do you believe that an over-dosage of anything/something can actually make you feel sick and tired of it? something that you used to love doing, something that u had an interest in..might just be gone forever?
well, it's true. im starting to get sick and tired of economics. and that's terrible. cos' it's supposed to be my best subject and also a subject im interested in. i think everyone can tell from the sliding grades im getting from econs..don't think i can maintain..perhaps i peaked too early..jumping 2 grades each exam..now, falling 4 grades PER exam. woahs. hahahahah.
sigh. that's shit totally. i think i might just take up arts and social science in university(should i be able to get into my dream uni and take either my dream course or this)..i think some unis even offer double degrees? sighhh. but i get past this first la.
im such a fickle person. easily distracted. easily bored. nothing can sustain my interest for long. fortunate or unfortunate i have no idea..but i havef a feeling it'll be a unfortunate thing for now.
talked to gail today while waiting for yun ma to dicuss her "NAPFA" stuff with mr khoo. yea, i'm raelly grateful for all that encouragement and stuff..i'll try my best. but somehow i cant seem to put words into actions. i've gotta be the most contradictory person ever. where's my motivation? where's my drive? where's my determination? all gone after Os.
like shit, totally.
was doodling about during GP where a teacher sat in to observe(don't know us or mr tan). but i was trying my best to be active and answer questions. BUT, i was really quite bored la. looked around for colour pens to draw. ended up with some lame drawings.
a totally innocent looking GP note.
on a closer look..ahhh, that's the vampire Jielin. but of cos' lacking that degree of cuteness. wanted to draw specs but seo was violently objecting..said "draw already not cute!!!". had to liquid away the half-done specs frame. HAHAHAHAHA.
ermm..J.E.Z in cartoon form!!! hahahaha. impulse drawing totally. i drew myself first. i turned out ghastly. so i looked for other things to keep me occupied. then i saw the two other idiots lazing and cheeky-ing around in class. so i thought i might as well try to draw them.
erm..yes, marshy turned out quite terrible. seriously i never intended you to look like that!!! :P ahahaha. but at least the stupid smile is there. :D
gene turned out..relatively passable. ahahaha.
i think my drawings are getting more bad to worse. can't believe i last time draw comics and real life art. BAH. my drawing got published by "xing qi wu zhou bao" before ok!!! hahaha..btw, it's some chinese language kids newspaper that is supposedly interactive and learning-tool.
im so dead really. i look around me, and i see people with their head bowed down studying intensely.
ah yes, my head does bow down too. but i'm sleeping.
see the difference? it's sad really. pathetic even. loser to the extent.
i gotta pull myself out of this shit-ass situation. just gonna keep wasting myself(or what's left of myself anyway).
scars by papa roach is like damn nice.
hahahahaa. papa roach. sounds like a father cockraoch. :)
proceeded to name syaf "syafy doggy!" hahahahaha. inside joke. :P btw if you're reading this... SIT!!! FETCH!!!
ok la, i shall be nice to syaf.
:) i'm a nice girl right syafy?
i'm not going to prom. not that anyone cares anyway. well ya, i don't think anyone would la. nevermind. gotta find some entertainment on that day. :) think i can save alot money also. just don't feel good spending som uch of my parents' money. esp. when im already planning to make them poorer by about 500 bucks for my new phone at eoy. :D
that ass of a zihao went offline and never came back. hmpffff.
probably roasting marshmellows. HAHAHAHA :P or reading econs, that pro! (gonna dedicate entry on you one day, with your VERY intelligent quotes and "very good zihao!" comments by a certain someone! :P)
aiya, he's probably roasting GP essays la..jiayou!!! :P
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