words.blind.

im alive. but barely.
everyday i go to work, it's a warzone out there.
to fight for yourself.
and i'm fighting for what's left of my pride and dignity.


work, i can say now, is far from what i expected it to be.
work...feels like another version of hell.


maybe it's just the place i'm in. and the people around me.
but this really pushes you to work harder because you realize that you are nothing around people who have been in this line for 5+ years.
doesn't matter if you're good in school. no one cares.
doesn't matter if you're top.

it matters if you can clinch the deal,
make the client love you,
make millions with the words you type,
make people want to listen to your words.


so tired. slept 3 hours again last night.
ok i'm heading to bed now.
really should catch all the sleep i can get.
i shall face THE proposal for a bit in the morning AGAIN.

then pray it'll bring millions/billions (heck the China company is worth damn shit lot) for my company (bring benefits to me too).
i need to readjust some things in my brain.
to make it corporate style.


then...i shall see what is the event that i'm supposedly placed in-charge of.
nervous.
bless me. i must do well.
that's the only way i'll earn a place in this crazy environment.