boredom hits another high.

some pics of nye. okkk, i'm really waiting for my hair to grow longer.
and i just felt a tail of my hair.
you know those long long ends at the back of your head? =x

maybe i should stop experimenting so much and stick to one thing? hahaha.
anyway, savings plan must be implemented this time. i'm serious. and it calls for alot of discipline. i hope i'll pull through this time.
it takes courage to come to terms with the fact that i'm just not like the other kids my age who still get pocket money from their parents. the fact that i have to EARN EVERY SINGLE FUCKING CENT for my daily expenses and what not is just dawning in. it's been almost a year since, and i've been too flamboyant with my money. now, it's time to stop. think long term instead of short term.

others have the same amount i earn every month without working a muscle except raise their hands out to take the money offered by parents. what does this imply?

i have to work doubly hard to earn that same amount. and doubly doubly hard to SAVE that fucking amount instead of enjoying just like other teenagers do.

sighs. it sounds just fucked up. screwed up. but i gotta face it. FUCK MY LIFE.

i just got to work in these conditions.
things DO happen for a reason.
i go through this for a reason, i know it.

i've just yet to find the answers.

somehow, the lack of money to spend seems to signal a reduction in social activities, which i fear. but what needs to be done HAS to be done. -dejected

i'm trying hard here, so try not to tempt me with anything else. or ridicule me. or encourage me on spending trips. no.

the work week is nutella sandwich made from home. save money must save dao di. hmpffff. take it as jian fei lah!

-grit.


i hate to admit money is everything. but in the situation i'm in now, it seems to be so.
slave to money.
biggest regret.
biggest dream: unslave myself.


and i'll rather go to bed every night earlier, because then, i can be closer to you.