better left unsaid.

what do you do when you've been hit with the mother-of-all-ironies-'08?



some pain is better left unsaid, unspoken, unfounded, unrealized, uncovered.
shall remain so-


what an emo day.
battle of the emos.
and so we say, there can only be one emo at any one time.
if one is down, the other has the duty to cheer.
LOL. she does comfort. thank you hehbihiam.


it's so easy to deflate; as easy as it inflates.

when can i ever be good enough? for anything?
it's not low self-confidence, it's just being strikingly aware of yourself.
and it pulsates ever so significantly.



i'm tired of the bug.
but i'm not done with it yet.
LL, are you blessing me? have you gone on a holiday?



where's my salvation? where's my guardian angel?

because i never look at every smile, every word ever the same.
time causes alienation, as it does cause intimacy.
if everything is either this or that, then, if the cycle is reversed, does it make it the same?


things happen for a reason right?
there are so many answers i'm waiting.
quietly.

everyday is just a painful reminder of my life.




did you glance at me just as i did at you?
what were you thinking?
what will you do?




too much bug. gotta finish tonight so i can try to enjoy a few hours later.


i need to stop thinking.
it's like trying to piece mini M&Ms together to make a picture but it never really happens because circles always have holes.
everything leaks.



tomorrow has to be a better day.
pay day soon. debts to be paid.
i need another job. really.
saving never seemed so difficult.