solace.

is it possible to feel permanently tired and exhausted?
like brain dead?

i believe that one's brain has the ability to expand.
and someone can become smarter over time.
somehow i think i'm losing momentum i just wanna cave myself up and do it all alone. do it all again.

when it reaches the stage of staring at words and they dance about, when things get blurry and you lose that determination.
K.O.

chapters and chapters.
assignments and assignments.
work and work.
kids and kids.
at least there's still money.
there's hope.


i feel so pissed with all that cramming.
i really can't breathe at times.
dreams; all about school, work, worries.

when can i have a real rest?
sundays, no longer long hours of sleep.
it's catching up and more catching up.
i don't wanna lose passion.
i don't wanna lose faith.
i want to lose that restrain.
i wan to release.

i don't see it coming anytime soon.
and i'm burning out fast.
someone, please, i beg, a break...