ok frankly, the meeting was rather bad. started out terse and pissy and two black faces with some helplessness and loads of desire to get things out of our chests.
the dinner. was. BAD. like really bad.
i was fuming like a volcano half the time. everytime things got better, fatbear said something that made me mad again.
it's not even funny if he didn't mean it at all. cos' in that atmosphere, everything mattered.
anyway, some pictures of the dinner. i didn't take any pictures of my face because it was simply too black to be seen wtf. i seriosuly never felt as angered before.
ANDDD i realized i uploaded the pictures in the wrong synchronized order wth??? so, just make do lah huh. i shall try to get taiwan trip DAY 3 done and perhaps DAY4. but i've got tons of UGC readings to get done too. =((( needed for group project plus participation plus everything else. GAHHH. I NEED TO SCORE SCORE SCOREEEE.
LOVE ME PLEASE DR. THOMSONNNN!!!! ok i need a new nick for him soon. hush.
we ate jap grill/bbq at this restaurant in vivocity. i had so much beef i'm going to turn cowly wtf. seriously, their meal for two..can be for 4 lor. =S arghhh.
what you see up there is their garlic rice, which is passable. but not very good. not fragrant enough, and as usual, no taste of garlic. tsk!
just some portions of the slathers of beef omfg.
yumyum. i conclude that i rock at bbq/grilling/hot-stoning beef slabs HAHAHAHA. pro ok!
the charcoal and the grill.
again. you see, this meal, i hardly talked. he hardly talked. we hardly talked. worst meal together ever. worst anniversary meal, and probably worst NORMAL meals we had together. WTH i don't want this to happen again.
COMPROMISES YES. but must make effort too ok! and i must be MORE understanding (but got limit). and NO EMPTY PROMISES!!!! lovelove fatbear! (((:
some veggies.
salad.
erm, before the food came, while considering which set to get.
there, the jap place. i did free advertising for them. but the food isn't like SUPERB or what. maybe i has got to do with the mood or something. -shrugs. you can go try, though.
the bear who pangsehed me, whom shall NEVER ever do it again. as promised. ((((:
ok, conclusion of the day, i went home happy, feeling loved, and finally with a lighter heart.
"sorry" was the first step.
affirmation of no more empty promises was the second.
assurances to make greater effort in fulfilling somethings was the third.
i'm not difficult to please, really.
i don't even have to see you everyday. but i just need to know ________. ((((:
fatbear really means alot of me. and i suppose it's mutual. so i'm gonna put in doubly more effort in making this relationship one that will last till....aiya, just as long as eternity. (so mushy 0.0)
i love fatbear hugs. because i like it that my head fits nicely in on his shoulders, on his arm, or on his chest. and it's warm. safe, secure, and...it's so sincere, it'll be absurd to say this, but i can actually feel the love coming from him. LOL. ya lah, it's stupid, but...it's real.
omg, i think people reading my blog will get shivers and experience winter. =.= BUT I WANT TO WRITE LIKE THAT BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE THAT. =D
random pictures to end this entry.
went for a jog today (thursday, 22nd) at 8pm till 9pm. so tired. i'm aching all over!!! gahhh. i want to sleep already.
are you guys ready for cny? i don't really have the mood yet. bought mini figurines cum chocolate holders for mama, papa, popo, ah gong and waipo. the parents look happy. which is good. i'm trying to do a little to be filial and a good kid. (:
AND i was late for school today ALTHOUGH I WOKE UP SUPER EARLY. i officially am back to hating public transport, early mornings and poly kids who clog up the interchange like there are freebies being given away.
ROARRRRR. late for UGC112 some more. winner. but i don't know if Dr. T marked me down for tardiness. i was pretty much filled with doom (because you won't believe how anal and particular he is. 5As ONLY given for the entire batch???!!!!). so when he mentioned about participating in class and we went to discussing about the first recitation's article, i opened my golden mouth and said some golden words HAHAHAH.
i was quite shocked that he liked my idea, or that no one had ever mentioned that before. i guess it was pretty deviant and out of the ordinary. but i guess that's how impressions are made.
in any sense, my first in-class assignment for chosen as an example (amongst a few others) of a well-written essay opening (was discussing how to set your arguments and stand). i hope my other points are substantial enough. i seriously need that A, man!!!
need to focus and start working hard. =S not going to be easy. but i will do it. as always.
tuitioned. talked to the mom. everything's on track, P is learning well. discussed some issues about society and my future. lost.
but things will turn out right. that's what everyone believes.
how is it possible others have confidence in you, whilst you don't really have that much of esteem in yourself?
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