side effects.

it's when things like that-
pop into your mind.
catches u offguard for that moment, that second.
pain. loss. you start to think what went wrong.
before you catch yourself and tell yourself to stop.


subconscious mind was released momentarily.


tuition resumes tml. fucking tired man. but money, yea, that's important too. december. work month, before school starts in jan. grrrr. need to make up for that one month loss of income. before i die when my bank account shows $0 left. knn.

INDEPENDENCE SUCKS SOMETIMES.
it's just the stupid fucking pride.


so-
ugc can die liao. predicted another half wrong. HAHAHAHA. i do until damn sian ok. cos' alot i didn't understand. HECK.

went out watched movie with beng and squeak and niao and meowpig. HEL GO M'SIA WHY NV TELL ME!!! grrr.

anyway, open season is DAMN LAME. cmi. HAHAHAHAH.

walked around town for a bit. felt like i was released from some ulu civilisation where people slept an average of 4 hours a day and faced words every single moment you are awake. or well, a computer screen for most. heh. RELEASE! i've attained satori(without hearing any bamboo striking). i'm glad. i wouldn't have lasted any longer. it's amazing how much exams put you through, and how much you can ACTUALLY take without collapsing.

thank god for chicken essence. :)

won't do well for finals, but it's only me to blame. hopefully a above 3.5 GPA? -grimace-

and I WANT MONEY. I WANT TO SHOP. knn!!!! why so many things so attractive. I WANT NEW STUFF. freak.

it's time to work my guts out.
but first, who got lobang?!
i've decided that december is going to be a month of experiencing. various jobs would be nice. i just wanna try out more new stuff. heh.



christmas has always been a lonely season.
love me-
will you?