awake.

im in love with the not early not late time of the day. it's the only time i actually enjoy total peace and quietness in this house.

i really enjoy it. i'm relishing these moments in fact.

the calmness and stillness of this time appeals so much to me.

alone.

melancholy often surges from within.

it's because this time of the day, i can stop and think for a while, what i've done/not yet done for the day. i feel anticipation. awaiting what will happen when i go to sleep and awake a few hours later.

i can think of the past. i enjoy being lonely now.

i gaze out at the empty roads outside my house. i smile at the ridiculously sweet dedications made on-air. i laugh at my favourite DJs' jokes. i feel nothing but silly happiness when i hear my favourite songs on the radio.

it's a simple joy, i tell you.

little can appreciate this love i have for this time.

it's hard to describe. you see, it's not early, neither is it late.

it seems to be as if i am suspended in between two phases of the day. the ending, and the beginning.

a wonderful feeling, aiya, i can never describe this emotion im feeling now. till i find the appropriate words..(:









can't online. com screwed up still. using parents com now. yup, typing reallllly softly. hahahah. everyone's asleep.

i think i've missed alot of interaction between my friends. somehow, i've realised much of my life and communication revolves around technology--MSN and SMS.

HAHAHAHAH. dammit. such a sad thing ok.

ahhhhh. a nice song. :)





my progress so far?
fucked up la. super slow.
if i can finish everything, i swear i'll go jump down from my house.
as in finish studying thoroughly instead of the skimpy run-throughs i've done.

sigh. i feel pathetic for myself.
weiqiang said his brain is pentium 1, need to upgrade ram and memory space.
i say mine is lao kok kok computer, cannot find in market already. too long never use then brain kinda malfunction.

did i mention i hate studying???!!
i'm like so envious of people i know who seems to be good at everything. they seems to be blessed in EVERY SINGLE aspect can??!

*pouts*

academics. check.
sports. check.
looks. check.
friends. check.
personality and character. check.


ok. im sure there is more. but im really sleepy now. *yawn*
gonna finally get started on my econs. ARGHHHS. my hope for A!!

*sigh* i such a huge loser.

but i must say first, i study for my father.
cos' he is really working freaking damn hard to earn money for the entire family.
and the fucking exams fees costs a bomb.
i don't wanna retake or whatever shit then he have to pay all tt shit money again.

besides his all-too-loud voice sometimes, he is a great dad! :)




ahhh, besides, i want to fulfil my dream of 3 years. :)
GO JIELIN!!!

hahahah.
everyone is chiong-ing like mad. its fucking scary.
people doing PRELIMS/ALEVELS/TYS papers, i here READING and UNDERSTANDING notes.
so loser right?
hahahaha.
but it's ok. long term goals.
long term goals.







ya right. not so long term already.

i better fucking get my ass moving.

sighhhhh. so vulgar. but im exasperated.

can you believe i almost burst out crying studying for the stupid idiotic physics???? don't get me wrong, i rather me studying physics than maths, but i was really demoralised and DEFLATED(but i'm still fat) by the fact that i can't get simple concepts right!

and you know what? i've engaged a free tutor!! hahahaha. weiqiang has kindly offered his services. poor him.





darn. econs and geog. UNTOUCHED.

so dead. so dead. shall study econs. higher hopes of passing.

heard from other classes the prelims for econs is going to be so murderous that those who used to do well may not do so well, and those who just pass may just JUST really pass or get a O.

oh well. im screwed.

why do i seem to be re-enacting my prelims for Olvl days?

i hope i don't have to see the principal for this case. turn-off.








enough of blabbering. i wonder why do people even BOTHER to read my blog.

hahahahah.

so full of shit.








by the way, to everyone who reads this dumb blog,

I MISS YOU GUYS!!!!!

*BIG GROUP HUGGGGGG*

=D