surprises everyday.

i shall shock people with my face.
but i think that picture of me looks damn demure lah. HAHAHAHHA.
rare occasion and a lot of gek-ing.
sorry lah.
i'm not that pretty or gentle at all.



so hope announced the 4 best groups for ppt today.
i was quite shocked that my group was actually voted by the class as one of the best 4. hmmmmms. sincerely shocked. but thanks to all who voted. the team which i voted for got in too. HAHAHA. oh wells.
for a very screwed up team with many MIA team members and last minute plus stay back in school until 12pm work, i must say that we did pretty well. unexpectedly well.

:) i'm contented. don't have to be the best, just be one of the best. given that time constraint and lousy.....certain people. i wish they would start growing up and be responsible already.

i dread beardy's content assignment. ARGH.

and finals are next tuesday and wednesday. never been so dead before.
please let me pull through with reasonably same grades as last sem. =X


with bones like hers, you'll look good in almost every picture.

i miss shopping. i want new clothes that i can actually wear. i want so many things. desires are terrible.

the search for identity. hmmms. was i like that too? was i so desperate to be recognised? so desperate to be noticed? so desperate to be identified? how much would you sacrifice? how much are you willing to give? when will you realise that life is much more than your decadent lifestyle?

life now, is nothing much. nothing much to prove, to show, or to announce.
order and chaos.
unpredictability and occurence.


it's amusing how people can just approach me out of the blue to tell me how they can envision me living in taiwan and japan without any problems to fitting in. it really is!

i just it's a matter of perspectives.
i may not be the prettiest or the skinniest or the smartest.
i will always be mediocre.
i will always be there.

that's what i see through MY lense.
what do you see?

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sometimes i brush past you, and i feel a tinge of sadness.
no eye contact. not smiles. not greetings.
what changed? what happened? what altered?
in between loss and disconnectedness;
stranger friends,
where will fate bring us together again?
place, date, time.

no answers to answerless questions.
i hope you're genuinely happy.

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don't know whose feet. tskkkk.



i love that qing ren song. sighhh. even though i don't know what is being sung. HAHAHA. ignorance brought happiness.
simple pleasures.

still red after the kiss;