drive.

WHERE THE HELL IS MY DRIVE AND MOTIVATION TO STUDY!!!!!???

arghs. i feel like killing myself. wished i had the drive and motivation to strive hard and concentrate. getting so upset and pissed with this attitude of mine. everyone has settled down to do some serious studying and here i am slacking my life away.

jielin, if u dun wish to achieve anything in your life to make yourself proud of yourself, then u can continue wasting your life away like this. u can carry on disappointing yourself as well as the ppl ard u who care. u can let those ppl who think u are stupid and dumb carry on thinking like that. u can just tell others u are a loser. a loser in life.

"being someone ordinary is hard, being someone extraordinary is even harder."

now isnt this so true. if u want to reach for your dreams, hoping and praying just aint gonna do, there must be actions. as the saying goes: u reap what u sow. time to start reaping, jielin.

now get your big fat ass down onto a chair, stop fidgeting and squirming, stop falling aslp, stop moving abt finding for food, stop thinking abt other stuff. think abt the end point, the consequences of your childish and irresponsible behaviour now. think of what u are gonna achieve if u put ur heart to it. think of those. now, just keep climbing, reach for your dreams, jielin. you can do it. im sure u can.

yes, im gonna do it. bye.