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hey you, do you know that i dreamt of you last night, and that i cried in my dream? i guess you don't know. and i hope you never will, because im too much of a pride-person to want to voice out my pains and sadness.

don't mistake my intentions. i meant it when i wish you all the best. i meant it when i said you deserve better, and that you really taught me to treasure what we have before it's all too late. i meant everything i said.





thank you to zihao who listened to my nonsense ramblings on the bus to clementi today. i really appreciated having a listening ear once in a while. sometimes, life is not only all about fun, fun and fun. sometimes, just slow down your pace, and lend me a shoulder to lean on, a ear to listen to me pour out my woes, give me a sincere smile to brighten up my day, and a little pat on my back to tell me not to give up regardless of anything.

:) thanks to all who did that. you all should know who you are.

anyways, today was national day celebration in school. i was VERY skeptical about the fiesty pursuit or whatever was planned for us. why? BECAUSE THERE WAS A STUPID ECONS TEST. BAH. :(

but the race thingy around the school turned out better than expected. in fact, it was quite fun! :) hahahaha. well well, this tells us never to judge anything from it's cover right? there was this point whereby the councillors asked us to stand up to sing along with them a national day song. then no one stood up, but they started waving their econs notes along to the music. HAHAHAHA. mans, that sight was something to behold man! :D but i guess the mood was really all wrong for alot of us because despite WANTING to have fun, we couldnt stop thinking of the econs test that would face us at the end of all these fun. so i couldnt really put down everything to enjoy myself.

i rmb the days back in rv where i loved to celebrate national day because the singing was fun, watching people dress up was fun, taking pictures was fun, eating food was fun! :) hahaha, being with friends was fun!

yea, but things seemed to have changed. *shrugs*

was supposed to watch charlie and the chocolate factory after our class crystal jade outing, BUT town was so crowded and we couldnt get a suitable timing slot. headed for clementi, also very late. so slacked around. DRANK BUBBLE TEA(i can't believe that, so primary school days!!) and played cards. the rest were quite kind to teach me how to play la. im really a lousy card buddy. i can't play cards for NUTS. guess i was brought up in an environment whereby my parents strongly opposed of gambling and playing card games..*shrugs* nevermind la, i don't think gambling constitutes to a great part of my life in the future anyway.

oh ya! xiao long bao at crystal jade was DAMN NICE!!! oh man. hahahah, i practically floated to heaven la. :) the la-mians were also not bad la! *grins* but i don't know why i can never seem to finish one bowl of noodles completely one. super full at the 1/2 part of the noddles. hahaha. and white aS* and haoz were still complaining how hungry they were! PIGS!!! :D

i wanna watch bewitched, the maid, charlie and the chocolate factory, and this korean/jap horror flick which i don't know the title..hahahha. damn.

sigh. anyway, if you need to know, im gonna fail my econs test. yea. i was faced with a rude shock. yays. at least it's only a test. gotta buck up!

realised so little time left. so much to do. die die. scared like hell.

i was just thinking. this year im gonna spend my natioanl day with my relatives, since it's my popo's birthday! hahaha, im not trying to say it's a sad thing or what, cos' i simply love my popo to bits, but well, there is a con of not being able to watch the fireworks. sighs. somehow, i just missed the times when i always had someone to accompany me to watch fireworks.

this year, im all alone. well, literally im not, considering i have relatives and family. BUT, i mean..ya..you know..nevermind if you don't.

im talking crap. BLAHS. low standard entry.

oh yea, may yun ma recover asap ok!! mans, hope you're feeling better already! :) bless u!

took so many pictures today! hahahaha. i can't wait to get them. we were talking about setting up a class photo blog so EVERYONE can get the pictures of class outings from there! :) i can't wait man!!! hahahah..

berd is so irritating with his camera tricks which he calls "artistic and interesting pictures". :D but at least he took alot of interesting pics. ya right. hahahaha.

my diet doesn't seem to be working!! :X



you once told me, it's not about having things forever.
because forever doesnt exist? i asked.
no. you answered gently.
because it's good enough that we've had before, and it's better than not having it at all.

//_cos' you took everything, while i was staring at the sun.