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ok, so what's new? i did not keep to my resolution of not typing in here for as long as i can. sighhh, but im soooo bored now i wanna die. heh. maybe i shld go down for a few rounds of running or something. can't believe how much i've ballooned it's pretty scary. im starting to hate myself. and this fat ass body of cos'. oh wait, i pretty much hate the brains in this body too. whatever. im whining and i cant be bothered cos' i hate my life now.

speaking of which, i tumbled out of bed today to go to school for phy spa. actually the spa went quite well, considering i studied for 2 and a half experiments in all, and one of them came out. WAHAHAHAHA! am i lucky or what. sighhhh. see, if such luck appears in my As, i'll be some GOD. GOD of tycoism. hahahah. i lost that title quite long ago. BAH. anyway, when i went to school today, i headed for the hockey table wanting to apologise to hf for not being able to join them for movie, but the moment she saw me she talked abt the spa, so i figured she didn't mind me and monz not making it. so yea, got down to TRYING to study the few notes i had. to my horror, i saw hf's notes, and i was frigging upset and traumatised. i just realised how many spas practices i missed and how LITTLE i knew. =( and ys had to had on to my kan-chiong-ness by telling me things i had NO IDEA about. i was like last minute trying to memorise stuff that i've never seen before in my spa-ing life so far. so much for having physics as one of my four subs. i might as well consider dropping already. GRRRR.

so anyway, like i said, i was pretty lucky that that "half spa" which i studied in the morning did not come out. instead, the first spa worksheet i read came out la. :) hahahah, so im glad. hmmm. hopefully can pass with decent grade. though i doubt it might help since i probably failed the rest. BAH. so much so for luck. this was i think the best spa i did so far. :(

please let me live in my lala land for as long as possible. don't tell me the answers ok. i don't want to find out what i thought was right all along to be wrong.

the highlight of the day however was my dumb left eye. it got so swollen in the morning for NO REASON i cld hardly open them fully. the worst thing was both the TOP and the BOTTOM part of my left eye was sooo swollen i looked like a bloated goldfish on one side, and a ugly human being on the other. i looked scary. and ugly of course. BAH. luckily it reduced substantially by the time i headed for school and reached it. i think it wasnt so bad cos' no one commented on it. *phew* or they were trying to focus on their notes and i was busy trying to keep my head down, so it was ok. hahahaha. but that stupid ys was as irritating as ever and had to notice and make fun of it. whatever la.

had some difficulty opening it during the spa itself. but by the time spa ended, it had reduced swelling quite alot and i cld open my eyes without much difficulty. hahaha. so just when i thought i can go home catch some shut eye before meeting monz in the noon, miss tan had to announce for us to stay back. turned out we had to do some college day stuff. sigh. i tell u i felt like some clockwork factory worker today. take booklet, tie one knot, tie second knot, tie butterfly knot, turn, put into carton box, pick up new booklet, tie first knot, tie second knot, tie butterfly knot, turn, put into carton box, pick up new booklet...

okok, i think u get the picture. i was "specialising" in tying the knots, and some were slotting the content page and the pages together, some cutting the strings. phew. i got quite exhausted. i think i've nv tied so many knots since the SJAB comps i had last time during trainings. wahahahha! quite fun la, had some talking, laughing..hmmm..:)

sigh. but i had to cancel the date with monz and hf and paula i felt so terribly and upset. arghhhhs. and i was REALLY looking forward to it. BAH. nvm la, i hope there'll be other days. sighhhhh. sorry hf. sorry paula. :(

anyway, wenta eat after that. macs. i think i almost vommited from being so full. can't stand it. i think i don't want eat fastfood as long as i can. and this resolution i will stick to it.

i probably shld go for a run to work away those fats. but i hate running cos' it hurts. stupid knee. haix.

i keep procrastinating exercising it sucks. hahahaha.

i want a new bike! i want to speed bike! :)

by the way, wotw was better than i expected. heh. quite relevant to the novel. hmmmmm. waiting to watch fantastic four.

any takers? :)

feeling oh-so-lonely now.