gone and forgotten.

sometimes, i just cant help it but wonder: why, do people change?

you and i. we once were very very close friends. very very gd friends. nothing were secrets between us. nothing was uncomfortable.

but now, we are nothing but strangers. yes, we both now live in the past. so what if we say hi to each other, try to talk to each other and pretend and behave like we are the best of friends? so what if we can do all that and yet i do not know u at all. i hardly know what u are thinking, what you love, what are your likes and dislikes. u are nothing but a stranger to me. familiar and yet unfamiliar. the memory i have of u are those of the past. the past of you tt i love, tt i treasure and tt i want back.

yet it's impossible. the stark contrast in personality. the drastic change in character. i miss you. i miss the old you. do u know that? do u even think of the good old days we used to have when in secondary school? do you even regard me as a very good and close friend of yours in which u will confide in? i hardly know you. staring at the msn list on my computer screen, i often contemplate whether to double click on it or not to.

so what if i do say hi? our conversation merely stops at that. a few words and there. meaningless and shallow. so what if i don't? i see no loss at not doing so. afterall, what's the difference between clicking and not? the results are almost the same. so, i often choose not to. and neither do u click on my name either.

we used to be able to read each other's minds, hearts, thoughts, feelings, emotions. now, i hardly can see through u. i don't know if there's a mask or is it really you i see now. perhaps it's me who has changed and not you. but i just cant help but see that drastic alteration in you. everything about u is different. it makes me sad to even be close to you again. all because i know and not know u at the same time.

it's a wierd feeling. losing and yet not exactly losing you. i've just lost your friendship and yet you're just still here. it's not gone, yet almost gone.

you're nothing much, but a stranger-friend.