craziest day-

i think i just had the craziest day of my week.
and i can foresee crazier ones in the following weeks. =(

WARNING: long entry ahead devoid of graphics. read on at your own risk.

slept at 4:30am doing up my script for the ppt.
was supposed to wake up at 5:30am, BUT apparently i heard no shit coming from my hp(alarm clock) and i slept till 7am. FUCKKKKK.
7am was like the timing we were supposed to be meeting.
cursed and swore and managed to leave the house in 30mins looking like a freak.
stuck my hand out and hailed a merc cab. -_-

so damn shagged. managed to reach school for rehearsals.
i'm pretty sure i didn't handle my part well enough.
sighs, but i did my best. let's pray and hope.

felt damn dehydrated, exhausted and.........dead for the ENTIRE day.
couldn't take it once our ppt was over. i did my best not to slump onto the floor and die. had lessons till 6pm. ROARRRRR.
bus-ed to clementi for tuition. kids....were.....deafening....but ok, they are kids afterall. i might just miss them. LOL.

i wonder how much and when will i get my next pay. expecting a huge drop in incomes. sucks.

got headache mid-way in school. pounding head for the rest of the day until i reached home and got a relieving hot bath. it's much better now, with less nerves.

so, tgit. i got to start working on my ugc quiz and response paper due tues. not to mention article analysis for 337.

i wonder when i'll be able to relax.

i think i scare myself, because once you climb all the way up there, somehow, some way or another, you are just so freaking scared to fall back down.

right now, i face these emotions in certain aspects of my life.
i hate to underperform. now that i've set the standards for my ugc paper, i'm terrified that my future papers are gonna be NORMAL.
it's the pressure, expectations and fear.

i'm gonna try....to take it in stride...like how i did in esl....

talked to steph (ugc class) quite abit today. she's so nice! hahahah! totally click mans. it was before our ugc lesson, then i was just saying bye to her as she left the lect after 231 with ERHEM, and she said "see you soon".

which sounded odd because "soon" was supposed to mean she's ponning or not?
HAHAAHA. so that one greeting led to us sitting down and chatting nonstop.
she's such a cheery girl. nice vibes.
not like certain _______ peeps.
HAHAHAHA.
repulsive, but i shall act meek and well, let you assume that you are the greatest and ___________.


does deviance terrify you? it's harmless in this context.
and i wonder why.
but....nevermind. (:


self-destruction in the making.


and so, i realised i've indeed been uber stressed out by exams.
for com337 mid terms, guess what did i do? i almost surpassed mz in lagness. dammit.

i WROTE MY NAME IN THE BOXES, shaded every freaking other boxes for subject codes and exams dates and answers etc.

AND I FORGOT TO SHADE FOR MY NAME.
LIKE WTF???!?!?!?!
was my brain burnt or what????
zzzzzz.

ok i admit it was from the com337 exams, com317 exams and ugc ppt on that day.

wahlau. =( uber paisehhhh.


and ya, ______'s gf offered me a piece of paper from her notebook when i asked someone else for a scrap piece of paper to write group members names' on it!
zzzzzz.

shocked. but yea, nice of her lahs.
taken aback definitely.

and not attracted to _______ already, which is good. (:


and ______ said that my dress was nice. hehe. loves.

and _______ said that i looked like that person in the pic! omgggg. if it's true then loves! hahahah. sighs. compliments are hard to receive. perceptions vary greatly and startle indefinitely.


i really should start being aneroxic or just eat less.
since i doubt i'll ever rely on pills or oral medication to slim down.
i need to plan workout schedule soon. flabbing like no one's biz. hate flabs.
social pressures mans.

who doesn't want to look good (with the premise that you actually have good brains too).

ahhh, LL seems to be caring a little about me. (:

ah yes, the pointy blacks almost distorted my poor feet.
deformed mans.
round-toed ones definitely in the future.

surprise, haven't worn my sis's boots yet. gee, and i see hotness boots in so many pictures. pekcekkkk.

i will survive!!!!



tons of work over the weekend. lesser workload from centre due to hols. reduced incomes and tight schedules.

CONGRATULATIONS!!!
if you actually bothered to read and scroll patiently.
i just fell asleep at the computer.

good night darlings.

sincerity beats ___________.