retail therapy.

retail therapy is good, when you have the financial means of course. (which i don't)

but i splurged $10 on earrings today. 3 pairs to be exact. hahahaha. i never spent so much on earrings before ok. darn. i better wear them sometime, if not it'll be just another accessory "i-bought-but-never-wear" in my closet.

no wonder my parents always complain my stuff are cluttered around the house, making it look so unkempt. like whatever can??! i try my best already. but this is how i like my things to be. so evict me la. BAH.

i feel like im having PMS. but ont literally. just the signs and symptoms. so irritating. i hate it when i hate almost everything around me for nothing. feel so unreasonable and terrorising. grrrr. so don't offend me tonight.

must be the stress. and not doing anything about it..so dead so dead.

feeling so pissed with my mother. seriously sometimes i develop violent tendencies being with her. she nags so much i have this urge to
a) slap her(to hell with respect, i have none for her sad to say)
b) staple up her mouth/scotch-tape her mouth/stuff her mouth up with alot shit.
c) ignore her/tune her out/go into room and slam door.
d) attitude.
e) leave the house and never come back, if not for so much stuff at home that belongs to ME.
f) kill myself.
g) or i can kill her.



yes. i know very violent and very sick in the mind. sometimes i think im imbalanced psychologically. and im worried. but i think only SHE can make me feel this way. no words can describe how i feel about her. i think i've never met any mother like her(you can infer positively or negatively for yourself).

sometimes im just so envious of other mothers of my friends around me. envious how wonderful their mothers are. how envious, that these mothers are not mine.

i know comparing is wrong. but i cant help it. comparison takes place ever single second in out lives. admit it la.

i feel REALLY REALLY like an emotional wreck now. so loser.

gotta end now. bye.