tuesday.

yes, if anyone paid attention, i did say i hate mondays and tuesdays. and yes, this entry is not gonna deny that. i still detest and dread the first two days of the week. bad attitude? whatever. like i need you to care.

assemblies are killing me slowly. it's ok when u get to tune out everything you don't want to listen to, and only pay attention to those really important ones. not that there were much announcements of that importance anyway. but my point is, sometimes i get so turned off simply by looking up at the balcony to see those same people up there. like hawks. staring, observing. do something wrong, that's it.

sometimes i just don't understand. but i guess it's better not to mention any names cos' you never know who(which you do not welcome) to come read your blog. yes, this world is full of spies. we are all spies in our own ways. we read blogs but yet do not leave comments. we read blogs of people we do not know, and we form impressions and comments about them. we read blogs of people we know, and our impressions or opinions about them change. yes, i agree it's the world wide web, yes i agree how slanderous things can get when spoken without much thought. rash actions can indeed ruin someone, and his/her future for life.

there is no strict censorship on the web, and so it's each and every blogger's responsibility to watch what we say(or write in this case), lest we insult or offend anyone.

you may say, so what? it's MY blog, i have MY rights to write what i want and do as i like. but think about it. it's YOUR blog i agree, but others have THEIR rights to sue you should they want to. we should not abuse human rights. each has his/her rights. so let's start respecting each other.

if you want to hurl abuses or insults at someone you dislike, do so intelligently. if not, do not write at all.

that's my advice of cos', for all the bloggers out there. i am no pro. i am no expert. but it's this process of blogging, that has taught me how to twist words and their meanings, to form subtle and yet not so subtle comments and opinions of things around me. language is beautiful. let's all learn to use it appropriately.

no one likes to read a offensive and abusive insult about himself/herself anywhere, anytime. would you? at least if he/her were to read, make sure that he/her does not know it's him/her you are commenting about. *winks*

language is beautiful.

but to be able to manipulate it, renders language even more beautiful than ever. :)

happy blogging! and my sympathies to those who got reprimanded by whoever in charge. though i do not side with either party, but i think people usually blog with intentions of writing what's true--at least to a certain degree. maybe there IS something wrong with whoever that person/object/event/issue they are discussing(although with excessive colourful language). yup, that's just my point of view la.
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on a lighter note, i shall blog about the OTHER events that happened today. nothing much though.

except that i caught The Flu. again. yes, i am extremely supceptible to this irritating bug hovering around in the air. sucks totally.

i think it's an extremely destructive illness. renders you almost completely hopeless and helpless. you can't do anything to stop it at once. you can't do anything to cure it at once. you kill trees in the process. you waste water(if you choose this "medium" to clear of your..gooey substances). you cannot concentrate and do work with your fullest potential because you are tearing or sneezing 3/4 the time you are awake. your lungs are aching like hell because every sneeze vibrates them like a 9.0 amplitude earthquake on the ritcher scale. you feel like dying cos' it's either you can't a)stop sneezing b)stop sniffing c)stop your running nose d)stop blowing your nose d)stop clearing your throat e)stop feeling like sleeping.

aiya, in short, it just tears me apart, breaks me down as the day progresses.

lousy day. skipped another lecture. but if i didn't have The Flu, i probably would have went. felt like resting at home la.

that's it. i think i'm losing certain friends i care about alot. it's terrible, this feeling is terrible. i do hope one day she'll come tell me everything is the same as the past, everything is ok, everything between us is ok. do you know how much you mean to me? i guess you don't. *heaves a huge sigh*

hurts me everytime i think about it. resorted to NOT thinking about it to reduce the hurt i'm feeling inside. just hope one day you come comfort me, and reassure me everything is ok afterall.


just a out-of-nowhere thought: would you neglect your friends once you have a bf/gf? would you tend to hang out/rely on him/her more. would you rather forgo outings with your friends just to accompany him/her anywhere? would you rather talk to him/her than talk to your other friends?
i don't know la. personally i detest people who become like that after entering a relatonship. not that i'm of anyone to judge them, but it certainly brings me to think of what his/her definition of friendship is based on. a friend is only important when you have nothing else to do/no one else with you?
i cannot say i am not one of those people before. but because it's how u felt after being treated like that when your friends around you start behaving like taht before you come to realise how...undescribable that feeling is.
we always complain when our attached friends are spending so much time apart from us, and yet when WE are the ones attached, don't we do the same thing?

just a note to myself: friends are there for life. your fairer/tanner partner may come and go. so start treasuring your friends around you now, before one day you lose your "constant" companion, and then start to realise, that your friends don't care that much of your well-being anymore. no one likes being taken for granted. no one likes being a "spare tyre".




syafy has a new phone. so nice la. darn, i want a new phone so much. a phone i really like. but guess it's 2 more months or so before my dream comes true! =(

gotta fulfil another dream in the meantime.

STOP SLACKING JIELIN! START MUGGING!!! LOOK AT THE PEOPLE AROUND YOU! THEY ARE STUDYING SO HARD. AND THEY ARE SMART!!! YOU ARE STUPID, AND YOU ARE STILL SLACKING. C'MON, WAKE UP YOU IDIOT!!!!

*slaps myself*





i was just thinking perhaps i can be a nurse. seems like a really fulfiling job. :) well, at least that's my "back-up plan" should i be rejected from university. sighhhh. it's good to have a back-up sometimes. don't wanna end up seeing myself stand at the highest floor of the tallest building in singapore(or anywhere else) and jumping down to my death.

sometimes suicide can be so tempting. seemingly an escape from all troubles. but fear not my friends, i am not(ok, some of you may be disappointed) going to commit suicide like that. quite a loser action. only will do it when im seriously desperate la.







realised so many people random-ing their entries. don't dare to hao lian issit started by me. hahahaha. but nvm la, i don't think it is. i'm not that great. :P

well, gotta change my style then. i'm constantly in search for a style i'm comfortable with, while trying to minimise the use of vulgarities. cos' i believe civilised people can insult intelligently without the usage of vulgarities. HAHAHAHAAH. except the part that i'm not-so-intelligent la. :D

no la, someone once told me it's such a huge turn off to watch and listen to someone whose vocabulary is limited to such language. it's saddening infact. imagine going to interview..and being a frank and open-minded speaker most of us are, words can KNN, KNS, TMD, WTF, WTH etc etc may just spill out of our own lips even if we really had no intentions of doing so.

it goes the same with every day conversations. people who speak well are naturally confident of themselves and with a strong grasp of the language, we can switch in between being vulgar(when certain occasions call for it :D) and being civilsed and polite. that's what i call versatility.

now, that's quite a bit for an entry. shall end here. gonna check the dictionary for another word to replace RANDOM.

it's so used around here it kinda frustrates me.