Friday, December 31, 2004

*//__:)

just wenta cut my hair today. its disatrous i'll say. (i always say tt after any haircut anyway :P)
but seriously, there are basically about two descriptions for my hair.
1) it looks like a durian.
2) it looks as if im electricuted.

oh ya, if i wanna make things sound nicer, i can say i look like a boy with ridiculous fringe. wahahaha..*sigh*
i'll live through it..hopefully it grows out faster. gRrrr.


anyway yesterday we had a friendly match with VJC. hmmm..considering the first half was kinda like shit. it was really quite terrible to watch..we played hockey like it was the first times in our lives! :X got scolded by danker after the first half. gues tt scolding sorta knocked some sense and determination into us, and we certainly performed much better during the second half..=)

though i guess i forever wun be in the starting 11, but yea, to be able to remain in the team and be a valuable player is comforting enough..*sigh* hopefully next year i wouldnt get kicked out of the team before the season starts. hmmm. guess till then, i hafta try my best in every match and training...

the hockey guys gave us belated christmas and new year presents yesterday..hahaha..was pretty touched. i mean..hello???! those uncle, boisterous, noisy, loud-mouthed guys? lol, yeah, they pretty much touched a part of my heart. :P anyway, i felt guilty not to know who exactly was the one who gave me the present. i mean i know his face, but i dunno his name :X heh, and he was pretty nice too. he popped up from above me(cos we were sitting at the gallery area and he came from the step behind me while i was sitting down) and gave me the present. still, i guess at least they bothered to find out who were who and passed us our presents. we even got a log cake from them! =X were they nice or wad? :P

im aching like shit now. stand, sit, squat all also got problems. hahahha..vigorous man. gee. hope this aching will go down soon. terrible. like old creaky woman. :P

tml's new yr eve! gee. and i am not even close to completing 1/4 of my hwk. am i dead or wad? (ok im almost dead) *sigh* stil going out tml. guess i better get my butt ard to doin MORE hwk. looks presentable can le. gRrrr.

till then, my hair still sucks. gotta find something to do abt it.

oh ya..i've added this part into my hand-written journal. too long to type out.
god bless the people affected by this natural calamity. nature, has once again proven to us how powerful it us.
we humans, are nothing. powerless.
may the people recover, both mentally and physically from this disaster.
treasure wad we've got people..we are fortunate souls..hai..dun regret when it's only too late.

//appreciate what we've got, not whine about what we don't possess.

Monday, December 27, 2004

//*__stars

i used to think that all stars were big, yellow, shiny and has 5 ends.
i laugh now at my naiviety..


stars weren't yellow,
neither do they have 5 ends.


this fascination with stars prompted me to ask a friend of mine..
why do stars shine so brightly in the night sky?
why do they sparkle and blink at me?
he told me stars were actually like the sun.
they sparkle and blink cos' of the refraction light goes through before reaching our eyes on earth.


and so i found out the truth.
but somehow, i sought comfort thinking of stars the way they appear in fairytales.
big. yellow. shiny. 5 hands.
stars in such form represent happiness, hope and new beginnings.


i love the stars.
in such childish and innocent form.
i'd rather ignore the true, hard facts of science..
cos' it's only in this form,
do i truly seek comfort.
pure innocence and simple happiness.


// stars remain constant whereas humans are always changing..