not dead, neither alive.

been mad busy, as usual. sounds like there's nothing new to my life, right? gahhh. been trying to get all the rest i can grab on the weekends. sigh. otherwise, work has been progressing, learning and learning and learning.

today, a new batch of shatec students (i think) came. they should be staying for some time. while jenny from SMU is most probably ending her internship this month end. =((( i'll miss her. today morning has been......crazy. wtf. printing, editing, printing, binding, compiling, editing and on and on. i was so glad when boss finally left for his meeting. because FINALLY, we get to eat our lunch at 2plus in the afternoon. my stomach was growling!! =(

let's hope it gets easier. anyway, i'm alive and kicking. apologies for the lack in updates. but apparently, i'm a lousy blogger. HAHA. i'd rather sleep than blog. and i'm only blogging because the nagging sight of the piling pictures irks me. GRRR. so, not bintan pics, but randoms.

and i feel awful because i feel that after 9months together, sometimes, fatbear and i seem like strangers. it's a crazy idea. and i don't know why i get such an idea. things seem to be getting harder and harder to cope around here. and relationships are really the last thing i want to handle. unfortunately, things are seldom simple and plain.

i hate it when at the end of the day, we both feel so tired and we don't like to talk much by then. and we don't even talk much during work. just sometimes, an obligatory phone call from him during lunch time to check whether i've eaten (something he has been doing since i was still in UB).

and i tend to get mad at really minute things. it sounds stupid to say it out even, but it's really true! i just wished fatbear could be more accomodating and nice and understanding and pampering and pacifying.

BUT of course, he is tired from work too. SIGH. i can't possibly expect all that from him??!!

it's difficult to explain how i feel...but i guess i really need to evaluate my perceptions and ways of handling things and people.

i'm really not very adept at doing such things. i think i need to up my tolerance level.

a short update. friday is my commencement ceremony, marking my graduation from UB. i look horrendous in my regalia and all. but fuck it, it's a once in a lifetime thing right? let's just pray i don't look AWFULLY shitty and i won't fall down on the stage/stairs/anywhere else HAHA. my parents, both grandmas and fatbear will be attending. i will be taking leave from work.

AND fatbear and my popo met already. i decided to visit popo after she dropped me a call on saturday. and so, since fatbear was with me, we popped by down close to dinner time and stayed and chatted to her for a bit.

and my popo had so much time to call me during work today to ask me to bring fatbear along on friday wtf. while i was kiap-ing my phone between my ear and shoulder AND binding stuff and printing. omg. AND my papa called after that, must have been a plot or something wtf. asking me about my plans for that day. suspicious huh. -sniffs-


ok, enough ranting and updating you guys about my life. picturesss!!

kim gary's for dinner one day after work. at vivocity.

fatbear. waiting for food. starved. but the portions were HUGE. i couldn't finish my share. by 1/4 of my dish, i was picking at my food because i couldn't swallow already wtf.

ying-yang!

fries! lovesss. by the way, they serve really nice fries, in my opinion.

mine.

his.

and fatbear loves to feed me stuff (vice versa wtf). but i think his rate of feeding me his dish is faster than me feeding him MY dish. and i end up REALLYYY bloated at the end of the meal. unfair ok. hmpff.

went to collect my new spectacles on saturday evening. then back to his place for harper's island!!!

camwhoring with my new hair. longer on the front, shorter on the back. for framing my chubby face. zzz.



then sushi tei for dinner one night when fatbear thinks that we deserve a better meal and hence spending more. i didn't want to eat so expensively at first, but fatbear insisted..so...ok lor.

sashimi!!!! awesome. -flies to heaven- juicy, thick and tender. AHHHHH.

more salmon sashimi!!! omggg. -salivates-

fatbear's curry katsu don.

at work, one day. new specs, new hair. AND my hair has grown longer I CANNOT BELIEVE IT. why does my hair grow so fast???!! i want to cut it shorter again! =((( but one thing for sure, it NEVER grows thicker. fml. HAHA.

anyway, the table behind me is now occupied by this male shatec student. SIGH no more privacyyyy. boohoo. and he smokes. so everytime he comes back from his smoke break, GOD HE STINKS. -scowls- but, thou shalt not generalize that he is a bad person because he is actually very polite. hmmmm.

i just need more air freshener. please donate. HAHA.

and btw, I NEVER ZAO GENG OK. i wore another tank top inside my chiffon top, so ya, that grey thing is my tank top, not my bra wtf. in case anyone is wondering.

ok, i admit my specs doesn't look far off from my previous one. but the frames are slightly wider and bigger. and it's a greyish sorta tint, with baby pink inner frames. WOAHHH. HAHA. and i made it entirely in plastic. which is really light. my previous one was all glass, therefore the weight.

does it look better? please say yes! (even if it's a lie HAIZ)

and looking at this picture reminds me that FATBEAR DEVELOPED DOUBLE EYE LIDS OMFG. HAHAHAH. from single to double. =.= eehhh, i think i gave him some of my double eye-liddedness. if it's even possible. please don't pass me his fat genes though! =((( -worried sulk-

well, people say if you spend a great amount of time together with a certain person, you start to develop features like the other party! omg. but i wouldn't mind more of his nose bridge. he has quite nice side profile. as compared to my pancake one. HAHA.

popped by 7-11 one night to grab milk for my breakfast to put at fatbear's. and 7-11 was giving out these at $1.80 for two random characters in an egg!!! we got these! reddish one for me, and blue for him--in order not to look to odd for him. mine's MR SMALL. and his's LITTLE MISS SHY. HAHAHA.

and he hung it on his hp without me having to nag him much! omggg!! a big difference from shitangel's introduction. -beams- and he really seems to like it. =D

then bbpp and shitangel started to amuse themselves with the plastic eggs which contained the mobile accessories. HAHA. shitangel in her makeshift rocking chair. bbpp with his new armour hat wtf.

evil fatbear KIAPED BOTH SIDES OF THE EGG TOGETHER--WITH SHITANGEL INSIDE THE EGG OK! =(((((( she almost died from suffocation. luckily i found her early. i will kiap fatbear if he does it again!

saturday, accompanied fatbear to starhub centre for a CPA australia introductory talk and wait for him sign up and stuff. yawnnnnn. the same day of meet-the-popo-session. i was wearing this hugo boss polo tee i bought dirt cheap in bintan with my bandage skirt and leggings. a very unsatisfactory outfit. but woke up late, no time to choose outfits and feeling fat. HENCE, a lousy short day out =(.

whoops. i know i'm not very demure. -shifty eyed-

sunday, we went out to town for DATING. finally, after ages, we're finally dating outside of the panjang area (ARGHH) and west coast (ARGHHH) and his house (ARGHHH). town was packed man. shopped around. main target was to buy proper shoes. bought two pairs. and a cute boxer PJs made of satin in a nice shade of blue. loves.

dinner at grafitti cafe which took over the LJS area in the basement.

wanton noodles. ALOT. i almost couldn't finish. picking my food at 1/2 the dish. =(

totally can't finish. fatbear had to wipe it clean himself.

entire meal. with bubble tea to boot.

which mostly, fatbear finished all. HAHA.

my outfit for the day, pardon the lousy lighting. took it when we got back to his place. it was still raining heavily =(. black tank for inner from topshop, purple checked chiffon top from f21, bandage skirt from my sis (too big for her but just nice for me FML).

wore with sneakers, but changed to nicer mini stacked flats after i bought them. legs looked way longer. it looks stubby now =/.

i swear, the miracle of heels. but the pain it brings is intolerable too. gahhh.

ok, end of entry. i better grab sleep now. it's going to be 12:30am =(.

stay tuned readers of bigyellowshiningstar. I WILL BLOG SOON. because fatbear sucks and we will not meet until he is guilty enough to miss me so badly he'll want to meet me. HMPFFF.

provided i'm not to lazy to blog myself when i'm home. HAHA.

ps: watch ice age 3! it's really cute and hilarious. even fatbear agrees! (((: and sis's says xiaohuang looks like sid. wtf.

goodnight darlings.