and the rain beats down on me.

i'm so lethargic and i don't want to do the stupid communications report. i haven't even freaking started it.
=(

my search for the dress will be held on wednesday and thursday after school, which is like 530pm? SUCKS. and people who know me know that i don't wear dresses. TSK. deep shit.

i'm not dreading school. i'm just dreading the workload.

yet sometimes i feel so jaded...i just don't want to give a damn. but things just have to come and pester me. GRRRR.

well, i think more people than i know actually read my blog. which is surprising. but not that i can help it. content is open to interpretation.


just had a passing thought: isn't it sad to be known as "XXX's girlfriend"?

like seriously. i wouldn't be proud of it. i mean, it's the feeling of being related to someone. like you are a nobody without that certain person. like you are just..there. it's sad. and it's sadder cos' i might be one such case.


but then again, i behave so differently among different people, i hardly know who is the true me. i can be so introverted at times, yet so boisterous and unglamourous, so daring and attitude, so vulgar and uncouth, so gentle and caring, so understanding and passive.

i don't understand. maybe because different situations call for different characters? or maybe i'm a mixture of everything. being too versatile. being too...everything. all rolled into one.

one thing is for sure. i cannot be sexy or glamourous, or elegant. FOR SURE. double chop plus guarantee. HA.
quite sad.

and i have no defined style. keeps changing. keeps..alternating. but it still circles around one main personality. only if you observe carefully, then you'll notice. not like people would bother to do that.


godly deva sent me a msg today! YAY! freaking delirious. ABBYI'VEBEENCHOSEN! *grins*

okkk. i'm tired. i feel jaded.
i can beso fucking anti-social sometimes. which i don't know whether it's a good or bad thing. *frowns*