saturday yet again.

time flies.
as im typing this,

happy 4 weeks fatbear!
hahahah yes not happy one month till 21/10 ok. ((((:

the 4 weeks have been...amazing.
like happy/sad/crazy/angry/and definitely many things i've never experienced before.
let's hope this goes on forever and forever! (:



work was terrible.
tuition for B was fine. she got back her results. english improved! she was 4 marks lower than the highest score in her class. and she improved as compared to last year's end of year. (((:


good. both my tutees are doing fine.
at least i don't feel like i'm a lousy tuition teacher. yayyy.
oh B is first in class overall. zzz.



VE made my legs run away yet again. so tired.
and Hboss said i need to deduct the variance cash from my pay.
i swear at that moment i almost burst out crying.
i mean..the pay is really shit already..then this kinda things must happen..it's not even my fault..haiz.
in any sense, he told me somethings.

and things are BETTER. somehow.
i'm gonna make it BEST; just like nothing happened before. i must.



LF worked with me today. no variance. thank god. but there were discrepancy in numbers on forms because keyed in wrong info. at some parts.
as long as money never short can already. aye.


time flew. tired. never ate. hungry. forgot about hunger. LF kept asking me to get food, but i had no appetite.
chatted quite a bit with him. funny shits lah.
he's really like my little bro wtf. HAHAHA NEN CAO. HAHAHAHAH. he hates it.

and i think we derive joy from irritating/annoying/making fun of each other. wtf.


brain still lost.
cannot. must find back.
desperation.


ok i feel sick from hunger. i should sleep. long day sunday.
i hope i won't get lose in ulu panjang mountains.

in any sense, money really isn't easy to earn.
ihatethisfeeling.
money will come to me. it's mine.


continual optimism comes back in multiple forces.
i really need to believe BELIEVE.
i need things to start changing.
and things to flow my way.
that's how it should go.
it will. and is.