pms.

this is such a lame excuse to account for bad mood.

help! im REALLY going to fail maths tml. people practicing their maths, i down here slacking. arghhhs!

someone spur me on!!!

haix. man. sometimes i feel like i have no life la. hahahaha. maybe i AM a boring person. i feel trapped. trapped in a life i do not want to live, doing the things i do not want to do..what is the point of living then?

because there are infact others around me that are suffering so much more. and yet i am here complaining about how lousy my life is. at least i get to eat 3 meals a day. i get to possess so many more things than people in other countries can afford. what the hell man? what did i learn to cherish and treasure has flown out of my head??!!

i must now constantly remind myself, that what i am going through now is actually nothing compared to the sufferings and pain of the others. yes, there are more important things that face us in the world out there. more important than us whining about what we have or do not have, simply just to fulfil our inner desires.

here i am complaining that studying sucks. yet in other countries children can't even afford to study! it's such a vicious downward spiral. non-educated cannot get good jobs. marry, have children, cannot give children good education. children grow up cannot get good jobs. marry. have their own children..blahblahblah.

yea, that's what i learn in both geog and econs. hahaha.

it's true isnt it? often we do not realise we have so much infront of us when we are blindly pursuing more and more things that we do not have. that's i suppose, human nature.

so i must now oppose this horrible human nature and start appreciating. for what i detest and conplain about now, may disppear from my life one day. and when that happens, i'm pretty sure i'll start regretting.

but so what? everything would be over then. being sorry wouldn't help a teeny weeny bit.

so conclusion is i wanna apologise to all whom i've been bad-tempered towards, been unreasonably whine-y and full of complaints. i will try to minimise these complain or simply just internalise them.

i do not wish to irritate the hell out of others. because i know how it feel to be irritated by others too. *sigh*

well, sometimes we just can't do as we wish. because we do not live in a world where there is only me, me and only me. it's a world out there. full of people i love, people im neutral towards, people i care for, people who care for me, and people whom i've not met.

they are part of my life..and i do not wish to lose them..for perhaps, i've realised, they ARE my life.