friday 2:54am.

some pictures taken during com125 lesson this early noon. hahaha. mr choy was laughing cos' now he knows of my camwhoring love. zzz.

i swear i never stop getting fascinated during his lessons. it's good to keep learning.

that ghostly-alike figure behind my hugeass head is tomato! HAHAHA. he keeps trying to get into my frame when he knows im camwhoring. chris is uber cute. =D

ps: i know my face is x1000 times retarded. please do overlook my flaw.

that's mz from china. she thinks sticking tongue out is still very hot. HAHAHA.

ps: just tell her you think her hair is very nice. then she'll be happy and stop regretting that she cut it short. thank you. -grins-

bad hair day. i don't know why my centre parting is coming back. so damn off. maybe i should start using hair products. my hair is too light.


mz and i. ahhhhh DOUBLE CHINNNNN. seriously my face is so fat and big. sian. i want heart-shaped face ok!

ah bui and me. cheer up dude. everything will go smoothly soon. anything just call me to talk ba. be strong ok! bad things come in pair. but good things come in batches. HAHAHA. they bomb you!

looking at this picture, maybe i should really consider tanning. zzz one says that tanning makes you look slimmer. visual optics.
on dabus to meet yan at bugis for nlb AGAIN. sobs.

drowned amongst books. died. still yet completed. seriously, no internet research can be so painful. =(



did mz's stick tongue out. ok it's not that bad. but this uncle sitting next to me saw and he gave me a weird look. knn.

pimples on my chest when i'm stressed. hates.

roads...

bus..

me again. surprise surprise. quick braces off you go.


3 different detailing.


lunch. starved. yoshinoya much missed. combo set was good. ebi was succulent and tender.

clearer view after taking off that irritating wrap.


yan's. yums.


mine close up.


on the way home after hours of researching at nlb. OMFG i'm so fucking shagged. =((( when will i get a decent break?? SCREAMMMMM.

jos and eve came. jos sent me to chinatown area. wanted to bus. calculated and figured walking might really kill me. trained to harbourfront then bused home. wanted to sleep. got couple sitting opposite me on bus kept staring and whispering. dulan.

train and visual optics. look at my stretched legs. HAHAH the train was so empty it felt good not having to squeeze. love the cool nights. breeze.

updated com125 blog for cybercrimes and other malicious software possiblities and cures. advice on spam mail. SPARM(for abby) hahahah.

visit iamjielin.blogspot.com to know more. wheee.

//just in case you blur cocks are out there:

1) today is 29th feb. today comes only once in 4 years. i'm 21 this year. 4 years time=25 years old. i wonder what will i be doing today. what will i be? whoami? 2012 the answers.

2) some stupid terrorist escaped from prison while escorted to pee. my personal opinions-the escort must have been 1)retarded 2)insider for terrorism 3)blind 4)BOTH legs injured.

a limping man could have escaped under supposed tight security. what's up with the singapore's security forces? sigh. skeptics skeptics. we just cannot trust the authorities always eh? mz be careful there got alot jungle can hide lor.

more news on celebs. lazy.

parents going overseas soon. gonna try get some free stuff!

whee. time alone at home is both scary and yet exciting. STILL, i got tons of work to do. dulan. no better time to absent themselves. no chicken essence or brewed drinks to keep my sanity in the morning. no ready-made breakfast. =(((

and i would be working or completing school work half the time. great.

byebye goodnite to all my blog readers who faithfully read still. thankful.
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i still wanna be _________.

immobile.

too damn fucking tired that i'm feeling immobile. and in considerable pain. it's the first day and i'm gonna give birth as usual. WHY I ALWAYS HAVE CRAMPS!?!?! being a girl is damn troublesome.

seriously. i need the pink pill if it doesn't subside tml.
first day in months that i had to spend entire day outside in agony. lol. i'm so smart i usually get to nua at home everytime.

ok, com242 midterms today. sucks lah. alot overlooking. what can i ask for mans. last minute studying and i didn't even read 3 chapters of the textbook. HAHAHAHA. sian. nevermind. i shall allow myself about 5 MAXIMUM mistakes =(. LET ME DO EXTREMELY WELL!!! =)))

damn doesnt help that after that i saw 2Bs. ARGHS. TELL ME, HOW NOT TO BITCH. shitttt. i really tried. but their faces make those delibitative emotions arise and thinking about what they did makes me blood boil.

-gurgle gurgle-

see? i told you my blood was boiling. grrr. don't like both. but they are ALWAYS together. good things seldom come in pairs. bad things do; THEY CERTAINLY PROVED THE HYPOTHESIS RIGHT.

do they even know how revolting is their behavior? seriously.

i must control, jielin. remember: what goes, comes back. send out positive vibes teo jielin!!!! chill, chill. they don't deserve space on this page.


didn't sleep much trying to study for the exam. fitful and restless. damn. it's only the beginning. more work to do before weekend hits. then it's gonna be work and no time study for mgm301 midterms. i'm stressed.
and very tired. whoever said 2008 will be a year whereby i'm hale and hearty must have miscalculated. =(

I WANT TO BE IN THE PINK OF HEALTH RADIATING PINK! hahahah.

monday in wcp macs with nehneh the grumps:

and then what's phototaking without retarded expressions! this is some lameness for you, my blog readers. HAHAHAH. shit, looks like horse face. -_-'''.

so tired. headache started kicking in.

then she ate. and i watched. see, i take damn nice pictures ok. cannot stand it. HAHAHAH. why only my face always so chui. siannnn.


ahhh. someday, i must learn to be a barista. to make your own personalized coffee drink is damn cool.


frothy froth froth. wheeee. coffee prince anyone? =DDD


her sandwiches and coffee. and oh, boobs. HAHAHAHAH.


tues: after abel's lesson went home to nua with pudgy the pig before bathing. ain't pudgy cuteeee?

ya lah, my face spoil picture. HAHAHA. and i don't know why this pic was so blurrrr. zzz. chui diao.

front cams are always so chui. which reminds me. finally peeled out the back camera lens protector from Gmask i made in bugis. zzz. SO MUCH CLEARER. finally i can see DETAILssss. show you guys later.

just to scare you guys. at home, VERY tired and VERY bored. see lanpek hairband. goooddd. and yes, no specs just to check out how disgusting my eyes are. HAHAHA. i think i look like a squidball. wtf.
my skin is so bad. SIGH.


SEE!??! so clear right. can see word for word ok!

ok anyway this disgusting book was from this communications book i was reading to find stuff for my research paper for armstrong. i died reading. fell asleep, like i did for reading textbook. I REALLY CANNOT SIT STILL AND STUDY. save me.

more tomorrow. -faints.

went national library with pf and yan today. almost fell asleep reading research stuff. really, i've reached that GODLY level whereby i'm so exhausted i can sleep anywhere.

fell asleep onthe way home on the train too. -snores- short naps really make me feel better. =(

ate smoke salmon caesar salad today. zzz. influenced by nehneh to kinda like smoked salmon though by right, i don't like RAW MEAT. by left, i'm pretty ok with smoked sal. HAHAHA.

presented for mimiyan prof today in mgm. zzz. i didn't even START talking about the details about my article then he asked me to give personal comments already. so smart. HAHAHA. ok lah, but didn't feel nervous also. just sibei cold. school aircon getting more powerful. and singapore's sun getting more powerful also. zzz.

this temperature imbalance is bad. take care ok, everyone? don't fall sick! (but my new jackets all got use!!! HAHAHAH)

suddenly feel like eating tiramisu. sian. and soft shell crab.
you know, maybe i know why i never seem to slim down. HAHAHAH.
sigh. gotta work harder, teo jielin, you fatty bombom.

ps: pretty is subjective right? maybe i have some chance there. HAHAHA. i also want _____. wheee.

monday 3am.

i have no idea why would people want to give their products such weird names.

i don't feel very gay now.

managed to finish my MGM301 article on sunday noon. sunday morning while i was trying to make the most of my lazing-in-bed-time, videoezy msged me to ask me to work on sunday night. i was like......NO!!!! ok, partly i wanted, but i calculated the costs and figured that they were too high.
=(

now they've allocated me for every saturday for march tentatively. dammit. i hope i learn fast enough. grrr. i hate being stressed at work. all the mad clicking and refering and searching and replacing and selling and swiping. fuck.

i cannot seem to remember the processes step by step anymore. why got so many types of processes i must learn???!! =(

and the thing that differentiates my working ability has to be the most complicated process of all--selling and DOING UP the package on the computer. FUCKFUCKFUCK.
ok, i'll worry the coming sat.

was trying to study abit of my COM242 notes.
mozzie bit me. =(
don't be surprised if i get dengue.

my house has an average of 2 mozzies PER DAY. like bloodyhell.
yea, literally bloody.
all my blood mans. don't know why they dun suck my parents or sis blood, just like mine.

zzzz.

-cries.

ll, can you hear my pleas? bless me for the coming hurdles.
bless me everyday in everything i do...
so much things to do, so little time...

nightnight....

believe without a doubt.

i can't feel my toes, again.

bloody tired.
today morning and early noon was supposed to be break for me--time for me to get some mgm article done. before my shift in evening till night at videoezy. chinagirl's (henceforth known as bj) mum called me on friday night to tell me her kid had flagday and had to postphone the tuition to sunday noon. i agreed.

then saturday afternoon around 1pm, she called me again to tell me that her kid is home and can have tuition in the afternoon. like wtf???! thank god i was awake by then and halfway through my article. rushed out of the house by 2pm to arrive at her house for 3pm lesson.

finished around 5pm. bus-ed to boonlay then train-ed to clementi for my 6pm shift at videoezy. new temp partner working with me today. nice malay girl. chatted damn alot lahhhs. HAHAHA. better than the other guy. she was much more mature, understanding, humorous, chatty and easy to get along with. more topics to click lah, in a sense.

worked till 11pm. non-stop traffic. never felt so stressed working such a brainless job.
cos' 1) IT IS NOT BRAINLESS AS I THOUGHT. zzzz. freaking need quite alot of brain power lor. zzzz. -grimace-

gotta get those functions into my brain mans. or not i'll forever be lagging behind, especially during peak hours. i wished i had 2 brains and 8 hands(figuratively).

and they are gonna send me to the jurong branch, which i heard from the girl that IT IS SUPER BIGGG AND GD BIZ. wtf. please at least let me train more can??!? TEMP STAFF DUN ALL QUIT AT ONE SHOT. i need a break for my puny brain. =(((

got my pay for tuition and videoezy. wheeee. gonna bank it in. all in cheques now. yay my insurance for the month should be pretty safe. =)

reached home by 11:30pm. was on same bus as my sis. was starving since i had not eaten a single meal for the entire day. mum cooked maggi with mushrooms and fish slices and eggggg. wheee. stuffed myself.

damn so fat.

japan has got to be the only nation with such lovely packaging. minus the fact that it's a pretty pink. it just looks so dainty!

like even the biscuit waffles are printed delicately. WTF???! hahah. and it's damn yums to add on. wheee. my mum's friend bought it from japan on her sales trip. oh mannn.
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speaking of which, had a few random thoughts today:

1) teaching private is DEFINITELY confirm plus chop TMD TIMES 1000 EASIER than teaching a class. zzzz. felt like vacation cannnn. wheeee. easy money come come come. ok, now i felt like i was GOD back then. HAHAHAHAH. GODLY JIELIN. come worship me, the superteacher.

2) earning your own money and spending your own money definitely feels different than when people pay for your expenditure. hmmmms.

3) the world is bigger than it seems.

4) this old man who is researching molecular something(according to the girl) is a regular customer at clementi outlet. he saw my UB shirt and was asking me if i was back on vacation to work part-time here before i flew off back to U.S. HELLO!!! I WISH SO TOO.

=((( when i'm like filthy rich lah huh. wish my dad strike 10billion lottery soon. HAHAHAH. yayyyy.

5) learned a new perspective. =)

6) i still cannot feel my toes.

byebye and nitenite. i love you all. i love money and my As too. =D i will retain all of them.

all mine.

a short one!

just a few quotes for any of you who still read my blog amidst such chaos and busy school life,

"Breaking up is an art. Being broken up with is surgery."

"We're always fighting for democracy and freedom on the street. Then we go home and tell children to be obedient. The result? Everyone becomes conservative and hypocritical."
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Just some food for thought. debatable definitely.

today was ok. com125-ed. met armstrong for consultation. got back treatment. RATHER pleased. =)))

bus-ed to com300 meeting at suntec starbucks with J. read cleo and bio-ed a few of the bachelors featured. yawn.

com300 successfully finished meeting. work to do in coming weeks. SIGH.
went marina square with yan to walk walk around with her. she bought stuff. i bought ONE item. hahaha. it's something i never thought i'll buy but i still did.

home. tired. finished com125 stuff for blog.
time to mgm301 for article. =(((
BLESS ME WITH GOOD LUCK, LL, WHEREVER YOU ARE.
thank you.
gotta work hard. sat is gone from work. ahhh, $$ has to come somewhere decent.

byebye. pictures next time.

ps: i wonder...is it because i don't want it bad enough? or am i just finding excuses for myself? SIGH.

tuesday blues.

monday transferred to tues blues. =( day was fine till com125. then com300 arrived and a verbal war occurred. not that it was hostile or anything along that lines; but it was definitely very agitated, annoyed and impatient.

bad right? oh wells. things are settled FOR NOW. and i pray we can cooperate better soon. like NOW is best. sighs.
left school feeling pissed and irritated still. thanks to nehneh for the free cabride because she is so rich she don't think before spending. thanks still.

but thanks to cabride i got more irritated cos' of a freaking bloody HELL ASSHOLE TAXI DRIVER who yakked non-stop about his perspectives in somethings that totally collided with mine. I RESTED MY CASE AND FELL SILENT looking out of the window while BREATHING IN DEEPLY to stop myself from yelling at him and HE CONTINUED YAKKING AWAY NON-STOP.

like wtf?!?!?! ok that was a long sentence but you got my point right? sigh. if nehneh wasn't in the cab with me i might have murdered someone today.

anyway scouted bugis street today and paid visits to the shops we neglected for quite some time. zzz. burned a huge ass hole in my pocket. SIGH. but i like the items lah..shouldn't complain.
but my father kb-ed just now when he saw. it's not like i'm spending his money, or the ang bao money even. it's my hard-earned money and since i saw something i like, shouldn't i buy it??? zzz. sian... pissed.

day turned better later at night. videoezy contacted me for work on sat. sat morning have tuition too. i think the mum pays per 2 lessons. whee. and my training pay is at videzy also. means i can collect. whee. abundance jielin. think abundance, feel abundance and act abundance.

bro decided to be nice and msged me a sudden sms checking on me. WOW. HHAAHHA. i think he actually misses me. =D

worries worries kill. =S

exams coming. projects killing. please superwomanize me. thank you.

ps: no pics cos' blogger hates me and keep telling me my computer has spyware/virus and refuses to allow me to attach pics. dulan. SEE THIS BLOGGER??!?!?!

/EDIT/
can upload pics now. at 2:14am.



just my delipotato lah.

superwomanize me, please.

this song is seriously so retarded i think i would slam superman's face with a sledge hammer if i ever get the chance. omfg. i think i just displayed a sign of violence. zzzz.

media and violence is sooo complicated.

speaking of which, time to start studying soon. SIGH. =(

TIME TO LOSE WEIGHT TEO JIELIN.
kaoz. cannot stop eating you know.
i should just marry myself off to dubai where the food sucks and i will just slim down ridding camels who spit in your face (HAHAHA NEHNEH) and sand ski. =(((

-cries-
someone please save me. and nehneh stopped me from buying slimming pills wtf. i swear i'll remain this cow for life. grrr.

ate sushi buffet today. KO. walked around town to burn off those calories. SIGHH. chawanmushi craving satisfied. had complimentary lava brownie ice-cream afterwards which i devoured most cos' yan didn't like chocolates and i feel guilty for seemingly taking the entire tub. =( sorry laopo.
but wifey found THE jacket for me in zara!!! wheee. ok it looks kinda cok and my mum just asked me if i had bought a comic book home wtf. when you see it you'll understand. zzz. HAHAH but i liked the quirky nature of it. =D still, i'm looking for a couple more. the perfect one almost always seemed ruined by minute details that i'm very fussy about. TSK!

tried on super hot heels in zara and realised my legs looked fucking long and gorgeous. zzz. but also realised i needed to buy more personal injury insurance before i can get the courage to step out of house in those. zzzz. don't know how many freaking inches can. wth.

hothot legs. soon. =)

bought a blingbling tie to go with my plain oversized shirt so that i can attempt change in look(i think). shall see how it goes. overheard my mum saying i'm metro. thanks alot. as if being labelled lesbian ain't enough. wtf.

ok i feel fat lately. eating wayyy too much. please stop tempting me with food. =(((

tell me how to lose tummy fats. firm up my arms. flabby thighs. grrr.


ok. end of story. i love yusof ishak BIGBIG FACE. (yes abs see!) wheee.
feel the loveee? come to me yusof big face. and i'll love youuuu.

i think i need to clear wardrobe AGAIN. -_-
figured that i really have too many clothes that i'll prolly not wear, NEVER worn after purchase. fuckfuckfuck. detrimental lifestyle?

sorry no pics for today. too tired. till then.
trying to erase the vibe. but i cannot help it if my face is like that. =(
shall work harder.

4 hours in a salon.

can anyone beat me hands down? today i spent 4 freaking bloody hours in a salon that by the time i left that place i was tmd shagged and no energy to even contemplate walking home from the interchange.
-flaps hands exasperatedly-

i had to wait and wait and wait intermittently amidst all those busy busy hairdressers and impatient customers while my hair dried, while the guy who was supposed to work on me attended to someone else and skipped me totally(ALTHOUGH he kept apologizing for making me wait. DAMN MY TOLERANCE LEVEL IS GODLY) and while the dye was setting into my hair.

i think i waited for 1 hour soley JUST for someone to work on my hair after the wash. like wtf?!?!?! then another 40 mins for the highlight. 30 minutes for the cut. and god knows the rest of the time i fell aslp. WTF RIGHT.

HAHAHAH. i was so tired from the endless wait on my chair that i dozed off and jerked awake a million times just to doze off again. at the end of the haircut, i had a very sore and cramped butt with tense up leg muscles. wth lah. at least i have legs toned now. HAHAHAH. i'm so optimistic.

anyway it's full of malaysian hairdressers lah. the accent was so thick TSKTSK. nehneh would love it there HAHAHAH.

to sum it up, i didn't cut it short because i'm a genius and i'll show you why in a few seconds. i trimed and had it highlighted red(FOR LUCK!). that's all. wheee.

yes i look horrendous. i just woke up fro my nap and realised WTF NO ONE IS ATTENDING TO ME STILL!!!! HAHAHAH. eyebags, wrinkles, eye rings. sobs. =((( ya ya, my left eye is smaller than my right cos' the double eye-lid for the left is thicker than the one on the right wtf.

UNEVEN EYES SEH. =X

chicken tail alright.

another profile of the tail. so much thinner and lighter!!! NO MORE SWEATY NECKS AFTER BATH! yayyyy.

THERE!!! this is why i say i'm a genius. FROM long hair to BOB hair sehhh. omg i'm like super smart. -winks-

now i can transit whenever i want to. wheeeee. feel the loveeee? =D

ok unglam picture i just took. please never ever visit me at home UNCALLED FOR. a monster might greet you at the door. i wouldn't want to pay for anyone's insurance just cos' they got traumatised looking at me. =(

with hairband lahs. explain why i refuse to skype once the band is up. HAHAHAH. oops. ok fine i might get a glam-er hairband soon ok. act cute kind. wtf. -shudders-

tuition went well. i think the mum likes me. heh. $.$ ah wells, learn as i go right? i'm gonna work hard on translating.

bye bye my loves who are reading this blog(which is prolly pathetic number). i'm most prob gonna find my specs by sunday(today) with my sis in tow. boos. till then, it will be the end of my expenditure for time-being. ang bao money counted; lesser than last year. but reasonable. BYEBYE ALL GO SAVINGS. i feel so richhhh.

nightnighttt. =)

ps: finished hanakimi jap versh and my girl(2nd time now) cos' i'm such a horrible slacker and retard. boos. nvm, i believe i'm smart can already. HAHAHA.

14th of feb.

valentine's day! HAHAH nothing special lah. like no secret admirers in red teeshirt with chocolates and flowers in hand to give me. HAHAHAH. boos.

money making gimmick indeed. oh wells. in any sense, school was fine. relatively empty though. nina's class had exam. boos. i hope i do GREAT! though i felt like i was desperately smoking through the paper. does nina love me? =S YES SHE DOES. errrr.

went out after that with nehneh tramping around town. shopping! hahaha. feels good to be with her after so long. all crap, lameness and full of BOOBS. HAHAHAH wtf. her boobs getting bigger and bigger ok! -nosebleed-










ate my first smoked salmon today. tad bit too saltish for me. i shall stick to potato salad next time. HAHAHA. but hell, salmon is good. jian fei da ji hua!!!

today we decided to act lesbians and paraded around town HOLDING HANDS WITH FINGERS INTERTWINED. HAHAHAHAH omfg ok! like super alot of people stared at us as we passed and everytime we burst out laughing before we suffered from internal injuries holding laughter back. HAHAHA. awesome. =D

bought the star tee from revoltage. actually i like the cardigans alot..but cheecheek quite steep i think the price. =( nevermind. it's all gonna be mine in no time. =)

nothing much to shop today. walked around in tangs chilling and finding things for nehneh to spend her voucher on...she bought this top form harajuku which was on RIDICULOUS discount ok!!! HAHAHA. but i don't mind because next to the store was GSTAR which had this really cute salesguy. =DDD
bio until shiok. AND HE SMILED AT ME anyway. boos. ok fine, think too much.






the gmask is seriously pissing me off. from a 5mp camera comes these kinda lousy resolution pics. I'M GONNA GET MY POUCH SOON and off comes that bloody expensive wrap. cheated my money mans.

stupid johan tagged along while browsing around to wait for his swimming lessons to begin. hmmm. had hilarious time for a moment discussing about those mrs field's cookies giveaways at escalators and the bare-chested man whom he couldn't stop bitching about. hahaha.

nehneh bought this brown leather bag from balenciaga. and she went pretty high after that HAHAHA wtf. left her to zihigh and self-console that her wardrobe can accomodate that colour of bag. went to tiff&co afterwards to find her 21st present from her parents. omggg love all those star earrings. didn't see the snowflake ones though. hmmm.

wheee. no problem. mine in no time. =))))

crystals and diamonds. my best friend i proclaim. =)))

wy's tutee's mom called me on my way home. another deal closed. starting this saturday. indeed, those money notes are coming in fast. =DDD shall settle the fees i'm gonna charge on sat. wheeee. think i will charge higher than last year wy's fees since increase in level too and transport. boos.

and plus pf's one which is around that area TOO, i think i'm gna have to plan my timings about together so i won't waste time or money travelling too much. and think of all those money coming into my pocket!

-patpat-

my end of year trip to another new country is coming true!
my life i've wanted to live is coming true!
sustaining excellent grades needs more luck AND hard work on my part. thank you ll for everything so far. =) please continue to bless me...and mybrain....

now it's down to my body and face. hehe. working on it.
and then there's the heart and soul. will my good karma really return? turn all those negative vibes sent out by other people around to positive ones. because i must remember that whatever bad thoughts i send out about others, more of the same kind return about me.

it's time you learn. =)

it's a relatively good thursday i say! should be cutting my hair and scouting for specs tml! wish me more more more good luck!!! wheee.


i'm indeed lagging in my years. is that good or bad?
the answer is yet to be revealed. =)

skip the beat.

decided to remove my nail polish which has been chipping for days...plus i couldn't stop my itchy hands from peeling out the polish. it's quite addictive. -_-

tada! feels so odd without that layer of shitblue color. HAHAH. but my nail shape very cute indeed. =D round and fat. HAHAHA like peas. and its healthy pink beneath all that blue, so relax, i'm hale and hearty thank you.

allowed the nails to breathe before i started painting them again. started with my left as usual. smudged quite a bit due to lack of practice. zzz. seriously.
decided to add the stars bling after much consideration. i still have an entire tub left! and my sis gave me two bottles of very nice red/marron nail polishes earlier on. but...decided that darkblue has more of that hidden mystique.

i like. +)



there! the left done! did my right only after dinner.

meanwhile. it was fooling around with all those pretty sparkly stars.





jjjjjj. oops. no pun intended.

it's valentine's day today! may all the lovers in this world stay happy, blissful and sweet forever! enjoy your day with the special someone to all my attached friends! wheeee. (:

falling in love is easy. being loved is easier.
have it come both ways is difficult. so treasure the one. (:
as i have always believed, mutual attraction is never easy.





there. finally done. let's hope it dries soon so i won't wake up the next morning with wrinkles on my nail polish from the pillow case. HAHHAHA wtf.

you know, i believe i'm becoming increasingly anti-social.
i used to yearn for hostel life in school. like those i often see from dramas like hanakimi. i wondered how it's like to study abroad, make friends from other continents, roam the world i've not yet explored, see things from a different perspective, away from family who restricts and controls...

i wondered how it's like to participate so actively in competitions and dress-ups and cheerings and morale boosters.

at 20, i feel old, and perhaps this little mini dream of mine will never come true. graduation is but 1 plus year away.

i often wished for so many things.
-the family i grew up in
-the nationality i am
-the appearance i have
-the country i lived in
-the school i studied in
-the amount of money i have
-the siblings i have
-the life i possess

all these since i was in primary 1 and words seemed like magic. when everything else but what i have appears so much more attractive and tempting.

lol. perhaps...in my next life?
the possibilities are endless.
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figured i'm gonna get either detox supplements or diet pills. HAHAHA. wtf. like finally ok. my body needs some sculpting. and i'm open about it. I EAT I SAY cannot ahhh. nothing wrong what. so at least if i shit too much or die suddenly people will know the cause ok.

let's hope none of the above will happen, except that i will have a wonderful body at the end of it. wheeeee =D

healthy, fit, toned, no excess fats and glowing complexion. ahhhh, detox.
remove the symptoms of toxic body soooon.

i've neglected my book. =(

time to read com300 stuff. SIGH.

happy vday once again!