yawn.

i slept so badly and so late last night that i cannot see through my squinty and tired eyes for the freaking entire day. i wanna die liao.

after i drank the heavenly mocha rock road from pacific coffee, i felt more awake.

after dancing to the beat of the music from my darling speakers, i felt better.





then the caffine wore off, and i felt damn tired again.

so here i am tired like shit.

but cannot sleep.



stupid lah. i hate my eyes looking like shit for the entire day. eyes so small liao, still like that. rahhhhh!!!



shopping day tomorrow! then dinner with bishi and zh! hahaha. exciting. more lies ahead!



and i still feel fucked up about application into uni.


but i feel better. slightly. cos' i received ms tan's sms. and it was kinda heart-warming. i'm glad to have at least a teacher that's nice. =)


/edit/


i dunno what to say suddenly.

people u call friends. say such things to you. no matter they did it on purpose or not, it still hurts.

it fucking hurts.

you are NOT in my shoes, but TRY thinking in my shoes.

you wouldn't like it if i did it to you too.

so insensitive. so..hurtful.

i'm just upset ok. how many people can truly understand how this shit feels? there are a few. and i feel ok to confide in them. because perhaps these are people who are truly my friends. people who do not discriminate me. people who...THINK BEFORE THEY SPEAK.


i may seem like i do not care. like pride does no matter to me. like i can take any joke with a laugh and shrug.

but this is NOT a joke ok. it fucking is not.



so, unless you think before you speak, unless you let your words run through your pig head, DO NOT TALK TO ME.

just shut up. shut up.

i do not want to talk to you. period.