Wednesday, October 22, 2008

finding direction in life.

as i'm typing this, some unit in my condo is having renovation. the construction is annoying, noisy and headache inducing. but it gets so droning, somehow, some way, it becomes blocked out mentally over time.

but the vibrations are making my chair+butt vibrate HAHAHAH.

okkaaay.

18th OCTOBER 2008, SATURDAY:

this butterfly has been loitering outside my house for a few days. i almost stepped on it when i left the house. luckily i didn't =.=



if sis sees this, she'll probably scream so loud the entire condo will think there is some fire in our unit wtf. i don't see what's so scary about them.

on the other hand, she probably will never understand why i dislike and is (slightly) afriad of ants too.

after tuition and got home to change into my just-dried VE polo for work. zzz. consecutive days shift are such a shit because i only have one polo and it cnanot possibly dry over night when i get home from work at 11plus at night only.

in any sense, i whined/complained a little and Phoss/Hboss got me my M size polo FINALLY!!!

i don't have to suck in my stomach in the stupid XS polo anymore during work!!! HAHAHHAHAHA.

and i became smarter, choosing to wear a longer tank inside my polo so i wouldn't zao geng everytime i have to bend down to take files at the bottom of the shelf. zzz.

19th OCTOBER 2008, SUNDAY:

sunday morning wanted to take 189 then change to 184 to go fatbear's place. but i got too lazy and the sun was too hot and the weather was too humid so i decidedly took a cab from clementi (after popping by the top up my ezlink).

the cab driver was extremely friendly and nice and we talked quite abit about life today and what is happening around the world. he gave me some advices and encouragement and it was indeed a good start to a sunday morning.

the purpose of these pictures is to show how messy my bag is. zzz. i hardly ever empty the rubbish inside. it's like this trash bag already. gets heavier and heavier each day. BUT WORRY NO MORE! i emptied and sorted out the stuff yesterday! yayyy. it's way neater and cleaner now! (:

daily basic necessities. jacket (for later at night). personal notebook for jotting down notes and tuition dates. water bottle.

erm, sweets and mints to keep myself awake and alive during lectures. my pig. the com's wire plugs. the ralph makeup bag. my piggy pencil case.

and darling fatbear was making breakfast for me. because i randomly requested and him being the ever nice, understanding, lovely fatbear, complied. =D

ahhhh. the awesome house-hubby HAHAHA. he cooked everything himself! -claps- i had requested for english breakfast...

camwhoring in his room while he cooks and gets the food ready.

TADAAAA!!!!!~ doesn't it look awesome?? i'm a sucker for english breakfasts and all these ingredients are my favouritest ever. i mean..minus the absence of wonderful waffles =(

thank you fatbear! you're the greatest!!!
(((: i can feellll the love! heheh.



more camwhoring. zzz. i am hopeless. changed out of my clothes because i didn't want to stink up over the day. we were supposed to meet monz and ed at night for singing too. fatbear's tee!!! WHEEE.





the lighting rocks lah. HAHAH. and i realized my hair is like perpetually "just woke up"/"out of bed" look wtf. messy until cmi.



talked to abs on msn. hilarious conversation after such a long time. aye. as you can see, was editing COM441 report too.



fatbear ka-jiaoing. zzz. left hand.

then right hand pose. HAHA wtf. aye bored people.

really really blue.





evening time. left the house to meet monz and ed. picked them up at lot1, then drove to chinatown for tendollarclubktv HAHAH.

love birds and going strong after 2 years! (:

they gave us this "VIP" room right IN the kitchen. yes, you saw it right. it's located INSIDE the bloody kitchen. everytime you want to go toilet, you have to walk THROUGH the kitchen.

like wth??? HAHAHA we can see the food preparation. near enough to kop extra food. can see steam from the cookers and stuff. seriously. if explode we first to die also lor.

their "couple-ish jackets LOL.



i was very tired by then so my eyes were like half closed. zzz. and fatbear finally has a different facial expression.but unfortunately looks very very retarded. zzz HAHAHA.

20th OCTOBER 2008, MONDAY:

as mentioned in earlier entry, pizza hut with nehneh and chaigaoyuan.



the all new tomyum flavored thin crust pizza. i don't understand how people use fork and knife to eat pizzas!! it totally takes away the essence of pizza eating!!!! RIGHT???

but look at both of them! zzzz. no fun lor. HAI. only me use my fingers. ya lah. me no culture one.

anyway, monday was seriously bad. because i was sooooo late.

people who know me would have probably heard me ranting non-stop about the lousy 189s which are NEVER punctual.
the thing is..on monday..apart from the 189 being LATE 30mins as usual, clementi interchange was so fucked up clogged that i couldn't board about 10 buses which came and left. =.=

it was that bad!!! and i can bet 3/4 are ngee ann kids!!! zomg!!! -stab stabs- HATES.

i wanted to take a cab instead but because everyone was running late, the entire world was taking cabs too. and the chance of flagging a cab in that horrendous traffic was almost ZERO. zzz. in the end, SINCE I WAS ALREADY SO LATE AND CANNOT SIGN STUPID ATTENDANCE PLUS NO ONE COULD SIGN FOR ME, i decided to just slowly take a stupid bus much later and slowly strolled to class.

irritating shits. I HATE YOU PUBLIC TRANSPORT.

YOU MAKE US PAY SO MUCH!!! MORE AND MORE AND INCREASE FEE HIKE TMDKNNCCB CAN YOU AT LEAST COME ON TIME, PUNCTUALLY, INCREASE FREQUENCY IN PEAK HOURS SO EVERYONE CAN FREAKING BOARD THE BUS AND WON'T BE LATE???!

aye dulan ma, really. you all won't understand my pain.

today, WEDNESDAY, i coincidentally met pear's mum at the bus stop at 8:15am. we chatted and waited all the way till 8:40am when ck came down and saw us at the bus stop and it still wasn't here!!! zzz. SERIOUSLY. FUCKED UP 189s.

the moment we boarded the first 189 that came rumbling along, ck and i saw 2 more 189s go past us. WTF??!?!?!?!?!?! -bombs 189 buses-

okkkkk. back to monday. the dragon that is everywhere. HAHA.

temptation to shop online. whilst chatting with fatbear in class for a bit. ok seriously, i hate this picture he used as his dp. it makes me look super retarded, bai chi and xiao nu ren, wtf. HATES.

21st OCTOBER 2008, TUESDAY:

ONE MONTH ANNIVERSARY OF FATBEAR AND JELLY PRINCESS <3

met fatbear after his work. i was still rushing my reflection #4 before the meet up. and he lied to me ok! he told me wanted to go botak jones to eat and i actually wanted to wear my old tees and fbts to meet him one! i believed him!!! =X

LUCKILY I DIDN'T because i wanted to wear something NICER. i ended up in that blue tribal-ish/resort-ish ZARA dress i got about 1 year ago wtf. super long never wear lah grow spiderwebs. zzz.

in the end he said go vivocity. zzz. YOU SEE I'M SO SMART! HAHAHA.

it was drizzling by then. =S coldddd. and FATBEAR NEVER GIVE ME ANY PRESENTS HAHAHA. =D

but i guess it's alright since i didn't prepare anything too..zzz..i think i am probably the most unthoughtful gf ever. =(
nevermind lah. fatbear you are the best gift offered to me already. (((:

<3

<3

<3

(apart from that t&c diamond ring huhhh HAHAHAHHAHA i still want that in two years!)

dined at white dog cafe because everywhere else was bursting at the seams. no jap food! but quality western will make do. not orgasmic, but not bad too.



omg i look so thin from this angle!!! HAHAHAH.



seriously. my nose looks so pudgy here. =.= and yes, i noticed that i had the same pose in 3 pictures. ayeee. cos' fatbear was trying to take a decent picture what. so have to hold the pose.



so dark!

.....and so white. zzz. i look ghostly.



ordered bailey's frappe but the waitress got the orders mixed up and i ended up with oreo chocolate instead. zzz. i consumed about 1 week's worth of calories. great. i think this is why i never slim down ok. wtf.

EHHH NICE HOR THIS PIC. my alien coming down from "space" HAHAHA. diu diu diuuuuu. i'm so good. =p



my hair.is.messy.







all taken by fatbear.

the uncle and his beer. ARGHS. ihatebeer.

white dog platter. wedges. salad. some rolls. spicy drumsticks. prawns. nice.


baby chicken. nice too.


damn bloody full. cmi. cannot eat like this anymore. zzzz.

walked around vivo to digest all that food. fatbear accidentally stepped on my foot when we were fooling around on the deck. i think my foot break already. wtf. zzz.

never wrestle with fatbear. his strength is...dots. really bear-ish. but i know his weak spots. HEHEHEHE.

in any sense, i hope i didn't leave out anything. don't feel like typing much. hah.

more work and work and work.

i have more confidence this time round. can make it. (:
got back my reflection papaaer #3 from COM443 though. didn't make the usual mark. boo. =(
tomorrow is class as usual then a talk after class till about 1pm. then projecting.

the great big P is finally here. phew.
but argh too.
more pain coming this week. physically and mentally.
god bless me.

imma go bathe and maybe nap a little.


if what they say is true-
then what is left of me is going to be ashes, dots, fragments and nothing you.
if what they say is true-
then all faith goes out of the window.
and i'll probably never believe again.

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