food for thought.

as i watch the dispute, i think and think.

when there is no common ground, it is impossible to see each other's point of view.
we are not forced to do anything, neither are we forced to study anything(ok maybe stupid modules here and there).
but i believe most of us have enough brains to choose to study in this course and degree, instead of listening to our parents and supposedly be good girls and boys and come study in this uni.

i chose myself.
i believe in making decisions for yourself.
don't give excuses you have no choice. EVERYONE HAS CHOICES.
even if you claim that you don't, i believe we all have the sense to MAKE THE BEST OUT OF EVERY SOLUTION. we are not kids already, am i right?

fallacy of helplessness?
seeing yourself as victim all the time will only turn people off and make people run away from you(quoting from noodle's lecture). then you'll know something is wrong with you.


i do not see myself as any race specifically, but yet people might assume that i do.
i do not discriminate, nor do i make mean remarks on people who do not offend me.
some people are simply too caught up defending for themselves, being trapped in a little mini world of their own.
it only makes me wonder, maybe, just maybe, i am trapped in my little world too?
but hey, if i don't remember wrongly, i think you insulted me first.
on the basis of...let me see...nothing.

i did not blow the issue out of proportion. i only kept my distance.
who in her right mind would test her luck again and tread on the toes of those who slammed her and criticised her like she was worth nothing but shit?
thanks alot, but no thanks.
you showed me who you were, and i took it as it is.
even if you were mad, or misunderstood, i think controlling your temper is something you should learn to do someday or another.

i could have exploded and lashed back at you.
i could have.


i don't seem to face any problems regarding my colour of skin.
i don't see myself as yellow.
neither do i treat others as black or erm..brown?
i see everyone as who they are in person, not just their physical traits.
i find it sad that people keep labeling themselves as indians(and feel that they are discriminated against or treated unfairly) and slam others for being yellow-skinned chinese.

i mean, we are ALREADY who we are. no one chose into which race or culture we are born into, do we?
harping on this issue again and again is not going to change all "yellow-skinned" people into something else. the way they behave is a fact already. besides, not all of them behave in the same way, if you realise.

let's just say you are biased towards a certain group, a certain few individuals.
no one can judge you as who you are, neither can you judge others as who they are.
so, stop emphasizing the irony of your words, when it simply slaps back at you for appearing foolish.
i think religion should have taught you something, if i don't recall wrongly.
debilitative emotions indeed.
my advice? avoidance.


we should start loving ourselves and others more, instead of concentrating on minor details here and there.
circling on common topics repeatedly without any progress on it, complaining nonstop about fallacy of shoulds is not going to solve problems.

so stop it. open your eyes and TRY to look at the world in another perspective.
be kinder on your perspectives. be reasonable. be open.

no one is perfect.
i believe cliques must exist.
it's proven that no one can be CLOSE friends with everyone else in the world.
surely, there are things such as similar frequencies and wavelengths, easily chatted on topics and conversations that flow naturally instead of forced and thought on carefuly before speaking.
it's plain torturous.

even if you insist that chinese cliques are stupid whatsoever, i believe you have your clique of your own. your view of the students in sim here is simply too narrow. how would you know that they don't have friends of other races outside this school? having 5 days a week in our campus is going to restrict you to seeing them as they are, HERE. so stop blaming them as if you were a saint and someone godly enough to judge people on the surface and on the basis of what you SEE of them.

we all know that jumping into conclusions on first impressions is inaccurate. halo effect or devil effect. we all study these and we should know all too well.

i think at this age, we should be mature enough to handle it in a way that stops short of being childish and narrow-minded.

everyone has dreams and aspirations. no one is same as the one next to him or her.
the only difference is whether they reveal it to YOU or not.


overgeneralizations.
inaccurate assumptions.
harsh remarks and criticisms of people.
i find it unfair.
i only kept quiet because i believe everyone has the right to voice their opinions. so here i am, voicing mine.

somethings which ARE ALREADY MEANT TO BE, WILL STAY.
stop indulging in fallacy of shoulds and should nots. if you really hate it, WORK to leave.
this world is not perfect. nothing is. accepting it is just going to help liberate us. life's low, life's difficult. so it remains. the way you manage it, the way you approach it is the way out of it.


ok, i've had my share of words for now.
i mean no harm, neither am i involved in anything you are assuming now.
perhaps i wish life had been easier on you, and you are one who is able to take these in stride and only emerge stronger, more open-minded, mature and understanding. but i am wishing for things that will not happen.
so, i've accepted.

that lone leaf.
that silent breeze.
hand in hand, they rise into the sky.
empty blues, vast whites.
beyond eternity, the leaf whispers.
beyond boundaries, the wind replies.