thurs and friday.

doesn't my hair look like a bob? lol. yes it was tied in the bob style.


thin thin fringe. bigbig forehead.

condensation on a cold day. bus ride to school.

supposed to have more pictures. too bad. blogger died.
ps: clear pics are when i bother to take off the plastic gmask before shooting. blur shots are just lazy.



today took a few more with yan before the com300 project meeting. finally we are moving somewhere.

sigh. getting bruises everywhere. careless knocking of furniture and bumps on the door.
super accident prone.

malnutritioned cos' no food. sian.
really jian fei. wtf.

work again tml. gotta return the rented vids. wheee.



verdict:


-eating air is relatively good. very ahbeng-ish with themes of friendship, family and loyalty. love, teenage angst. the ending was...disheartening though. i hate such endings. sigh.


-the nun is crap. other than suddne sound effects and real-fake graphics of broken limps, torn heads, blood splatters...it's not very scary. and the storyline tries to invoke that sense of originality, but failed to get the message across. little impact.

-12 storeys: yet to watch.
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doodle on facebook is lame. wtf kopisoh.




scandalous chats with wrong people.
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loads of work to get done. meeting yan on sunday to do our com300 too. sigh. when will i have time to fucking study study. cannot chui anymore. i'm not chui!

i don't care. i'm redeeming. and XX is helping me. i will do it. and i have already done it.


i believe i have it already.

idunnowadshisname guy has gf already.
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why do some people just perpetually piss me/annoy me everytime they open their mouths. so full of themselves.
don't they ever realize it?
tolerance.
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my eyes are big again. and my skin is better. yaysss.
i think cucumber mask really works. wheee. yay my tofu fair white skinnn.

and i realised my nose bridge is quite ok lah. HAHAHA though my nose is still damn button.

see! yan's boobs. she's trying to seduce me mans.

yawns. didn't buy anything today though i was tempted a million and one times by countless items. =( resist temptations. the root of all evil. HAHAHA.

ok quite alot of things happened today. cannot be bothered to recall though.
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random Q:

which would you choose?

a) fart alot everyday. ie. 5 times or more per day.
b) fart very little ie. (1 time every 5 days.) BUT everytime you fart, the air around you turns bright pink.

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dozing off soon. gdnite and happy working for me at videoezy! LOVEEEE.

i wonder if he'll make another move.

really eating air.

1) i will get at least A- for my COM300 at the end of the semester.
2) i will become thinner and toner and tanner and prettier and smarter and richer in one week's time and STAY THAT WAY (ok fine can improve cannot deprove).
3) i will achieve everything i've set out to obtain.
4) anyone who stands in my way and hinder me will get it from me.
5) i will stab anyone who pisses me off or the like.


school was bad. midterms COM300 results was shit. like lausai kinda shit. totally glenda replay. i'm very annoyed by that and so don't step on my toes.

yan says she saw E cheating outrightly during MGM301 midterms. i'm damn freaking bloody fucking dulan. WHAT FOR I STUDY SO HARD WHEN PEOPLE LIKE HER COPY???

are my sleepless fits for nothing?? is conscience really worth that little?

com300 meeting in few hours time. i've got stuff to iron out. and i've got a grade to achieve. no one will stand in my way or i'll get really nasty.

teojielin doesn't get pissed of easily. but when she does, you'll regret it.
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work was ok. handling much better now. should be alright working alone next month already. sigh. my maths suck still. can't count money for nuts. zzz. work again this sat. god bless me i don't collapse and die.

S asked me why i'm working so hard. many reasons. countless people asked me why i give up tuitioning. many reasons why.

H today asked me about my life. and he thinks i'm this qian jin xiao jie who is filthy rich and asks money from parents whenever in lack. like wtf. JUST BASED ON ADDRESS?? that's fucking stereotypical.

that C guy came over today during my shift and dumped me a dvd and told me to pass H a msg. i was like HUH? he was on his way out then he turned back to explain to me. ZOMG. HAHAHA. and i was like damn haggled and doing some other stuff.

before he left..he was like..."oh ya, i'm C."

-_-''' stun.
ok lah. not that bad.

side note: some annoying customer came today. checked with rail centre. the guy there told me that that bloodyhell guy is damn troublesome customer. HE SURE is. H told me to ignore people like these. ok.


just in case you're wondering, i'm far from being fithy rich and pampered. I EARN MY KEEP THANK YOU.

i forgot when was the last time parents actually gave me a GIFT. sigh.



i don't ask anymore. and i wonder why. HE knows.

J knows. J understands. and i wonder how J can see through me. scary.

and i wonder if his intuition is true.
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on monday, i was late for armstrong's class. ran up the escalator. two cute guys shifted to the left lane to give way for me to run up.

i tripped on one step. I FELL DOWN.

wham. elephant down on the escalator!
ouch. =((((
double ouch that they heard and saw since i only fell 2 steps away from them.
SIGH. i cursed damn after my "ouch" and "FUCK!" and scampered off.

it's a wonder SIM didn't report sighting a traffic RED light then. zzzz.
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so tired every part of my body hurts.

if what he says is true......

milkshake and carbo-s.

taken during article presentation. when boredom hits.
mgm301 midterms was...i don't know really. a bunch of crap and prayers for a decent grade. i cannot afford to do badly mans. like seriously.

blah.


on jeremy's car. he kindly offered to send us to vivocity. on the car was sandra and yan. his car smells really good.




this picture was supposed to show the cute little bunny at the door. i heard that it was sewed by sandra, given to jeremy. WOAH. so pretty lahs. LOL. reminds me of the stuff toys my mum used to give me. bunnies....

yes, the blue illuminated light is actually specially installed. it's bloody freaking cool and it looks AWESOME. i mean it' far from BENGNESS but it creates that im-in-star-heaven-cos'-my-feet-is-glowering-feel.

likeomfg.

its situated at the part of the floor just by the door. both sides have. and front seats have it too...but theirs are located under the seat to illuminate that gentle blue. wheee. nice on a rainy day like that.

basically my only proper meal of the day, in an attempt to JIANFEI wtf. yes milkshake and chilli beef fries aint that jian-fei material. but who cares. the milkshake was AWESOME. orgasmic.

carbohydrates. i might die from overeating frenchfries. zzz. might as well name myself missfries. wth.

walked vivo with yan to destress from sitting at the table for continuous 3 days. needed that stretch of the legs. flabby like fuck.

bus ride home was cold. the bus was freezing as it rumbled back home. wrapped myself up like a freaking eskimo to avoid freezing. managed to close my eyes and get some eyerest, NOT sleep, for a few minutes.

eyecandy (yes daddy issues i think) alighted along the line of houses. 0.0 DAMMIT. and i accidentally stepped on his nicely polished shoes cos' the guy next to me was alighting and i was sitting outside and eyecandy was sitting at the backrow behind me. omg.

yes long sentence. go figure. aiyaaa.

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it's gonna be school then work tml. and my parents should be flying off in a few hours time. sobs.

i want my stints at videoezy to be enjoyable. must faster master everything i need to know. yay. might just rent a movie to watch at home since i'm RELATIVELY free. zzz. shit. i really have a few titles i wanna catch. yalah movie buff cannot ah.

i kinda would miss them, and i wouldn't. i mean...i have to do the chores myself! blah.
and there would be no nagging. zzz.

still, i'll be working half the time they aren't at home, so i don't think it would make a difference--their absence.

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was feeling rather....emo a few moments ago. thinking too much i think. random thoughts spilling here and there. the dam isn't holding up well i guess. sighs.

either way, i must come to terms with it myself, so that i can move on. and live a better life.

for the like attracts the like. and such debilitative emotions aren't exactly on my to-attract-list. wth.

oh. good friday's eve and good friday i'll be working too. so just in case anyone wants to date me, im booked. =(

tataa.

i'm frozen pig.

early in the morning i'm freezing my ass off in school students' lounge alone and enjoying it actually. wtf.

not the freezing part. just the alone part. i think i'm growing anti-social. how?

because my pretty dentist fell sick and i was only informed in the morning. had i decided to take the public transport instead of letting my dad fetch me, i think i would have reached ndc. WTF. seriously.

so now....

finishing up my com242 biblio due tml. and i have not touched my mgm301 yet!?!?!?! wtf. curses.

sigh. i lack sleep and i feel sick already. drinking water to subside that fire inside. think i can break record this semester as to how many hours i am able to slp per week. i can even fall asleep standing up, sitting down, outside on the bus/train, while using my computer to do research, reading text and notes, and even chatting or watching tv.

my debt is uncountable. =(

com125 lesson is coming soon. sigh.

hear my pleas ll, cos' i'm working hard. i'm trying.
i need you too. bless me with all the good luck.
i cannot be screwed anymore.
i believe in you, so prove me right.

after com242 midterms, it's time i wake up.
teojielin, you aren't gonna be a genius overnight.

byebye.
i wanna kiss him. -points down- cos' his lips are so succulent and sexy. whee!




but what to do.......







he wants to kiss that fish. =( yan, we both lost. HAHAHAHA.

angsty night.

to all my dearest friends who bother to keep updated reading my lousy lonely blog:

i am feeling lonely tonight.
for my lack of "life" in this life.
for my lack of contact with objects other than the computer, textbook and occasional lecturers and friends/classmates/schoolmates/acquaintance/toilet auntie/stall auntie.uncle.

i miss everyone. i miss everything. and i miss myself. i miss life.

i actually am starting to think i'm a loser.
which is bad.
like so bad that i read my sister's blog and realised that i'm a single-loser.
feeling sore.

a loser inbetween. really.

and i have one pile of work staring back at me as i type this.
to cry or to laugh?
emo has paid me a visit.
fatso too.
where is happy and bliss?

the nightmare has barely started, and i'm feeling the fatigue.
what will be my remedy?
can i will my mind to think differently?

it's so tiring being strong, cheery, giving and compliant.
i just wanna scream bitch yell slap scratch at people who annoy the fuck out of me and don't realize it but continue doing so.


and i would first like to purge myself of the fats and pimples.
the oilspill within me is causing pimple erruptions. wtf.

i need to die before i can be reborn.
but im stuck. in between.
angel, ll, whoever, i need you. guide me.

stars and studying don't mix;

雙子的孤獨只有雙子自己知道，
那是沒有可能治好的絕症。
因為雙子天生就是兩個心，兩顆腦，
他們的感受，他們的思想都是雙倍的。
但他們卻只有一個軀體，一個世界。

這是一個天生殘缺的星座，
天生在找尋能與自己契合的另一個人，
但誰能找到一個相同的自己？？
所以，他們注定這樣孤獨而勞碌的
用一個人的身體承受著兩個人的快樂與傷悲，
還有永遠的孤獨。
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work yesterday at tuition was ok. time flew by as usual. but the mother was testing my patience at the end of the lesson. i think it's fine if she wants to know about her daughter's progress.

BUT the conversation was far from being one. =.= <---i have eyebags and eyerings.
now, i'm not going to start my rant on china people and their ridiculous comments about how good/smart/rich/capable they are; oblivious to the annoyed and cramped smiles surrounding them.

GRRRRRRR. skip forward.

videoezy was relatively good.
NO VARIANCEEEE WHEEEE. hahahah. please lor, if have i'll be damn stressed, especially since i have to do the closings. =(((
learnt alot new stuff, mananged to sort through the processes finally. not so blur already. momentarily had a bout of panic when H went out for his break then this customer came in with some voucher which i was stumped to process. used a little common sense and.....TADAAA! I GOT IT RIGHT OKKK. loves.

zzz so much more to learn. like birthday months, birthdays, 1 for 1 rental, 1 rental of any sort and stamps and membership cards. -_- died. lol. at least i more or less understand the stupid package thing. COME COME HONEY DARLINGS SIGN PACKAGE FOR MEEEEEE.

wheee. H is nice. he thought me alot of things, assured me that i'll learn the ropes soon, and he kept saying i'm a "smart girl!" HAHAHAHA. who not happy sia. somemore keep asking me not to panic and to relax. wheee. of cos' can mans. with him around, it's just -prod prod- then i got help. =DDD it's wonderful he doesn't get irritated with my constant Qs. pheww.

"i wanna rent movies lehh..."
"ya, just rent. free one anyway."
"hmmm..." -browsing through racks-

-momentary silence-

"or you could rent me too."
-turns to look at him-
"ehh...???"

-weird silence-
-continues looking at each other-

"HAHAHA NO LAHHHH...." -awkwardly run to grab some vids to slot back into shelves-

WTFWTFWTF. ok my response had no link whatsoever. NO LAH WHAT??? lol. ok, ignore.

soon, it's gonna be alone. boos. one more month. considering i get training once a week, it's quite good liao okkk. no company to talk to me. sian.

ate raspberry icecream on the way home. yums. the creamy feeling sliding down my throat on the after-rainy night was soooo superb. the chilly breeze across my face, occasional winds whipping my stray strands of hair across my face into my sticky lips and icecream. HAHAH. mans, i love nights.

this is what happens when i untie my hair. i get a reverse mohawk wtf.

meet jielin the bulldog. BARK BARK.






faced a couple of customers who were nice enough to pardon my blur-ness and mistakes nonetheless. sigh. damn. but i realised it's through mistakes that you learn. LOL. serious! boohoo.

and hanging around shelves and shelves of movies is so intoxicating it makes me want to rent every freaking single title. but, i know i won't have the time to watch now. =( working there really makes you a movie buff, if you already aren't one.

1) Juno
2) L--change the world
3) Leap years
4) Awake
5) There will be blood
6) Eating air(local production, i saw it on rental!!! -screams-)
7) The Bucket List
8) No country for old men
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studying and homework untouched. sigh. uber sigh. make me a hardworking student please.

re-reading some chapters of the book again. realised i've veered off track. time to reconsider my priorities.

included some horoscope stuff which i read through(it's one entire chunk but im gonna run them here little by little) and it's bloody accurate. it's scary to actually let people know all that's running through my brain.

oh wells. it's been raining on and off today so far. everytime my father goes out, it starts raining. he's the RAIN GOD. HAHAHAH. eh btw, rain=money, in case people think i'm mad.

yay papa please earn big big money so that you will give me, a pretty and smart and capable daughter, more money. MUAHAHAH.

ehhh. but you don't give me money anyway, asides from fees. so yea, just give me token money lah huh. =D

byebyeeeee.

//the mind is the ultimate power.

friday and early saturday.

accompanied my tummy buddy to the megabites to grab his itchy-mouth meal. zzz. HAHAH eh abs, the mega bites didn't stink today! must be just you lah huh. i stayed in there for over an hour and emerged smelling...NON FOODY.

HAHAHAH. oh wells. was bored while he queued for his food. started taking random pics of my flabby mabby legs. boohoo. and today i stupidly wore that leggings-cut-into-socks thing which kept sliding down my calves. irritating.

yes, the belt that tummy claims it's UB-patriot. zzzz. unintentional, and it's not even mine! koped form my sis. handy to clinch in my oversized shirts.

demure and cross leg okkkk. HAHAHA.

finally met up with nehneh after early morning com300 meeting and the short trip to megabites. tried to read my mgm301 notes during lecture. siannn. HELP MEEEE. SALVAGE MEEE.

the wind there was good. not inherently windy such that my fake wig almost flew off, but strong enough to induce that i-feel-like-i-am-in-mtv-feeling. HAHAHA.

not that i looked anything mv-ish. was just bored. and i realised my skin is really overworked.tired.

nehneh kindly offered a cabride to vivo. where we caught our movie at 6:55pm. no country for old men.

critic? i'd say it's a relatively good movie. good plot, storyline, strong cast, good acting, intriguing scenes, excellent directing, fabulous editing. but......lousy ending. i was so caught off-guard i totally HUH??? the scenes were way too realistic, and sometimes rather puke-inducing from all the self-operation-on-wounds thing.

and the stupid movie halfway decided to make us feel like we were short-sighted. stupid vivo theatre. think the film spoilt halfway or some operating error. could tell from the irritated and annoyed murmurs in the cinema from the blurred images which carried on TILL THE END OF THE MOVIE. pekcek.

didn't help that nehneh and i were feeling short-sighted enough; having only scored 2ND ROW SEATS @)#$$#%#@%#. hahaha. wtf.

eh paiseh, cabride pic with my head.

evidence that i was trying to DO something.

bubble teaaaa.

bottle of water. i realised i'm unconsciously/consciously drawn to the color pink on items. yet i don't wear pink. HAHAHAH.

CLEAR RIGHTTT. after irritating gmask taken off. wheee. can do the macro focus thing somemore.

clutter.

adventures of the pirate pig.

this is how front row seats look like. twisted neck. had to slant sideways (lucky i got the aisle seat) physically to make myself more comfortable. screen so big.

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okkk. saturday. work day. hope i'll have a smashing good time earning big bucks.

tuition will go smoothly. videoezy will too. and i will learn so fast i shock people. and i will REMEMBERRRR. grrrr.
cutie? i'll leave that to destiny. muahahah.

ps: felicia chin is so hot. cannot take it. if only i could be as pretty as her. yes, i'm dreaming. it doesn't hurt, does it?

byebye;