washing machine.

starting on a relatively cheery note before i start my senseless ramblings. they keep me going.


i'm thrown in, scrubbed clean, turned upside down, then up again, and hung out to dry. i feel like i was in a washing machine. fuck life.

life's low.

i'm serious.
stop stalking this place. stop haunting it and hiding behind those curtains and veils. stop fucking pretending you are oh-so-fucking-great when you're not. fallacy of perfection. fallacy of approvals. no one is going to love you more when they see that mask fall apart.

i'm feeling uber pekcek today, and don't ask me why. DON'T EVEN BLOODY SPECULATE.

friendship is such a funny thing. trust, so easily misplaced. as usual, i've misjudged. good deeds breed nothing but more problems. being so nice benefits nothing. it's all gonna be shit shit shit and more shit for myself.
i've had enough.
i'm gonna be placing shit at a public distance.

this hidden warfare i'm not ready to fight. i'm not prepared to sacrifice my principles and happiness. if you are, congratulations.

one day, the wheel revolves and hits home.
space leap me away.



i'm so pekcek i could K anyone right now. but i shall not, cos' i'm demure, and erms, demure. (obviously lying through my teeth. metaphoric speech ok.)

leave me alone. leave us alone.

stop reading words as they are. so inferring too much into them.

read between the lines.
can you see my vital signs?
i'm prepared to walk this road alone.
darkness envelopes;
world spinning;
i'm feeling dizzy as
things are flake apart.

i knew things go smoothly for a reason. some bloody fucked up problem will plop from the sky machiam birdshit.

i live life as simply as i can. it's complicated enough without me trying to complicate things.

spelling today with the kids. exasperation. new kids. finally talked to mr-zero-everytime-for-spelling-guy. made him learn tactics to learning spelling. then testing him a few words. advised him like super long. persuaded him and opened his fragile little heart. yes, i have a new best friend. he promised to study hard. he promised to pass his next spelling. i shall see whether my powers are zai enough not.



random picture of ab. not common.

i had my saviors of the day. thank god for caring and understanding peeps at the centre. can always rely on them to tahan my ARGHHHHS and ROARRRRR on bad days. chocolates for cheering up ended up in jh's stomach. HA. but thought appreciated.

:)

i love wy and our bickerings. it's bloody hilarious of suan her then try to run out of her grasp. both of us will end up laughing our heads off. =D

isn't it all about jack and the beansprout? things bloom and grow; evil and tainted ignorance.

my world is still spinning. i think i'm really fuck tired. after 3 hours of sleep today. i'm pretty godly now.



look, i'm amidst white fluffy clouds and bright lights in the background. all i'm lacking is the halo. paiseh, forgot to bring to school.

thou shall speak no further. i've left my coms in the lurch for too long.
it's gonna be a long long week, and longer week ahead the next.



my girlfriend.


go on, spy.
if it delights you.
reminder AGAIN: don't read too much.