sad mugger.

i haven't been obeying my mugging theory lately. i cant seem to find time. cant seem to get enough sleep. can't seem to concentrate at times. can't seem to understand physics. i wanna die.

but i cant. cos' my new geog teachers says that "no time" is not an excuse. sigh. true la. i nv took it as an excuse also. BUT it's really no time lately. 24hours doesn't seem to be enough. im dying from fatique already. everyday go school go tutorials or lectures. free periods study or do hwk. sometimes even go library to borrow books to photocopy. stupid lousy SA notes. BAH.

actually im really very stressed now. you may not tell. but i try to relieve stress by talking alot. it's either i talk alot or i don't talk at all. sigh. im such an extremist.

today had night trek recce for the group leaders and a couple of them involved in it. quite ok la. frankly speaking, i almost died after the staircase round. REALLY LA. i never felt myself huffed and puffed so much before. it's really worrying. hahahaha. bah. super unfit. but other than that part, it was relatively ok la. gotta make them tired mans. have to say this is more competitive than last year's, and definitely gonna test one's endurance and physical abilities. :) no more meesiam!! hahahah.

had many laughs for this recce. very relaxed although walking speed is REALLY fast for a disabled person like me. couldnt catch my breath half the time. hahaha. ask me run can la. walk fast is very tiring leh. but im really looking forward to the camp! :)

tml got dry-run again. haix. see? no time. excuses again.

im supposed to do my geog tutorial now. but im so tired i cant think logically. i don't even know how to explain the model although it hink the answer is very obvious on the question. sigh. and i cant think of any case studies. so bad. i gotta go read up more. :( lousy.

im not mugging officially yet. but im trying. and i haben started on physics. die. i have no idea was is charged particles abt, and quantum physics is SHIT. i hate the lecturer and his ugly handwriting and his way of lecturing. im so pissed off everytime i go to his lectures. gRrrr. i want mr mannan back!!! i seriously hate physics. i better start loving it, cos' its one of the subs i really wanna do well in. (but i wanna do well in everything!)

im so sad.
cos'itsjustanotherbadday,andiwantsomeonetosingallmybluesaway.
isawyoufromafar,butyoudidntnoticemelookingatyou.
andiwonder,isitanotheroneofmydevelopingcrushes.
itis,foridonotknowyouatall.
andperhapsidonotwantto.ijustwannalookatyoufromafar.
imjustnotthetypeofgirlu'llnotice.
iminvisible.amongstthecrowd.