the painful heartbeat.

do you see why i refuse to meet your gaze,
even when you're just standing in front of me?
do you see how hard i try to hide all these,
because i'm going to get out of it.
a promise is a promise.
a line is a line.
but now,
everytime you stand before me,
everytime you look at me and grin,
or when you are simply annoying me,
i fear that you can hear the joyful beat of my heart,
like i can hear so clearly,
resounding in my eardrums.
i fear you can hear,
and see through all the lies,
before i get out of the inevitable.
the inevitable, must be resolved.


i'm gonna fail my last esl essay.
-curses and swears-