:)

had a date with roy today! hahahaha. well, he asked me out to study so decided to go study lor. hahahaha. *study* sighhhh.

i woke up feeling terrible with flu. and i HAD flu. i couldnt stop sneezing away. teared like siao. combo-ed thousands of times..

waited for roy to come so we could eat our lunch. almost starved to death. hahaha, he wanted to treat me la. but i REFUSED. and he INSISTED. and i REFUSED. and he PAID. then he REFUSED to take my money. and i had to SNEAK the money in between his notes so that he couldn't find them. then he SCOLDED me cos' he couldn't find them in his notes and he was scared he would lose them. but he FOUND them. hahahaha.

the study session was highly INEFFECTIVE. so sad. couldn't stop talking and yakking away. was talking about stuff that happened in secondary school and couldn't stop laughing. hahahaha. but got sad stuff also la. *shrugs* but i really enjoyed the talk.

heh. saw SOMEONE i would least expect to see there. goddammit. he scared the hell out of me. you see, i was listening to my shuffle which is as usual, tuned to a very loud volume to drown out all the shit noise in the background. so i couldn't hear.

then i was writing notes. when it seemed like mac experienced some cloud which covered the lights. so obviously i looked up to see what happened. and i saw THIS FACE. fuck. he was standing behind me, and did not make a sound. and ROY so nicely did not tell me anything?!! sighhhh. he was PEERING down at me..really scared me like shit.

according to roy, he wanted to see whether who it was he thought it was. so apparently i was. arghhhhs. he lives in WOODLANDS, i live in WEST COAST. tell me its like polar apart!!! arghhh. but nevermind. thank god i had roy with me, cos' if he SAT down next to me and started talking or whatever shit, i'll just die there. hahahaha. yes, i know im over exaggerating, but hecks. im overly traumatised by him. the things he does and say really freak me out.

BAH. he even said my name so loudly in the mac before he left can. hello, i can hear you, you don't have to go "BYE BYE JIELIN" THREE TIMES. it was REALLY loud. arghhhs. no, this point im not over exaggerating.

arghhhs. i hate having to publish even before im done cos' of this DUMB ASS COMPUTER.

i just typed anothe rhalf of the entry and it did not save!!! FUCK YOU COMPUTER.

im so pissed. arghhhhhhhhhh.




someone send me a rich boyfriend so i can repair this stupid computer. someone send me a capable killer so i can order him to kill everyone who invented this shitty stuff.



whatever.

sigh. shall try to recall.



fuck. im still very pissed. i feel very violent. yet im so pissed i want to to cry.












ok, i really want to cry. i cant rmb anything. fuck this computer. it really ruins my mood.









anyway, as i had previously typed, we could not concentrate to study, so we decided to stop. roy kept falling aslp(and yet he managed to complete one set of econs notes), and i kept sneezing every minute. toyed with his phone for a while. took a few pictures. can edit somemore ok!!! so freaking cool. hahahaha. but my faced was "softened" until i could see nothing. hahahaha. but nevermind la. quite fun.

and so roy started LAUGHING at me sneezing my combos. dammit. i didn't have anyone laugh at me sneeze before ok. so traumatising. i was trying to yell at him for doing so, but i was having difficulties doing that through my combos. hahahah. sigh. i hate flu.

so we packed up and i suggested ice cream!! roy kept emphasizing that ice cream was fattening, and i was really agitated. hahahah. i know im fat, but heck. a little fats won't kill. :) so we stood there wondering if we should get macs ice cream.
roy did not want cos' he said not nice. then we headed for kfc, which did not sell ice creams. and he suggested shop and save. but they sold many many ice creams in BOXES, and none of us wanted so many. hahahah. so i suggested 7-11!!! :)

but we toured teh chocolate section for sooo long. damn, its sinful. to look at chocolates and NOT buy them is really really sinful. *grimaces*

i'm gonna dream of chocolates tonight! =)

roy wanted to find his NUTS, but we couldn't. hahaha. so in the end we got to 7-11 and got our cornettos!! :) stood outside 7-11 happily munching our ice creams like 7 year old kids. heh..

"eating ice cream during cold weather feels different eh?"
"yup.."


so there was this moment of silence. a fleeting moment. yet made me feel like..i don't know..the past? the past of fun we used to have? it felt really comfortable. you know, when somethings are gone for a moment, and yet when they return, everything feels the exact same way like it used to in the past?

comforting and soothing.

a moment only. yet meant so much. well, at least for me. :) hahahah. so we started yakking away to the bus stop. roy had to eat dinner, i had to go home..i felt bad actually, cos eating alone really sucks. but i had to go home cos' dad msged me already..BAHS.






nan dao nan guo jiu bu neng shi kuai le de ma?
nan dao nan guo yi ding yao shi nan guo?
bu neng shi kau xin?
wo bu zhi dao.
wo zhen de hen nan guo.
wo zhen de hen kai xin.

indulging in sadness.