late reflections on chu er.

feeling slightly tipsy now.
but it's that sort of warm, fuzzy, fuzzy, comfortable, non-pukish, non-faltering kind of feeling.
awesome shits.
i think i've managed to attained that level and stopped there by self-control.
-beams-
beyond this level, comes the vommitting and hangover. TSK!


i ended up in this state because of fatbear's aunt who is a PRO in daidee wtf. and i play at most twice a year. i'm super noob. and i was sitting at the position after her!!! damn jialat like shit.
but still, it was fun lah. happy is most important mah. festive festive ya.

today, visiting at my mama's side. went to see waipo who is now currently living with my da ah yi cos' of physical inconveniences. my house has no spare room; my sis and i have to share double decker even! or not we would have wanted to accomodante wai po lor.

it sucks every cny. because it's when you see all the family politics and how amazingly childish and immature some adults can be. even children can see and understand the morality of it all, yet they can't phantom a single shit at their ancient ages.

pissed off really.


what can i say. greetings to them; all done in the name of "respect for the elderly" but not REALLY on the notion of respect.

their actions..deserves nothing more than detest and a piece of nose shit or two.



im speaking for both sides of relatives. really opened my eyes..the older i grow..the more things i see. things i didn't used to understand or perceive as being wrong..because i was too young to understand.


-shrugs- what can i say. if they, as adults in their 40s and late 30s, cannot understand the basics of "what goes around comes around", then i really cannot do much. for i am just a youngster in their eyes.


im not declaring i'm uber filial and respectful and all to the elderly, but i know where i stand, and i know how i should behave to a certain extent. when to reprimand them for their stubborness and forgetfulness, when to listen to them and help them when needed. i don't have much to offer, but i give all i can.

my relatives, have so much $$ to offer, but run off at the slightest inference of depleting their $$ bank. disgusts me really. is this where education brings you? and the sacrifices your mother and father have done for you (in the olden days, the parents really work very hard to support all the children ok! plus if you know your own background, you should know better!!!)?

just imagine how your offspring will treat you in the future. what goes around DOES comes around.





OK BACK TO TOPIC. had a small tiff with fatbear on the car when he came to fetch me after my visit at the temple (near bugis). regarding color code issues and family backgrounds. resulted in some tears shed. but all's well. ((((: relationships really aren't fairytales. i believe...i'm just going through something more difficult because of the fact of how different we are...

opposites...really have to compromise, commit and learn, accept; one step at a time. we can do it!!! yes, fatbear?? -smiles-


the time spent today..chu er...at fatbear's was alright. from 5plus to 11plus. gambling. helping him recoup his losses I'M HIS LUCKY LADY GOD HAHAHAHAHA. ate dinner, bai nian, took ang baos and mixed around.

i don't see how and why some people are so hung up over ang baos. like my cousins. when they don't receive an ang bao, or receive it LATE from a person, they'll start bitching non-stop. i think that kind of attitude is really bad. tsk! manners and etiquette!!! it's a sign of blessing..not just about the money!!!

and sometimes when the eldery gives the wrong ang bao(meant for someone else, hence containing LARGE sums of money), they just keep quiet and take that money as if it's theirs.

it's not like they do NOT know who those money should belong to, or if the elderly had given the wrong packet due to his/her forgetfulness and old age. dishonesty is really bad.


i don't know man. degradation of morales and character.
where's the sense of right and wrong? where's the conscience?


the universe runs on the rule of parallels.