nonsensical.

one part of me is contented, another part is lost, another part is happy, another part is full of anticipation, another part is holding back, another back...is just simply full of doubt.

but you fill me.

it's been long.

it's been long since i'm laughing and smiling everyday. even on the inside.


7 days. already. but i think it's all to sudden and filled. overdose of happiness, laughter and smiles.


it's been so long since i can fall asleep. feeling happy.







i've been filled. but i've also been emptied.

i'm not sure how to handle this exactly.

both of us are drifters. both of us are neither here nor there. both of us are...friends.


perhaps i should not think so much. but it's you, who've made me from this independent person, to become more relient and...in need of your presence for happiness.


i'm warm. but i'm cold.



i still need my other friends of course. which is why i plan to fill my days with appointments of people i care about.




it's been a long day. many more long days to go.

tml i'm meeting ocip for lunch and movie. excited. =)





perhaps all i should do is stop thinking. perhaps i should not have thought so much. it's nothing. really.



what is going to happen?