woshiyizhixiaoxiaoNIAOOO.

ok random cheena song from way back. really tired.
somehow, i was known for being the PIG in sec school and jc, but now, i'm effectively a bird.

or anything related to bird has my stamp on it. GREAT.

now worldwide disaster--bird flu. my fault.
i'm sorry.


and then housewife and i were on the topic of V during maths.
pretty sad. i wonder how many are out there, STILL.
and losing it.
who? worthiness? perceptions, perceptions.
values, up-bringing and instilled morals since young and from those around us.

i think it stands at less than 30 for the entire course.
rough estimate, not that it matters.

and wj made me lose faith in men again.
HAHAHAHA.
damn, the way he said it. and i wonder the truth behind it all.
verified?
i just want a simple, romantic love for now.
which i shall attempt to find with..erm...celebrities that are unreachables.
like *cough* lionel *cough* ljj *cough* elvin ng *cough* hugh grant *cough*

HAHAHAH. at least i don't like LIU GU dream of some zhang yang dong.
really debut of: YING XIONG JIU CHINA WOMAN.

i'm really breaking under all the time constraints and pressure.
i'm becoming *GASP* boring.
see, i appear to be this really nerdy student who pias her textbooks as much as she can in school. i'm dying to be released.
fuck, can it?
fuck it. NO.
so, study lor.
knn no time like others. just grab every single chance to study.
-sighs. and there's still work during CNY. GREAT. really. just my type of holiday.

i wonder if this is a test of my guts and strength, or merely fate playing me out.
either way, i have no choice right?


yes, i still think my tummy is fat.
yes, i'm stil trying to reduce it.
-shrugs.
it's just a personal goal to look better and feel better about myself.
i cannot freaking feel good when i'm gonna suffocate under layers of my own fat.
really, like THREE FREAKING LAYERS OF SANDWICH FAT.
ultimate.
must slowly delete one by one. hahs.



suddenly i wanna eat baked beans.



because i thought my cries here unheard;
the fact stands that they WERE heard.
simply ignored.
it's like the dull grey feathered birds preparing to take flight.
beauty in ignorance.
beauty in nonchalance.
a day so sunny can actually be perceived as gloomy.