snapshots.

i'm such a photowhore of late.

not that i have a camera phone of course(will have to wait 2 more months for it).

i'm spamming everyone's camera phone with my very ugly face. hahahaha. and i loveeee it! so fun okkk.

but sorry if i made your phone spoilt cos' of the presence of my face. hee.

sighhh, to update yesterday. saw jun yang from poject superstar in school just as the few of us were leaving school. hahaha. ok la..he's quite cute, but im not crazy over him. many were mobbing around him though..a sight to behold indeed.

wonder why SA produce so many talents. hahahah. not bad not bad. :)

BAH. today was boring as usual. did not study finish superposition so i didn't go for the test. didn't want to end up sitting there in frustration and helplessness while i watch others complete their papers easily. sometimes i wonder if i really suffer from self-confidence problems..cos' everytime i can't seem to get the thought off my mind that others are simply better than me.

*shrugs*

i think if i can rid of that mentality, i can actually achieve and gain much more.









end of school activities was equally as boring. went to harbour with a couple of pple to eat. but ended up split up. whatever la.

then walked around. too sian. shoulder aching from bag. went home. stoned on the bus. died. walked home. died. here. going to die soon.





realised everyone me mugging like shit. scares me. especially hockey ppl..really scaring the hell out of me. cos' im way way far from mugging. REALLY mugging yet. to mug i really must forgo social activities. and i hate that. but what to do? i stupid ma, need to study longer than the rest.




yet here i am slacking my life away. guaranteeing myself just a "certificate of participation" for Alevels. BAH.


later have to write testimonial for myself. so wierd ok. i never written for myself before. last time always teacher help me write. i just had to sit back, shake leg and enjoy whatever comes to me.


realised how pampered and sheltered i was back in sec sch..suddenly i miss those days. things seemed so much easier back then.

why does the grass always seem greener at the other side of the pasture?




questions questions.

why am i so dumb?




answers?
anyone?
*pleads*





i gotta get a brainwash to rid of all the unwanted and unpleasant memories and thoughts in this useless brain of mind.












they always say the barrier of the mind is the greatest hurdle to overcome.

here, i'm trying to do just that.



yet it seems like i'm failing again and again.


someone, help me please. anyone...















on a more cheery note(i don't know considered not), i was quite surprised that my GP essay got one paragraph printed out by mr tan for some GP notes. hahahaha. the first Q. conservation of environment and the achieving global wealth one..so cool right? at first i didn't realise la. only when i read then i ehhhhhhh, LOOKS LIKE MINE LEHHH! hahahahaha.


well, something to be proud of! but hell, gp is such a fluctuating subject.




got the today in history book. got cut by one of the pages while i was fiddling with it on the way to harbour front.

kanasai.

bleed leh. then the surrounding skin inflamed like that. red red one. swollen somemore.

i hate paper cuts. so small, so seemingly insignificant, yet super painful.







it's raining.


did i mention i hate rainy days?