without lifting a finger,

you are holding me back.
how is it possible?
i want to move on, i want to let go.
but it's just so difficult.

those old emotions won't just leave.
maybe they won't go.

i wonder how things could be different if it had worked out.
if the two of them had put in more effort TOGETHER.
if they had compromised more instead of being so strong-headed half the time.

and then i continue hoping.

he said r/s is about love-hate.

is it really this way?

i keep hoping the two of them will work things out.
because.

i want to write out all my thoughts..but people read, and somehow i don't want to let those people know.
even people whom i don't wish to read this.
it's so fucking irritating.
read nevermind. go "pass message" to others. tmd. get a life lah. your problem meh?

sigh. and i'm starting to detest you. REALLY.

it's so hard not to be prejudiced or have feelings of irritation against you.
because i didn't like you to begin with.
and acting cordial doesn't help. really.

maybe from now onwards, there is no need to.

whatever it is, just leave me alone ok? you. and you.
because it's time for some space and fresh air.
self discovery.



to whatever number foe, sure, i whine. but don't speak like you know me so well.
because you don't.


i'm thankful for the concern, but somethings, i think it's time i handle it alone.
pick up the momentum.
re-evaluate my priorities.

i want to hear what you have to say.
but...will we just end up fighting again?

have my emotions all along been one-sided?
i really dread to think.


bleakness is at its maximum.
and i'll try to keep on smiling.

decisions...so hard to make..

head over heart?
heart over head?

the haze is so bad, i can hardly see.


don't read too much into every line.
don't smile behind your screen and be happy because i'm not.
karma.
what goes around comes around.