Saturday, February 28, 2009

beep ugc.

i feel death everynight.
and i'm seriously fatigued.

i don't mind studying for modules that require more of application and common sense and daily interactional stuff.

but it comes to the cold, hard, disgustingly boring UGC and i want to die.
111 was passable. 211 was awesome.
but 112...is deadly.


could be the teacher whom i think is slightly perverse.
in a way that he wishes to see the rest fall into the category of Cs and Ds.
and permits only a handful of As.


comes to state when i'm studying and......just studying.
basically more of "reading".
i can't memorize.
and the questions in the exam will not be MCQ.
which means......


i'm fucked.
simply put.

because it isn't about the concept right now.
it's about...everything.


from book, to lecture to recitation.


this is probably the most anal professor i've ever had.


sure, we managed to get a 9.5/10 for our essay.
but that's like..10% of total marks only.
when midterms and finals are both 35% EACH.
i really...feel damn bleak now.



reports and essays and writings are stuff i feel i can control.
because it's what i'm good at.


but i face it.
i really suck at ugc112.


despite all odds, miracles will happen.
they always do. on me.
thsi won't be different.

i'll head back to my books and continue to explode my brains.
hopefully i can complete all chapters.
hai.



doesn't help that my cab almost crashed into another cab just now.
crazy driver.

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

mushyness.

mushy as it sounds, i'm happy with just this sentence after a day of shit in school and more shit trying to study for com326 exam on thurs, while stressing about lack of time for ugc112 exam next tues.


Steve says:
my love for u is endless..



i say i'm easily satisfied.
or i can also say that i'm easily cheated.
perceptions, perceptions.


sometimes when i say "LOL" on msn, i am not laughing outloud at all.

Monday, February 23, 2009

happy 5th month, fatbear!

i'm too lazy to blog and i really should be studying now because i have less than 2 days to study for my next mids COM326. screwed. zzz.
today's PSY333 wasn't too bad. shouldn't do too badly. i hope. =X

ethical issues still nagging. really, i don't understand how some people sleep at night.
maybe it just doesn't bother them at all.
i mean, maybe this world REALLY doesn't give a shit about values and principles.

-shrugs-
who really is at the losing end?
------
something i wrote for fatbear on our 5th month together.
21/02/09

SIGH. sometimes i think we both are too busy for something simple like romance.
which saddens me.
i wish i wouldn't have to grow up so fast to face this harsh world out there.
nothing really is what it seems anymore.

but i will continue wishing.
because wishes and dreams do come true.


ps: if you do not wish to read on, skip this entry.
------

dear fatbear...

I love you because...



you know what are my favourite foods.

you know what are the magic words that make my night sweet.

you care about stuff I don't care about myself.

you tell me that I'm pretty and cute (although I don't know how true is that).

you let me pinch your xxx.

I kicked your head accidentally and you did not get mad.

You buy me all kinds of gummy sweets.

you eat Japanese food with me.

you love bbpp and shitangel.

you never fail to message me every morning, even if they all look the same; I never feel right without seeing them in the morning.

you give the best hugs.

your tummy feels like a waterbed.

I think you really do love me, although I'm afraid to fall in love.

you made me believe I deserve another chance in love.

you treat me better than I treat myself at times.

you insist on kissing me even when I haven't brushed my teeth.

you say I'm beautiful even though I know I look terrible.

I like to see your face when you're jealous.

I think you grow cuter everytime I see you.

you do stupid things to make me laugh.

I tore your favorite boxers and u didn't yell at me.

you gave me touchy, which I've wanted since forever.

you speak funny English! cheer!

you and I are total opposites but that never stopped you from loving me.

you are the one I want to see everynight and day.

we have a future which I look forward to no matter how tough it gets.

I hope you love me back too... (:

things are hard and we both get tired. but let's persevere !! happy five months!! (: there are so many other things that make me love you more each day, and I feel that I'm slowly growing with you..give and take ya?

of course you do make me angry at times.. but I've learnt to be more forgiving already.. but don't take advantage ah!!!

time seems so long but its been only five months...but I just want to spend the rest of my life with you.

do you feel the same way too?

love,
your one and only princess <3
------

well, i got my reply from him.


anyway, i guess i'm just sad that fatbear doesn't really know how to romance me.
gah. i can't ask for much, can i?
he's busy, and so i am i. gotta live with it.
sigh.


so tired.
won't be blogging anytime soon because i really don't even have time to study.
dammit.
how do you cram within two days, everything into your brain.
zzz. this isn't learning.
i really hate this.


but at least i sleep better at night, knowing i didn't do all those shit.



planning stuff to get done once i get more spare time.

Thursday, February 19, 2009

exhausted.

so fucking bloody tired now.
after two nights of intense work, it is finally done.
the report. psy333.

after countless nights of planning, writing, editing, citing, thinking, organizing the UGC essay, it is finally done too. handed in today.

i don't know how much more brain cells i have left.

to conquer my com326 midterms, and psy333 midterms, and the ugc112 disccussants part for next week.



at nehneh's now. her polar bear soft toy is huge. -.- i think it's half of my height. and it's damn obscenely trying to act sexy everytime i see it.


i will post pictures after the crazy week is over.
till then, i will try to study hard. after stupid tuition.


LL, please bless me with good lucks alright! i need all that i can have.

brain dead and exploding.


if a robber clobbers me and takes my wallet, i would have no energy to fight back.
anyway, my wallet has only $2 in it.
-.-
take lor.

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

why or how.

my wrist feels sprained. and i don't know how and why.

my throat hurts.
i'm suspecting it's either throat infection or a bitchy ulcer.
and i don't know why or how.


i'm tired and i want to sleep.
i know why or how.


i just want all bad things to go away from me.
NOW.

Monday, February 16, 2009

clearing pictures.

a heart-shaped BBQ pork to signify the end of valentine's day. HAHA.
ok, there'll be a few random pictures first, then it'll be pictures from the tau huay day with fatbear. i've got too many pictures to clear. booooo. =(

enjoy!

mz and pf the horse HAHAHA.


mz dman happy with her new horse lor =.=




pf also don't care at all. HAHA.

one day studying after school in the library with a certain monk.

one day during break in school, camwhoring.

one day fatbear and his tissue stuffed up his nose. =.= flu ah. and some unglam uncle act which i empathize with. but i only do this at home. =D

one day, nua-ing at fatbear's after school.

the rascal.

i don't know what fatbear was trying to do.

fatbear doing pumping and the rascal learnt from me; sat on him. HAHAHA.



my sis's dog. zzzz. HAHAHA. tucked in under the blankets too. LOLOL.

ok...tau huay day! at rochor! niceee. (: sudden cravings satisfied.

bbpp looking very contented sitting in my pocket. LOL.



loads of camwhoring shots that do not require captions. =.=



omg damn ugly.







HAHAHAHA bbpp observes safety regulations ok! got safety belt! =D sit with fatbear. but apparently fatbear was squeezing him. poor bbpp HAHA.



he is king of the dashboard!

after queuing in the long long line, we finally got our goodies. yumyum!







see, fatbear is feeding me in the above picture right? AFTER THAT, HE PROMPTLY TOOK THAT PIECE OF YOU TIAO AND POPPED IT INTO HIS MOUTH.

kns. very gentlemanly, mr fatbear!

see!!! i caught his idiotic face. HAHA.



emptied food down our stomachs. tsk!

you can't really see from the picture but the queue was still very long when we left. zzz.

see, the tables extended all the way to the back alley. =.=

there! this is the sign board you should look out for if you want to eat tau huay and you tiao without going all the way to geylang! it's at selegie! whee.

left. and took many many shots at this art school nearby. was it NAFA? i'm not sure lah.





mural on the wall.





taken by fatbear. edited slighted to make it less shaky. tsk.





a series of self-timer shots.















sweet. (:

but fatbear looked abit se se de. HAHAHA.

another mural.

some void space.

white me out.



changed from night mode to normal. picture less shaky. but darker too.







fatbear got stuck in the hole too. LOL.

damn uncle. =.=

more couple shots.

fatbear doesn't look very willing. HAHA. but i didn't know he was gonna kiss my cheek.

see, i-kiss-him shots are better!

and he looks so xin fu like...xin fu nan ren HAHAHA. hor, fatbear? =D



i think with me, fatbear is learning to like taking pictures more and more. LOL. bo bian.

errrr. i think he was hugging me. and you can see, i look rather squashed. i was. -.-

from bottom up. my face seems to get squarer over time. wtf.

bbpp! cute!!!

ok last shot of bbpp and the bear. i'm done. coming up, mz's birthday outing and vday. =X

gahhh. finally cleared a batch of pictures.

today was boring in school. rushed off to NDC after that. papa came to drive me there because i only had 30minutes to make it to outram park for my appointment. my dentist chided me for not wearing my retainers day and night. i did lor!! but only for like 1-2 months. after tha ti just wore night.

she said i'm damn lucky my teeth never move. don't worry!! i will wear every night no matter what! even when i went to taiwan i still wore every night lor!!! (((:

she's still as pretty. (((: before i left, she said "take care, dear!" to me. woweeee. -melts- HAHAHAH.

back to school work. SIGH.

i'm so stressed i'm bingeing again. bad. fat fat fat.......

superbly broke. can anyone introduce me to grasslands in singapore to feast on? i'm gonna be eating grass from now on. i have no idea where my money is disappearing to. HAIZ.

PIMPLES! GO AWAY FROM JIELIN!
COME MONEY RAIN ON JIELIN!