bleahs.

double bleah. super unproductive.

studying at the table blew me to lala land. i K.O-ed on my bed. awoke only when the national day encore telecast was about to end.

slacked around and watched tons of tv. STILL watching tv. and im online.

i don't know how long this will continue, before i start to regret my stupid actions, and by then, regretting would be futile.

all these shitty philosophical stuff i know, and yet i refuse to put my words into actions.

lousy rotten, totally.

i think xiao an from zhen qing is damn cute. not that i am into the series itself, but i just find him attractive everytime my mother tunes in to the show.

hahahahahaha.

"xiao an is damn cute lehhhh! but hor, i think he's cute only in HK tv shows la, in Singapore shows he not as cute liao"-my younger niece during cny gossiping with the aunts.
"Singapore got very shuai actors meh?"-the aunt.

HAHAHAHAHA. darn. they are the loudest and yet cheeriest(don't think there is such a word) bunch of people. this is why i love my boisterous father's side relatives so much more than my mother's tame and quiet side. :D

can't believe all those lame jokes they were telling on national day gathering. BAH. really cold-can-go-arctic-lamer-than-zihao's-jokes-kind. marshy, you should meet them one day, i think you'll get along VERY well with them. HAHAHAHA.

speaking of haoz, i was reading his blog. suddenly made me think of sec sch national day celebrations. sighhh. was good la, those days. miss all that fun man. he is right. i felt proud to be a Singaporean everytime celebrations ended. i'll be singing national day songs with so much gusto like a kindergarten kid. i felt proud of Singapore and its achievements abeit it's puny size.

ahhh. found a picture taken during sec sch national day celebration! with some of my best buddies. missing pear though!
/damn blogspot who can't even upload one freaking picture. stupid stupid technology.


darn, i just miss those good old days.
i can't wait for all these shit to end.
yet, it hasn't even started.
i haven't even started.
i know i can do this if i try harder.
i'm not even trying.









i'm a walking disappointment.