areas between black and white.

hate ambiguity at times.
yes, i can play along; but what for?

i think i think too much. LOL.

maybe i'm the sort whereby i cannot take it when people become too nice to me.
i really wanna know what's running through your mind.
and i feel so wrong doing this. i'm sorry. i tried to curb.
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met monz darling today for dinner and walking around nua-ing and laughing like crazy bitches. LOL. she was late and i was early AGAIN!!! congrats to jielin.

ate at new york new york which burst as usual to the seams. i wonder why it's forever so crowded. ate until super full. zzz.

how come i eat one meal per day already then always feel like uberduper full? i need to shit more.

didn't buy anything, because i am seriously running low on funds. guess what? MY BOSS LOST MY PAY CHEQUE. i'm gonna live on grass for this month and the next if they don't hurry up. so irritated. i think by next week i'm tempted to drag people pei me go interview for waitressing at this pub restaurant i saw.

nua-ed around. caught up while she pestered me as to who mr fate was. zzz. LOL. everything seems going on fine with edwin and her, which i'm glad, frankly. although it may signify my very confirmed singlehood. WHEN WILL THE CURSE BREAK? so dulan. i tried my best. =(

stoned at the suntec fountain of wealth. took pictures with the xmas tree and pretty lights. LOL we kept debating who to ask to help us take pictures. in the end we asked one china man with his family. LOL. he asked monz "ni men cong na li lai?". pidiaoooo. he was amazed that she could speak proper chinese after knowing we were singaporeans. i guess it's weird that singaporeans take pictures at fountain of wealth lah har. LOL.

i'm gonna wait for her to send those pictures.
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yesterday night suffered from insomia. my sis and bf argued over phone again. like millionth and one time. zzzz. couldn't sleep. pestered E. but he zonked out. decided to pester yk, whom i must really thank for accompanying me till the whee hours. lol.

finally managed to sleep at 5am because i was too tired. woke up at 9am to get ready for tuition. zzz. shagged. now i'm trying to make myself damn tired so i won't have insomia tonight. i don't wanna pester yk every night. sigh, he might get irritated.

the fortune teller bottle seems to be pretty accurate so far.
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gonna meet quite a number of peopl tml because of gene's house warming cum xmas eve ever party at his new nest. LOL. woodlands??!?!?!? wtff why move so far =((((

oh wells, let's hope everything would be fun.

i officially declare i don't have enough clothes to wear.
and i officially declare i'm fat and ugly yet again.

why start something when you know it's not gonna have a good ending?
i'll never understand myself.