this wish has to come true.

again i'm praying to the gods.
all that exist.

because this wish has to come true.
or not, it's the end of my life.



yet again.


you are stupid, but i admit that i'm stupider.
and if you could read my mind,
or see through my eyes to my soul,
then you'll know how i'm feeling inside.


like...burning hell.




all i can do now is to believe and have faith that the wish will come true.
because i'm so afraid that if i don't, i may just break down and start weeping like a loser.


i wish i am over-paranoid.




i really do.


i think i'm going to be moody, until the month is over and one month from now arrives.
this is living hell.
i need the answer.


because one day if i go missing, then you may finally catch a glimpse of what i have been thinking all this while.
when i go missing-
it may be the day i decide to give up on everything.


including myself.


i may be selfish.
but when it comes to certain things,
i rather suffer alone.