fucked up thursday.

today is a bloody fucked up bad day at work.
early noon some cheapo-chao uncle came in to verbally insult me and my intelligence and polite service.
knnccb.

i had to stand there for 5 minutes in agony; telling myself not to blow my top, not to yell or scold any vulgarities and stand there JUST TO LET HIM CONTINUE INSULTING ME.

i was so angry i wanted to burst out crying.


NEVERMIND. got nice customers anyway.



had piles of shit to clear. leftovers from yesterday's shift. from eons ago untouched shit. new delivery today also.
I BLOODY CLEARED ALL. I AM A CHAO PART TIMER CLAIMING $5 PER HOUR AND I AM DOING SO MUCH MORE THAN I AM REQUIRED TO.
knnccb. NEVERMIND. nothing to do also sian anyway.
and i took initiative clearing all without anyone asking me to ok. knn.



my shift was supposed to end at 6pm. and faiz was supposed to come take over. faiz is this new part timer. i had a movie at 630pm. knnccb. i stayed until close to 7pm and he wasn't any where in sight. Hboss had to come down to relieve my duties although he himself had another appointment somewhere else too. knn irresponsible shitheads.

and today i found out that faiz is the culprit behind all the lost discs. KNNCCB IF DEDUCT ALOT FROM MY PAY JUST TO "SHARE" THE COST OF THE DISCS I WILL THROW DVDS AT HIM AND SLICE HIS HEAD OFF. YOU THINK I EARN A LOT AH? DEDUCT DEDUCT LIKE FREE OF CHARGE.


and he still had the cheek to tell Hboss that he was still in school waiting fro Nlevel results. HA HA HA. in the evening??? YOU THINK WE GOT NO BRAINS AH. the other Nlevel student part timer got her results hours before you lor!!! and are those bunch of students who walked by VE with their results slip in their hands ghosts???!!!


and why i was so angry was because i was supposed to go for a movie at 630pm!!!! knn i hate wasting money ok. those tics were paid for already ok!!!! wahh, sibei fuming man.



nevermind.

in the end had pathetic dinner at clementi. then over to cck's lot1 to walk. and wanted to get retail therapy to make myself happier. end up angrier.




no pictures tonight.
yes, i'm a bitchy spoilt brat with no manners and no tolerance whatsoever.
sometimes there is a limit to what i can endure and tolerate and today everything hit the roof.


i'm so close to crying because things cannot get any worse.
and i want today to end by going to sleep and wishing friday will be a better day.
but it's hard to keep that faith-


you know that feeling whereby your tears are threatening to fall.
so you keep blinking them back, as if blinking will suck those tear back into the ducts.
because you refuse to let anyone see how upset you are.
and everything is a blur before you.
on days like these, i refuse to fight anymore.
just tonight.




important note to self:
NEVER EVER ask for anything from fatbear. it's not gonna happen.


goodnight. bless you all.