plan.

ok, so i don't have any concrete plan for today just yet.

yesterday, went out with bimbo to help her shop around for her prom dress. i silently thanked *whoever is up there* that i made the right choice(for me) of not going for prom. i would have DIED from the preparation. trust me on this. i really would have died.

i'm not against gowns and heels and makeup and hairdo or anything, but the fact that i would have to spend so much money on things i mostly would only wear THAT one night is illogical. i do not believe in impracticality. i even more do not care that all of them say "prom night is the only time of your life, only once! must go! will regret if don't go one!" bullshit.

it's MY opinion of cos'. you might have yours, and i respect that. i mean, if my group of clicky are going, and with many many friends there, then i CONFIRM will go. but go for what? when you hardly care about those who are going?

aiya, lazy to make my point.
but end of story. i almost broke my leg while shopping with bishi. i am getting very sick of town. VERY VERY SICK. i'm going to beg and plea and whatever shitload i can do to make jie bring me to chinatown, little india or wherever that has good buys. she seriously knows these ulu places very well. tsktsk. according to her, "town stuff is overpriced lah". quite true.

actually. VERY TRUE. hah! i'm so freaking proud to have gotten much of my stuff soooooo cheap ok! and looks expensive-just-like-the-original-thing kinda goods somemore! tell me where to find such good bargains! and no one will know, unless i tell you. so wait long long, i'm tell no one! *GRINS* except bishi lah, you know a teeny weeny bit of my secret, cos' I LOVE YOU!!! hahahah! and i hope you got your desired prom dress too! =)




anyway, i managed to get home in one piece and plonked myself on the sofa to take a breather(yes, i am extremely unfit now) before i went to take a bath. the morning run i had before i met bishi was indeed setting in. aching muscles and all. die lah. must exercise more. i just don't believe i cannot drop at least 5 kg. i mean, if i was so freaking skinny last time in sec school, there is no reason why i cannot be NOW. die also must reach. DIE DIE DIE.

i'm obsessed over my weight and appearance i know. don't like? f off lah. not like i care what you think about me. i look good cannot meh?

seriously, my blog is very much gonna record my life now, so like it or not, i'm blogging for MYSELF, not YOU.



anyway, i was switching between both channels of shows just now. running to my pa's room to watch channel 5's "I am Sam" and channel 8's "cao mei ren(or something like that)" . don't ask me why i had to run, but my pa refused to watch the channel 8 show and ma refused to watch channel 5 show. well, compromise lor. run lah.

pa said the running might make me slimmer. but i complained and complained until her eventually decided to tape the channel 5 movie for me. HAHAHAHA! god i love him so.

so i settled down to watch the cheena show. shit, it's freaking sad ok! and it helped that shu qi and the male lead was so freaking good-looking! :) haix. anyway, the show was pretty hard to catch with the heavily accented chinese accent. seriously, i was reading the subtitles 3/4 of the time. but it was well directed in my point of view. addressed many issues such as friendship, loyalty, love, hopes and dreams, and well..desires, to break free from the rigid structure. i teared at some parts ba..it was quite conflicting..the emotions that crossed my mind..

then there was the part "right person, wrong time" thing. sigh. that one was worst i think. and the part where shu qi's best friend died. wahhh, that par ti really buey tahan liao. really saddening. especially when the guy told her "wei hong jiao ni bu yao shen ta de qi le..", i really just broke down. cos' i recalled that part when shu qi was rather mad at the rest for lying to her behind her back..and when wei hong tried to persuade her to understand their actions, shu qi just told her one word: pan tu(traitor).

i guess that must have hurt wei hong alot. sigh. but sometimes, i myself do find it hard to trust some people. outside show so niceeeee, then inside, you don't know what the hell they are thinking. god knows, they don't like you leh! and you all along treated them as friends, and they thick-skin act like they like you alot. those kind of people all ought to die. the basic requirements of being friends is sincerity. you don't like that person just tell him/her lah, act until so chummy for what? turns me off really. at least i saw through you.

faker.



hah. anyway, i was totally stunned by the last part. i totally for once, was lost man. even when the credits started rolling and the narrator started mumbling some shit stuff in chinese that wouldn't end, i was still thinking about the ending. how it would have been, if the guy had not stopped the truck for her. how it would have been, if they had never met. how it would have been, if they hadn't fallen in love? how different would their lives be now?

seriously. there was this philosophical nonsense said by some "monk" in the show.

"got fate to meet or got no fate to meet someone, is still considered fate."

found it rather intriguing. *shrugs* it sounds like nonsense really, but it makes sense if you waste your braincells to think about it! haahaha!


all my opinions.



maybe i should borrow pearpear's xun yi cao vcd to re-watch it ALL OVER AGAIN. god, it's so fricking nice! :) will cry my eyes out again i'm sure. hahaha!

must plan. must plan. so aimless now. job, need money. 123 hours to get $123 to get that fcuk sweater. oh god.

and i seriously need plastic surgery, yes i know that. :) hell, i'm gonna try be happy being me. it's no point trying to emulate my sister, cos' i don't wanna be like her. i'm ME. and yes, i know, not much people can be ME. cos' i'm a "tall, fat and ugly giraffe".

and what else? i'm gonna jian fei so no one will EVER EVER call me FAT again.

NEVER.



on a personal note to turkey. i don't even know if she will read this. but i seriously hope all the soreness in you is gone. *sigh* somehow things i really want NEVER turn out right. i'm pissed and upset too. i hope you'll understand, and maybe not blame me.
you know i love you! really. :)





oh man, i miss star-gazing.