Friday, July 24, 2009


because i can't blog properly in blogger for some reason. Shall archive my old entries for keepsake. =(
i'll miss
all the memories;

starting afresh/continuing my life's adventures at:

see you all there! amidst revamp!

Sunday, July 19, 2009


today i tried to be sporty and dragged myself out of bed to wash up and get ready to go to FICO Sports Hub just to watch fatbear and chip play soccer at their company's event. monz was there too.

i think i tried so badly to be sporty and bask in the morning sun, i totally lack my beauty sleep. i'm so sad.

it's gonna be monday tomorrow. in a few more hours. i'm gonna be heading down to the zoo for an appointment with my colleague. i hope that it'll be a fruitful day! tuesday will be appointments day too! learn learn learn! already in my 3rd month of probation. a little bit more....

so after trying to be sporty and staying there from 9am to about 3pm (followed monz to send her doggie coco back home and getting lost in jurong west wtf before using GPS to save our asses--monz can drive!!! OMG i'm the last one. zzz), fatbear and i decided to go home and wash up before going to queensway to scout for my trainers.

unfruitful. couldn't find the design i wanted. BOO. no pink!!! WHYYYYY. =(

anyway, we wanted to go vivocity's nike store to look. but they didn't bring in that color either. and i ended up browsing store to store for cheap clothings HAHAHAHA. and guess what!!! i bought a club marc blazer! it's so cool! trying to run from absolute i bought grey instead! it's got a unique cut, and it's only $29 bucks!!! zomg. take pictures and show another day.

i've got loads to upload.

saturday was family day after tuition. went to serangoon broadway to take the family grad pics because my popo insisted. AND i got make up slapped on me.

i think the auntie could sense my irritation when she forced me to sit still HAHA. so, she gave me a light base of powder foundation, SHAVED MY EYEBROWS WTF, drew one line for eyeliner, dusted some eye shadow, glossed my lips. and i was done. zzzzzzzz.

i looked at the mirror before and after make up. and yea, i was pretty shocked. zzzzzzzzzzz.

for a moment, i believed that i could be pretty. believe it or not. it's only light make up, barely noticeable, but she highlighted everything so well, i looked like i had super defined features (my eyes looked even bigger!!!) and flawless skin. it's crazy. now i know why people say make up works wonders.

i looked good even in spectacles!!!! WTF. eh, i'm pretty lah HAHAHAHAHAHAH.

pardon my bimbotic moment. but i always thought i'll look shit in make up. i've got hope! i should learn and do make up more often! AHAHAHAH. but i'm too lazy. zzz.
removing is another bitch. GAH.

dimsum dinner with the family afterwards.

more next time. enough rambling. pictures to entertain next!
keep reading! i know you'll want to know more about my boring life. HAHA.

whatever i want, i'll work to get. i'll make it come, with my own ability. that's power. things will change. and my wind is just changing direction--for the better.

Thursday, July 16, 2009

ikoi dinner buffet.

please accept my apologies for neglecting this space.
i have been working and working and too lazy to blog. tons of pictures...and taking forever to post. SORRYYYY.

anyway, grad pictures another day. I'll probably do a partial pictorial post on that because all are already on facebook. so if you go to my albums, you can find the pictures there. lazy ahhh. similar to the grad bash.

i'm getting more and more anti-social wtf. so please ask me to go out. greatly appreciated.

in any case, yesterday went to ikoi japanese restaurant yesterday after work for dinner. it's located in miramar hotel.

met monz and edwin and fatbear! my treat for....long story. HAHA. it was my first time there, but not the first for the couple.
the dinner buffet really encompassed loads of variety. i'm amazed. and the sashimi...brought me to heaven again. (((:

and i'm growing fatter. i don't dare to weigh myself. HAHAHA. aiya, should still be 55kg lah. HAI.

complimentary salmon sashimi for all.


eh!! we look so synchronised!! HAHA.

anyway i was REALLY exhausted by the end of work. work is supposed to be more relaxing with the boss away in shanghai for business for the week, but it's been nothing but crazy AND he's coming back tomorrow--friday. let me live, please. zzz.

our first platter for sashimi. tuna, yellowtail and salmon.

we had two more plates of salmon sashimi afterwards. HAHA. loveloveloveee. and guess what!!! I DID NOT LAO SAI OK! -claps-

salmon skin handroll. yums.

i forgot what this is called. can be bought from supermarkets, but they stuffed sheese in the hollow area and it's really yummy too!


fried tofu.


katsu curry rice with chicken cutlet.

nothing fantastic.

they had this. and the 3 of them liked it a lot. but knowing me, i run from fish. HAHA apart from tuna, sardines, dory fish(for fishnchips) and salmon sashimi. others i don't eat. except for grilled salmon made by my mum. she makes sure that the fish has no bones.

but according to them, it was really good!

seafood soup, served in this teapot thing. cool. really like the traditional jap style!


chicken wings.


errr. typical scenario HAHAHHA.

monz wants to be in harry potter. she is doing some spell.

monz keeps eating. and edwin worries about how to support this buffet-loving girlfriend in the long term. HAHA.

imaginery speech bubbles-

monz: eat eat eatt!!!
edwin: DIE LAH. my girlfriend very hard to feed leh.

group shots!

the place was really crowded and we had to reserve our seats before hand. i think monz actually reserved during the weekends and we went there on wednesday. according to monz, to reserve seats ON the weekends are worse. tskkk.

my 80 year old bond!!!

love love you monz! end of year trip? HAHAHA. must start saving liao...=x

ok my throat hurts. my lips are chapped from the air-conditioning in office. my skin is dry. and i'm super tired. finally done with blogging. more pictures due soon. i'll try my best. but first, i have to know if people are still reading this???!!

if not...=/ a bit pointless to continue. HAHA. my life can get so boring. sorrryyy.

mini updates:

1) monz and i signed for great eastern's women's run for 5km. HAHAHAH. eh i know people like marshy and whiteass probably are laughing like mad now. people go for standard chartered 42++km and i'm only doing 5km???!!

ok fine.but granted i've not exercised AT ALL for MONTHS!!!! and i seriously feel unfit.

in fact, fatbear dragged me out for a jog (because i told him i want to exercise but very lazy so he must drag me out no matter what) on sunday evening and we jogged from petir road blk 217 ALL THE WAY to ten mile junction's sheng shiong.

OMFG. can you all please clap!!?!??? granted, i felt half my life seep away HAHAHA. but still! what a noble effort i feel! =D

and i just went to the gym at my place for a short 30min++ jog on the treadmill. did only about 2.6km. WTF. super loser. HAHAHAHAH. shit. must improve. and i was the only one in the gym which was freaky because i went at 8pm+ and i kept hearing sounds. WTF.

must be maria (one of my colleagues) telling too many ghostly stories during lunch break. zzzz.

2) i want to get nike women's spring 2009 collection, well, one of the shoes. if i'm not wrong, it's called nike women's zoom sister one. i wonder how much it costs? i want either the hot pink or bright orange ones!!! chio!!! and it's supposed to be light and flexible like my nike prestos! OMG.

i need new track shoes!

ok blog more soon. really want to sleep. not enough sleep! =(

goodnight folks! love me!

Saturday, July 11, 2009

end of ONE road.

i've finally graduated. well, or so called, a symbol of graduation by attending the convocation ceremony.

HA HA. if you have read my facebook status, you could have sensed my minimal excitement in this.
my family (excluding the sister) is like over the moon with this. they were so happy yesterday i felt like a wet blanket next to them. HAHA.

in any sense, a new phase of life doesn't have to begin just because i've graduated. my new phase started 2 months and 2 days ago.

pardon the skepticism. update more anyways. going to tuition now. tataa!

Monday, July 06, 2009

not dead, neither alive.

been mad busy, as usual. sounds like there's nothing new to my life, right? gahhh. been trying to get all the rest i can grab on the weekends. sigh. otherwise, work has been progressing, learning and learning and learning.

today, a new batch of shatec students (i think) came. they should be staying for some time. while jenny from SMU is most probably ending her internship this month end. =((( i'll miss her. today morning has been......crazy. wtf. printing, editing, printing, binding, compiling, editing and on and on. i was so glad when boss finally left for his meeting. because FINALLY, we get to eat our lunch at 2plus in the afternoon. my stomach was growling!! =(

let's hope it gets easier. anyway, i'm alive and kicking. apologies for the lack in updates. but apparently, i'm a lousy blogger. HAHA. i'd rather sleep than blog. and i'm only blogging because the nagging sight of the piling pictures irks me. GRRR. so, not bintan pics, but randoms.

and i feel awful because i feel that after 9months together, sometimes, fatbear and i seem like strangers. it's a crazy idea. and i don't know why i get such an idea. things seem to be getting harder and harder to cope around here. and relationships are really the last thing i want to handle. unfortunately, things are seldom simple and plain.

i hate it when at the end of the day, we both feel so tired and we don't like to talk much by then. and we don't even talk much during work. just sometimes, an obligatory phone call from him during lunch time to check whether i've eaten (something he has been doing since i was still in UB).

and i tend to get mad at really minute things. it sounds stupid to say it out even, but it's really true! i just wished fatbear could be more accomodating and nice and understanding and pampering and pacifying.

BUT of course, he is tired from work too. SIGH. i can't possibly expect all that from him??!!

it's difficult to explain how i feel...but i guess i really need to evaluate my perceptions and ways of handling things and people.

i'm really not very adept at doing such things. i think i need to up my tolerance level.

a short update. friday is my commencement ceremony, marking my graduation from UB. i look horrendous in my regalia and all. but fuck it, it's a once in a lifetime thing right? let's just pray i don't look AWFULLY shitty and i won't fall down on the stage/stairs/anywhere else HAHA. my parents, both grandmas and fatbear will be attending. i will be taking leave from work.

AND fatbear and my popo met already. i decided to visit popo after she dropped me a call on saturday. and so, since fatbear was with me, we popped by down close to dinner time and stayed and chatted to her for a bit.

and my popo had so much time to call me during work today to ask me to bring fatbear along on friday wtf. while i was kiap-ing my phone between my ear and shoulder AND binding stuff and printing. omg. AND my papa called after that, must have been a plot or something wtf. asking me about my plans for that day. suspicious huh. -sniffs-

ok, enough ranting and updating you guys about my life. picturesss!!

kim gary's for dinner one day after work. at vivocity.

fatbear. waiting for food. starved. but the portions were HUGE. i couldn't finish my share. by 1/4 of my dish, i was picking at my food because i couldn't swallow already wtf.


fries! lovesss. by the way, they serve really nice fries, in my opinion.



and fatbear loves to feed me stuff (vice versa wtf). but i think his rate of feeding me his dish is faster than me feeding him MY dish. and i end up REALLYYY bloated at the end of the meal. unfair ok. hmpff.

went to collect my new spectacles on saturday evening. then back to his place for harper's island!!!

camwhoring with my new hair. longer on the front, shorter on the back. for framing my chubby face. zzz.

then sushi tei for dinner one night when fatbear thinks that we deserve a better meal and hence spending more. i didn't want to eat so expensively at first, but fatbear lor.

sashimi!!!! awesome. -flies to heaven- juicy, thick and tender. AHHHHH.

more salmon sashimi!!! omggg. -salivates-

fatbear's curry katsu don.

at work, one day. new specs, new hair. AND my hair has grown longer I CANNOT BELIEVE IT. why does my hair grow so fast???!! i want to cut it shorter again! =((( but one thing for sure, it NEVER grows thicker. fml. HAHA.

anyway, the table behind me is now occupied by this male shatec student. SIGH no more privacyyyy. boohoo. and he smokes. so everytime he comes back from his smoke break, GOD HE STINKS. -scowls- but, thou shalt not generalize that he is a bad person because he is actually very polite. hmmmm.

i just need more air freshener. please donate. HAHA.

and btw, I NEVER ZAO GENG OK. i wore another tank top inside my chiffon top, so ya, that grey thing is my tank top, not my bra wtf. in case anyone is wondering.

ok, i admit my specs doesn't look far off from my previous one. but the frames are slightly wider and bigger. and it's a greyish sorta tint, with baby pink inner frames. WOAHHH. HAHA. and i made it entirely in plastic. which is really light. my previous one was all glass, therefore the weight.

does it look better? please say yes! (even if it's a lie HAIZ)

and looking at this picture reminds me that FATBEAR DEVELOPED DOUBLE EYE LIDS OMFG. HAHAHAH. from single to double. =.= eehhh, i think i gave him some of my double eye-liddedness. if it's even possible. please don't pass me his fat genes though! =((( -worried sulk-

well, people say if you spend a great amount of time together with a certain person, you start to develop features like the other party! omg. but i wouldn't mind more of his nose bridge. he has quite nice side profile. as compared to my pancake one. HAHA.

popped by 7-11 one night to grab milk for my breakfast to put at fatbear's. and 7-11 was giving out these at $1.80 for two random characters in an egg!!! we got these! reddish one for me, and blue for him--in order not to look to odd for him. mine's MR SMALL. and his's LITTLE MISS SHY. HAHAHA.

and he hung it on his hp without me having to nag him much! omggg!! a big difference from shitangel's introduction. -beams- and he really seems to like it. =D

then bbpp and shitangel started to amuse themselves with the plastic eggs which contained the mobile accessories. HAHA. shitangel in her makeshift rocking chair. bbpp with his new armour hat wtf.

evil fatbear KIAPED BOTH SIDES OF THE EGG TOGETHER--WITH SHITANGEL INSIDE THE EGG OK! =(((((( she almost died from suffocation. luckily i found her early. i will kiap fatbear if he does it again!

saturday, accompanied fatbear to starhub centre for a CPA australia introductory talk and wait for him sign up and stuff. yawnnnnn. the same day of meet-the-popo-session. i was wearing this hugo boss polo tee i bought dirt cheap in bintan with my bandage skirt and leggings. a very unsatisfactory outfit. but woke up late, no time to choose outfits and feeling fat. HENCE, a lousy short day out =(.

whoops. i know i'm not very demure. -shifty eyed-

sunday, we went out to town for DATING. finally, after ages, we're finally dating outside of the panjang area (ARGHH) and west coast (ARGHHH) and his house (ARGHHH). town was packed man. shopped around. main target was to buy proper shoes. bought two pairs. and a cute boxer PJs made of satin in a nice shade of blue. loves.

dinner at grafitti cafe which took over the LJS area in the basement.

wanton noodles. ALOT. i almost couldn't finish. picking my food at 1/2 the dish. =(

totally can't finish. fatbear had to wipe it clean himself.

entire meal. with bubble tea to boot.

which mostly, fatbear finished all. HAHA.

my outfit for the day, pardon the lousy lighting. took it when we got back to his place. it was still raining heavily =(. black tank for inner from topshop, purple checked chiffon top from f21, bandage skirt from my sis (too big for her but just nice for me FML).

wore with sneakers, but changed to nicer mini stacked flats after i bought them. legs looked way longer. it looks stubby now =/.

i swear, the miracle of heels. but the pain it brings is intolerable too. gahhh.

ok, end of entry. i better grab sleep now. it's going to be 12:30am =(.

stay tuned readers of bigyellowshiningstar. I WILL BLOG SOON. because fatbear sucks and we will not meet until he is guilty enough to miss me so badly he'll want to meet me. HMPFFF.

provided i'm not to lazy to blog myself when i'm home. HAHA.

ps: watch ice age 3! it's really cute and hilarious. even fatbear agrees! (((: and sis's says xiaohuang looks like sid. wtf.

goodnight darlings.