process of it all;

i'm doing better, eating lesser, and not giving in to temptations even when i'm not hungry.

obviously, my weight or size is not changing, but i will continue working hard!
tml nehneh and i going ECP to cycle. WOOTS.
a long deserved break indeed. before chionging begins all over again.
i'm craving for the sun and the workout already. :)

MGQ sucks, but i guess i should be glad i passed. HAHAHA. oh wells, what to expect mans, my stats really like shit. i cannot see probability for nuts. HAHAHAH.

last minute cramming session with nehneh was helpful. helped me narrow down things i ought to know and understand concepts. it's better than none. thanks babe. :)

maybe i should give myself some leeway to relax and not get so worked out over a lost grade.

i walked super carefully today, so i didn't slip or fall despite the heavy rain. :)


do people really care about the process?
we only see the results, the outcome, the effects.
we often neglect what happens in between, because it doesn't matter.
it takes too long, it's tiring to know, and you can't be bothered.

what kind of things will you resort to, to get the things you want?
where's the limit?
what's the breaking point?
how would you go about doing it?
how much are you willing to sacrifice?
your pride? your integrity? your honesty?
why? the competition is killing us all, killing us inside and outside.
we are mere beings, character slowly eating away.
and i wonder, who cares, about the process?
what am i fighting so hard for? why? for whom to see? to prove what shit?
is it even worth it?
in the end, i get the same outcome.
this conflict, i must solve.


i really enjoy company. the talk with ghost was really good. damn long nv talk to ghost already. it's good to learn more stuff about his life. hahahah.
and he is rapidly becoming a sneaker fan! YAYYYY.

got someone to gush to liao. hehe.
and i must comment that his dress style is better now! and his hairstyle varies everyday. damn cool can. HAHAHAH.

oh wells, sometimes i really don't know what to think, so i shall ignore everything and pretend i'm not thinking.
questions indeed. rahhh indeed.

i feel the urge to shop.
which is bad.
i dream too much, which is bad too.


drifters, abs and i.
she left i right.
so we always take the wrong turns.
HAHAH. oh wells.


oddball.