wasting time on random musings.

had a mini chat with a certain someone; which reminded me of how the Internet definitely don't work on the part of privacy. not that i have anything illegal to expose; but yea...you get the drift.

readers of my blog should take things with a pinch of salt, because certain emotions and dark thoughts i reveal here, i don't express them in real life. it's like an outlet for self-expression, catharsis and hopefully a better me after releasing all the debilitative emotions.

sure, go figure out the code names of certain people i coded, go wild imagining who i could have been refering to, and go waste time on such thoughts. i'm not stopping you.

just read with a discerning mind.
because though you may assume you are the topic of my musings, it may not be you at all.



i'm so tired of wanting to explain myself and i've added disclaimers since jc days. it's actually come to a point that i'm afraid of revealing my true feelings via entries; afraid that i'll be misunderstood, yet again.


i know, i should just fuck it right. who gives a damn about what others think.



a sidenote...
don't assume you are the beholder of the entire knowledge when you haven't heard the other side of the story.
don't assume you are always the one.
don't overestimate yourself.
don't think you are the best.
don't think i cannot live without you.

ok, it turned out to be a FEW sidenotes.


and a personal note for me:
some people, you're better off PRETENDING you never knew them.

for superficiality rules their minds. close-mindedness is common.
and they just take trivial things a tad bit too seriously.


give me a break mans.

sooner or later i'll just shift my blog entirely and disappear from the realms of this world, travelling to my heart's content.
-beams-


right now, just remember that if i'm nice to you, it's not cos' i have special feelings for you, but because i regard you in respect you deserve and i believe you're someone worthy of my communication time.

lol, to the other loserswhothinktheentireworldsgirlswillfallattheirfeet, get a life, seriously.
i don't know to be disgusted or annoyed or hurt. i think it'll end up as everything. SIGH.
debilitative emotions lah. go away.

ps: this entry is a culmulative of many torn snippets within my mind. so if you are able to piece different events, people and issues together, congrats.
if not, don't think you are very smart and assume you know what i'm writing about. HA!