the weekend.

friday, saturday, sunday constitutes to the weekend for me.
friday, tutored. met fatbear after work to go over to his place to eat dinner. watched another 2 episodes of AI JIU ZHAI YI QI!!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA.
EH DAMN NICE OK.
i know fatbear will back to differ, but yea, i can't help it.
-up down eyebrows-
=DDDD

on the way to tuition. was waiting for bus...about 10 minutes already. then my papa called me on my handphone. and he told me to come back to the carpark to wait for him cos' he'll be driving over to my tutee's neighbourhood to get some stuff done.

so, another free ride! i've been getting a couple free rides from him recently. save alot of my bus fares!!! damn broke now please.

so, i'm back at the carpark. waiting for papa to come downstairs. another number this time. my pink sneakers!

ya, i was damn bored ok.

at fatbear's. after dinner and washing my hands, i decided to leave behind some imprint on his tee shirt HAHAHAHAHAH.

ya, i know i'm damn childish, but it's only moments of such behavior lor. most of the time i'm not like that. sigh.

my last day of work at VE. Hboss and Pboss asked me to stay. and LF wanted me to stay cos' he says he'll miss me working with him on saturday nights.

but fatbear insists that i quit. so HAI, quit, i did. lol. no point getting into a fight because of this topic.

that's LF by the way. i'll definitely miss the privilege of renting free dvds and vcds. i'll miss talking to some of the regulars there. i'll miss knowing every single thing there is to know. i'll miss browsing through films and finding out what's my favourite few. i'll miss the people there, even if i meet annoying people. i'll miss the bosses and LF and those whom i've worked with.

this place has taught me many things about life, about people and about myself.

but it's come to a point, after 1 year stint, that i don't feel that i'm learning anything at all. i know everything there is to be known for a part-timer like me, and even more. i learn too quickly and i get tired easily. i'm doing MORE than what i'm getting paid. i'm doing what my bosses should be doing. but oh well, i'm happy the way it is now.

so byebye, i'll miss VE, but i'm looking forward to what is coming to me. (:

sunday, headed over to EXPO at changi for the robinson's sale. huge shits. but didn't see anything so cheap i wanted to buy. bought a few tidbits and they weren't like dirt cheap or anything. i think the sale has been overrated. tsk!

browsed around for so long. time flew by. had a mini tiff with fatbear. all's well. SIGH.

back on the car on the way back to his place.


his mini eyes.
my very tired me.

he changed and we headed out again. fatbear's friend's birthday celebration. KL. ate at sushi tei at takashimaya. the food was alright. i think the ambience was a little too noisy and cluttered to feel comfortable enough. the place was bustling with activity as usual.

i ate sashima! ya, i mean i NEVER eat raw fish, but well, the sashimi tasted really not bad afterall. so, i approve of it now. =X

i feel so fat. ate too much.

after many undecided minds and a million minutes of discussions later, AND changing locations twice, we finally arrived at some pub to chill out. played games and drank beer. SIGH. i hate beer.

gonna go gym this week again to burn it off and unclog arteries. have to settle mcneil's persuasive speech and begin on commemorative if possible.

time is flying too quickly for me to think and evaluate my path. it's gonna be finals soon, and...i'm out of school and alone to fend for myself.

i cannot say this weekend is the best, because frankly, i don't feel that happy. there are so many things i want to talk about, to write about, but this blog is perhaps not the best outlet.

i wonder, if i keep thinking positive and waiting for the dreams to come to me,
am i deluding myself?
or am i welcoming the parallel thoughts to my life?

i don't know what makes me happy anymore.
i'm sorry for being a sourpot.
thank you fatbear for being there for me. we must work hard together.
now i know what it means...when people say "ignorance is bliss".

it is possible that phrase holds true.

no subject.

crashed nehnehs on tuesday to get some project done. uber sians. don't like school. but don't like the notion of working either. in any case, i've yet to find a job. SIGH.

dressed up her fat polar bear with some girly top. damn sexy right. just that the bear got no boobs. tsk.

trying to seduce people as usual.

nehneh working on her part, which she effectively LOST because i think she forgot to save or something. LOL.

my work. and the damn speech. still needs ultra working on. SIGH.

stoning cos' really damn tired. didn't stay long that night. too fed up.



one day in school, ate fruits. the watermelons got ALOT of seeds. zzz. i spent a good 1 minute picking them out.

the most interesting thing i saw today was watching a guy load up the vending machines in SIM. wtf. this is how bad school is. SIGH.

pris was playing her DSlite. and i was damn boredddd.

in class. DAMN BORED ALSO. can tell right. very long never camwhore in class DURING class. zzzzz. pris's head is damn small. makes me look giant wtf. nehneh didn't come for class cos' her eyes acted up again. dirty hands touch eyes.

this is what early mornings does to me. look damn shagged. plus i don't bother to dress up also. i really need a holiday. HOLIDAY PLEASE. haiz.

on the way home...at the carpark.



haven't been bringing my blackie out nowadays cos' i'm worried the throwing of bags around in school might damage it. =X so pardon me for all the rather poor quality pictures.

in the lift. looks stumpy hor my legs HAHAHA. eh, my legs damn long and nice one ok! -delusional-

feeling damn bored.

xiaohuang sleeping with his yellow blanket wtf. HAHAHAHA.

ok, don't really feel like blogging. byebye.

disturbing thoughts.

i think,
loneliness is a scary feeling.
but sometimes,
i think otherwise.
maybe loneliness is just a matter of perception.


you know, when fatbear is buried in his work, i feel torn between polar emotions.
i am glad that he is hard at work.
but i am sad that there is no time to meet.
i don't know where i stand anymore.
i could vaporize into the air, and probably no one would notice.


dual personalities is terrifying.
it may be normal.
but i hardly know myself anymore.
everything i do, every thought i make, every word i say.
it's like i'm bound to two trucks who are going in opposite directions.
sooner or later, i'll split.



having said so much,
i think my main problem is:
i'll never be contented with what i have.
there is just a perpetual feeling of wanting everything best.
i really want a life different from this. i really want to have everything i don't.


i wish...i really wish, i didn't have to grow up so fast.
i wish i didn't have to be so aware of certain things.
i wish i could do something.
21 going 22.

mz's birthday.

mz's birthday celebration with me, nehs, abs: (about 1 month late =x )

so finally, i've uploaded the pictures into blogger alleluyah!

met them after my tuition at ding tai feng at raffles city shopping centre. had our late dinner there.

er, both of them using phones.

wanted to take a picture but we couldn't find anyone to take a picture for us so we went to this corner with a white wall as background and took this picture ourselves. =.=''''

turned out pretty ok, at least. LOL.

another one. then we started to walk to esplanade to chill and take more pictures.

along the way, we saw these on exhibition. quite interesting.

my sentiments exactly. -points to above- wtf.

sigh. i hope not.

something i truly believe in.

mz and her "lao ren chi dai" look HAHAHAHA.

birthday girl and i. weets.

on the escalator. us. mz the one-eyed dragon HAHA. and my chipmunkish look wtf.

at the rooftop finally. hot day.

i'm sorry but my china friend is damn excited to take pictures, hence the two hands up (armpits can see) and excitement on her face. HAHAHA.

one of the many group shots. looked decent enough. don't ask me why we were bending wtf. HAHAHAHA.

so we realized that we would not be "cut off" from the picture frame and stood upright instead.

self-timer works wonders without tripod.

er...pray? i don't know mans. damn random.

mz is eyeing abby. abby is eyeing me HAHAHAHAHA. -up down eyebrows-

me and nehs.

ahhhh! cut of neh's face! and we got so hot and tired we didn't want to take pictures anymore. seriously had no wind on the roof that day! grrr.

BUT, we still continued to take pictures. AHHAHAHA girls lahhhh.

mz trying the jumping shot. but her top kept flying up, creating a damn comical picture AHHAHAHA.

see another one. can vaguely see her top flying up.

THIS ONE ULTIMATE HAHAHAHAHAHAH. after this shot -points above-, i couldn't take it anymore after laughing and suffering stomach cramps. told her to press down on her top lah, or not damn ugly the picture.

DENGDENGDENGDENG!

AHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA. wtf right??!?!?!!!! she looks constipated in the air AHHAHAHAHAHAHA. if you zoom in to see her face even funnier. omg. and her legs and hands! all the positionings damn hilarious lor.




our turn to start jumping. abs as the photographer. abs refused to do the jumping shots lor. so siannn.


errr, she was figuring out how to use my camera lah. so that's why i'm still on LAND and can see my armpits wtf. HAHAAHHA.

another ultimate picture! HAHAHAH nehneh and i kenna sucked up into UFO (abs's thumb which she accidentally placed infront of my cam's lens). HAHAHHAHA. coincidentally my pose also looks like i'm flying into the air wtf. -.-''''


a failed 3 of us jumping shot.

gave it up, and took normal pictures instead. too freaking hot. was perspiring.


HAHAHA SHIT I LOOK DAMN UGLY HERE. but i think the picture is damn funny lah. dammit. by the way, my facial expression was on purpose ok.

HAHAHA mz's butt stinkssss. ewwww HAHAHAHA. when she farts, her top flies up ok! powerrrr.

very uncoordinated and unplanned. but somehow all our poses fit into a coherent "story" for the picture. LOL. nice!

our feet. i was walking lah, don't know why i got donald duck feet wth.

abs finally in a smiley picture after so long!!! mz as photograhper.

errrr. we are having an affair i'm sorry HAHAHA. maybe WAS is a better word =(.

diu diu diu wtf. robots.

mz and VERYVERY random. don't ask me what she's doing because i don't know. she just lunged towards me and i took this picture in the split second LOL. tskkk.

birthday girl shot.

more birthday girl.

more more moreee birthday girl. she's showing me that she can become very compact also. wtf.

errr. what's smelly, abs? or is that "oops"?

random. don't know what's happening. -.-'''

preparing for the big kiss. wtf.

ahhhh!!! fatbear! i'm still straight. really. HAHAHA.

awwww. those were the days. SIGH. now i don't even have the living room to sleep when she kicks me out. HAHAHA.

oops. more scandals.

on the phone.

i don't know what mz was doing. but i was trying to act ghostly behind her wtf.

nehneh on the phone also.

these were all taken by abs. she snapped and snapped and snapped nonstop. lol. emo mz.

emo failed.

AHAHAHAHHAHAHA AND THIS I DON'T KNOW WHAT HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
looks damn wrong lor HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAA. mz you win already mans.

errrr. don't know also. crazy random poses. -.-''' i still recall that mz stated that she's very demure. the next moment, she did this pose wtf. VERY demure.

errr. i think we were acting like we just got attacked by perverts wtf.

mz playing with my touchy.

the flyer.

abs's finger and my sneaks.

mz.

nehneh and i. she was playing cow bunga on my touchy and dying a very short and fast death HAHAHAH lousy shits.

last final shot of our shoes! very different shoes, very different personalities?

okkkk. so i'm finally done with this. so proud of myself. fatbear and i's FIRST vday together up next! (((:

i cannot believe i'm blogging this even when i've got loads to do. grrrrr. dead.