot about alot of issues and troubles.
tuitioning after that was exhausting. but my primary 6 CE class shrank. thank god. it is boring if you ask me. the other classes are fun! =) looking forward to the sec 1 and 2 english. one month leh. tsk. better start building rapport.

i think teaching is a two-way thing. you teach, they respond. teaching p6 CE is like teaching zombies how to blink. freak.

i kinda gave up. i guess it changes alot things when the number of students per class affects.




i'm tired. i lack sleep. i've not slpt. but i cannot be bothered anymore.
i'm tired beyond redemption.
i'm tired of all these shit.
but i will hold up.




a million little pieces.