observations.

you know sometimes i thank god for giving me eyes. eyes to see the world, be it looking at things that disgust me, saddens me, angers me, or gets me all emotional. sometimes i look at life, look at people, and i think. i think alot. i really do. and that poses a problem to me, cos' i tend to think too much.

sure, my IQ-wise may not be that high. i don't think that academically much, but i do think about things happening around the world. i don't voice them out actually. cos' people have conflicting views about the world out there, and they are given their rights to their insights. i have my rights too. so whether you like it or not, it stays.

i saw this family of 3 come into mac yesterday. i was attracted to the little boy initially. he was abit pestering. i mean, he kept pestering his parents, jumping up and down, yelling around. but he's just a kid la, cut him some slack.
so when i saw his father grab him and snap "SHUT UP" to his face, i was utterly stunned. and then anger hit me. i don't know what exactly happened at that moment, i was so tempted to go up to the father and slap him on his face. but of cos' civilised people don't do that, so i did not budge from my seat. i just sat there, and stared daggers at the father. he saw me glaring at him a couple of times, and he looked away. (i hope it was cos' of guilt) but the father did not stop there. his snapping at the poor boy got louder and louder. and he GRABBED the boy REALLY HARD. i could see how his palm enclosed the small boy's arm and shook it while he reprimanded the boy.

and that kid was just asking his father to give him a mcnugget to eat. and he got slapped on the hand when he tried to reach over to take one nugget.

actually what i want to say is that i truly do not believe in child abuse/violence to resolve problems in a child. i know that bringing up a child, or children may be frustrating and tests our everyday nerves to the limits, but i hope that all parents are aware that child/children brigns not only pain and sadness, but also joy. and most of the time, the joy brought about by them, cannot be found anywhere else in the grown-ups inthis world.

i've interacted with many children before. and i must say, they are bundles of hyperactive beings. :) they constantly bring smiles to my face, lightening my mood, surprising me with their innocence and simple intellect, making me glad that children are able to live their childhood to the fullest, for they do deserve to enjoy the purest form of love and happiness while they are young. to them, everything is simple. everything has a reason.

actions of violence--physical or verbal abuse on children will not only bring harm to their helpless bodies, but also scarring that is permanent and lives for life. children have this amazing ability, be it fortunate or not, the ability to have stark memories of their lives. such trauma on them is apprently unforgettable, unless the trauma might be so great that the child is able to psychologically brainwash himself from recalling the "bad and scary memories". but i guess im no pro in that aspect, the psychologists/psychiatrists know better.

i certainly do not approve of parents snapping at their children to "SHUT UP" or even grabbing them with such force. it is not permitable for me. i neverdid it to any child so far, and i hope i never will. what kind of child will the traumatised one grow up to become after experiencing such incidents during their childhood? i have no idea. but i read of many that continued their parents' way of doings onto THEIR own children. isn't this a vicious cycle? is this what we really want to promote in our society? violence? they say the well-being of a child depends on the teachings of their parents. i do not agree fully with this.

children grow up to become teenagers, and then young adults, and finally mature adults. we go through a long process of this life, to finally emerge as a "final product" of ourselves. we are shaped by people, things, events around us. we are shaped by ourselves too. parents' teachings may be useful in the earlier part of our years, but as we grow up, some become rebellious, some may remain obedient. the rebellious part of us screams to deny(and infact, always do the opposite) of what our parents wish us to do. we cannot blame parents if they had indeed tried their very best to tell a child what's right and wrong, and YET their child may turn out to be the very ooposite of what they tried to teach to the child. because sometimes, it's not only that of the parents fault, but we ourselves, are accountable to what and who we become.

as much as we hate to admit it, it's true to a large extent.

that's of course my view.
i've rambled on so far, not sure of what my main topic of this part of the entry is, but what im trying to say here, is that i do not believe in child violence, and neither do i think that we should always blame the parents for the wrong-doings of any child. i do hope in the future, if i were to have children, i will not let any incidents of child abuse happen on him/her.
the cane that my father used when i was young, has terrorised me till this day. i shiver whenever i look at a cane. and it's this part of me that is terrified, of bringing this fear to children, that i so much want to protect them.
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on a lighter note, i was listening to p10. i am still listening to it. but i was really entertained by the "home" program hosted by daniel ong. firstly, it boosts local talents in the music industry, and even plays the tapes and recordings sent by local home singers, people like you and me, who are aspiring to become singers, or simply people who love to sing and have a band formed by themselves.
i heard many good songs. i heard PUG JELLY. and i LOVE pug jelly. so i was quite hyperventilating when their songs were played. :P
anyway, i heard one other song by supernova(or something like that) called chole. that song was good. very radio-friendly. i wonder if i can download from the internet.
anyways, SUPPORT LOCAL TALENT!

and there's another category of songs i love: oldies. yeah yeah, not so much of chinese oldies, but more of english ones. they are really good to listen to. not your usual hard rock or pop songs. just soothing oldies with good velvety voices. :)

i think there may be too much content in this entry for today, guess i shall end here. seems to be thinking alot recently. hahaha, but doubt if anyone will bother to read my rubbish musings anyway. :) just wanted to record it all..STM. :D

till then, PUG JELLY REALLY ROCKS! :) im looking forward to their new album. thank god they've not disbanded.