bleh. lately just think im super disconected from my class. dunno why la. too tired to think why also. sometimes just dunno wad to talk to them abt. conversation is so hard when u have no topics. it's worse when they simply exclude u from their conversations. perhaps the problem is me la, but its not that i dun wan to spend more time with them, it's just tt i CAN'T spend more time with them. den slowly drift apart. plus alot of them dropped geog..den got alot free periods to hang out and talk together, and i din..so it's like hardly get to see them and really talk to slack together. seems like things have changed drastically this year from last year. i am one who likes changes. yet this kind of change i refuse to admit..it makes me sad to think that i have hardly any close friends in class..no person with the same cca as me and of the same sex(minus deepan who is a guy), no one in demanding sports cca that i can talk abt sports with..no one i can rely on for help now..everyone tells me they care, sur eu understand, yet perhaps it's simply a sentence of "i care abt u" rather than a sincere "i do care abt u". *shrugs* somehow i just wished i can blend in more with my class now la..it's like super left out..and it's only when im with hockey peeps tt i feel really happy now..it's where i noe company is alwaes guaranteed and comforting..
*shrugS* dunno la, guess i shldnt think so much mans..lately super tired..hwk cant seem to finish, topics all i lagged behind like siao..this friday's parent meet teacher i can imagine the scene of show-down of all my negative stuff from parents to teacher and vice versa. well, not like i care now anyway.
tml is nj match vs us. damn nervous n scared. but i really hope we'll play a gd game today. dun wan say more le. wanna slp..so tired..
yawn.
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