wednesday=nehneh bday.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO TAN YIXUAN HELENA NEHNEHPOK.
HAHAHAH. im so nice to call you okkk. =DDD paiseh lag by 1hour plus cos' was printing com300 notes then i totally lag diao. zzz. so tired mans.

com300 assignment finally done with. i hope we did great. =S worried mans..grades grades. stress stress. the presentation turned out decently ok. see, that's why i wore my purple boots. HAHAHAH. wtf.

stayed in school to accompany wifey yan while she waits for tummybuddy to accompany her go to amk to get her long awaited DSlite. LOL. stay until 5plus lor. zzz. HAHAHA. decided to leave eventually and trudged home sleepy and deep in thought.

just managed to finish my treatment after some serious thought about what bob told me yesterday. zzz. omg please let him love me. BOB LOVE ME OK! hahah wtf. fried brain.

had my first consultation-like talk with a lecturer on tuesday. zzz. i forget to participate this sem. kaoz. must be more enthu already. or not my participation marks can fly byebye. bob, closeeyesahgong, nina and choy here i come!!! =S

received that letter today. i doubt i'll receive that letter for this sem since my credits wouldn't meet the criteria. hmm..doesn't matter. i just want that miraculous number. =)

valentine's day is coming soon. i'm gonna be spending it studying abit for the com300 exam, then going out after that with nehnehpok for our secret hot date. HAHAHAH wtf. aiya, think it's gonna be another normal shopping outing lahs. but we'll have to squeeze with all the lovey dovey couples. boos.

fatigue is showing. valentine's day.......so many random thoughts here and there. lol. the posts on UBsim.org are damn funny ok. i forgot when was the light time i actually wrote a poem. =X


my bf and my gf. HAHAH wtf.


i like this jacket. gonna get it.

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haven't tabulated my ang bao money. wonder how much my savings will bulk by this year. hope fatfat de!!! =D

watched yulebaifenbai after hundreds of years later. managed to catch the later half of the show. found out that my horoscope is going to enjoy good fitness and health this 2008. HAHAHA WHEEE! the woman said that if i intend to change my body shape or become fitter this year, my wishes will come true. yayyy! JIAN FEI CHENG GONG!!! =D (highlighted in red for added luck HAHAHAH!)

damn, i should find some eye candy soon. school is getting sourly boring. =(

what happens when you have no one in mind? when you are not confused? when you don't feel those toiling emotions? when you don't really care?

do i send off such a vibe? is that why i'm getting no responses? do i look intimidating? do i look odd? SIGH. patience...

the tradeoff for all the bestest bros in the world i guess. -shrugs-

fall for you--secondhand serenade.

repercussions.

i should be rushing my com300 script now, but i'm so tired that i cannot think logically. even after a bath.

before i start rambling away without making sense...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO LEE MEOW ZHI!!!
yay finally 21 years old. no longer 16 or 18 or whatever cuckoo age you like to give yourself. suzhou born and bred eh, still very pretty so remain pretty. and you are not fat so please don't say you are fat. wheewhee.
who knows later got hot boy give you rose. hope you enjoy yourself yea. (:
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went visiting at university friends' homes. waited for 1 hour for tunsong to come in his shocking greenish msia mini car. zzz. got a surprise when i saw him. totally unfit of his image lol. yawn.

picked mz up at clementi. headed to tampines to pick up mel then to amy's house at hougang. the rest were already there waiting. stayed there for a bit. amy's pet dog(the larger one) licked my pimple. zzz. i think abs said the tongue got antiseptic so means my pimple will get better. HAHAHAH. whee.

headed to near anna's house for lunch cos' we were so so hungry. kuay chap AGAIN. omfg. i seriously got surge in cholestrol and fats. not gonna eat this week!!!! jielin control ah!!!

then to mel's house. then tunsong's. then tiff's was the last stop. this year we left out so many more houses cos' of uncountable reasons. anyway, it was quite fun lah. although i was stuck on top of some plastic container, nicely cushioned between the mouse and mz. -_-''' i must admit that the spot is QUITE comfy, although my legs feel stretched and exercised from balancing my huge ass.

and i had full blast of the aircon. what more can i ask for mans. =D

ah bui and yan were behind having an affair with the clanking tools. lol. mz most comfy in her queen seat lor. grrr.

thanks to ts and leon for the ride on their cars. appreciated! i always think that people who go out their way to pick friends up and send them to and fro places are very nice people. lol. seriously.

my viewty is giving me dreamy pictures after the wrap. zzz.

that's in dots and ah bui in black taken by yan.

ok these 3 pictures i look ghastly as usual. i hate my grin. i really should stop grinning so much. GRRRR. ok it's just my face.

anyway, i'm tired. school's back tml. i think i'm suffering from bad monday blues.

might not blog for the next few days. see how. have truckload of stuff to complete and study for. please please give me all the good luck and courage and determination mans. =(

SALVAGE ME, LL. hear me. because i believe in you.

everything will be great. just believe and tell yourself that. no point making self-fulfiling ngative policies. wheeee.

cheers to all! (:

3rd day of cny!

hahah! dont worry! you're not seeing things. i dug up my SAJC tie from spring cleaning and since today i was wearing the oversized shirt, i decided to loop it around my neck and see how it looks. HAHAHA. whee whee sajc uniform can! ok lah without the pocket.

why do i feel as if i'm lagging behind the years i undergo. LOL. like now i look more like a jc student. zzz.

woke up earlier today. was supposed to go shopping with my sis. then mum woke me up and said she wanna tag along. okkk. then in the end my father decided to come along. so it became a family outing. and we went all the way to bugis just to get my transparent wrap for my phone. zzz. then cos' i feel so out of place hustling around the lousy crowd there, we left promptly.

it sure is weird to shop with parents. zzz.

headed to my second aunt's home to bai nian. then rotted there abit. damn fulllll. cos' before there we headed to some i forgot what's-the-name hawker centre to eat. zzz. had some hokkien mee and kuay chap. it was like a ghost city there.

why? wanna buy toto? hahahah.

headed to my third aunt's place after that. zzz. i feel like an elephant lumbering around. I DON'T WANT TO EAT ANYMORE.

-cries-

i seriously need to exercise. but then again, i think i better settle shitty project stuff. -double cries-

I LOVE MY LIFE.
i'm loving it. cos' i believe it. and i feel it.
abundance. all mine.

enjoy your remaining weekend everyone!
i really wonder who reads this dumb brainless blog. HAHAHA.

CHU ER of rat year.

i have no idea why cny makes me so tired. anyway, today is CHU ER and my family went to visit my mum's side relatives.
first venue was some temple which my grandma wanted to visit, so we went to fetch her early noon, and i stayed in the car to rot cos' i really didn't want to squeeze with so many other people.

then headed to wai po's house to nua and watch scv. DAMMIT WHERE IS MY HOT NEIGHBOUR. faster appear ok! HAHAHAH.

ate rather little there. went to my xiao ah yi's house next after my da ha yi arrived. WHEEE the irritating cousin did not turn up because apparently she tio stomachache ache and couldn't stop lao sai-ing after a morning breakfast of laksa. ok i'm mean. but who cares. she's rude.

stayed there for about 1 hour plus eating. omg. all those tidbits. =(((

the two little kids of hers damn cute lah!! and the youngest boy is like tmd SHUAI OK. grow up sure is hottie. i cannot find any ressemblance between him and the parents. shucks. first time seh. anyway, i quickly made friends with them and even played psp with them. HAHAHA. it's hilarious.

headed to some lanpongs restaurant which is largely OVEERRATED and the food was only so-so for our dinner. by then i could only manage a few more mouthfuls of food before i exploded. =(

i'm not going to eat after this week. SERIOUSLY. i think i gained 10kg.

the blur quality was obviously taken using the front cam which boosts only 1.3mp.


can u see how fat i am now!! omg. =(


er act cute. sorry if i caused any puking to occur.


these were with the 5mp lahs.

end of the day now. my eyes are closing and my body is aching.

i wore stockings with this tee don't worry. -_-" i'm damn tired from all the ferrying to and fro and squeezing at the back of the cramped 7 seater SUV. grrr. every year. HAHAHA. this year i didn't knock my head against the roof!!!! i'm so happy! =D

yes i zi pai alot today too. sorry lah.

tml should be heading down to shopping with my sister. GASP! wtf right! HAHAHA. shall scout more for my specs and meanwhile bling up my lovely phone. heck. it needs some pampering! (:

byebyeee.

happy cny to all!! RAT!

cny is rather overrated for me, considering i aint that close to either side of my relatives because i don't have cousins who are of the same age as me and i can crap with. educational standards are different, family backgrounds are different, EVEN the region we LIVE in is like hundred miles away. totally off.

and we don't gamble or sit around to talk cok. i just eat my fill and slither somewhere to observe them. LOL. of course occasionally i have to answer their CHI BAO LE MEI YOU? and CHI DUO YI DIAN LAH. and to reject their offering of more food.

at least no comments on whether i grew prettier or not. phew.
no comments on where i'm studying or any comparisons taking place. i rather just blend into the background. weird right? thinking back, i used to be the centre of attraction, the one elders pamper and pull me to talk with. SIGH. i guess....i'm too giant now. HAHAHA.

let the little kids get the attention lahs. volunteered to go down to the playground as a guardian whilst the little 3 imps fooled around. they are funny..but it's a combination i wished i had grown up in. 2 elder brothers, and me the youngest girl. i envy how she's protected, pampered and teased by her very much older brothers. it makes me...want to be like her.

-shrugs-

i look like an OWL! HAHAHAH. ok i tried on these specs in the shop. contemplating to get something like that. geek to the max. loving it cos' got BLING BLING on the sides. but i might stick to something less "winged" on the lower insides.


coming right up is a series of ZI LIAN and ZI PAI shots because yes, i'm a camwhore and i admit it. HEY! i've been keeping away from my camera for days lor. today i thought i looked fine what. hmpff.

SKIP IF YOU DON'T WANNA SEE. (you've been warned!)

that's my ah gong whom i chat to when i have the chance because hardly anyone chats to him anymore. sigh. this time when i went back on CHU XI, and i skipped into his room to yell AH GONG!!! he actually smiled. HAHAHA. and he asked me why i so long never go see him. and he missed me! awww. sweet.








pout? HAHAHA. i just thought my eyes looked unrealistically nice here. damn.


at grandma's house on CHU YI. nuaing on sofa watching tv. yes yes, i look messy. it was bloody hot lahhh.





my dearest popo. HAHAHA. the first picture is damn nice lah. totally not posed. wheee. SHE WANNA KISS ME LOR. -grins-
the one taken further away was with help by my sis.





ok i got home tired, sleepy and bloated like a pig. while waiting for my sis to get out of the bathroom so i could get a nice long bath myself, i took shots without my leggings lah. yawns. i ate so much!!! =(((
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my laptop died when i tried to switch it on jsut now. i think it's virus. dammit.
i cannot afford this ok.
kaoz. gotta start school work soon lor.

LAPTOP IF YOU'RE READING THIS PLEASE BE HEALTHY FOR ME. thank you i love you. muacks.
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i wonder how much my ang bao money total this year. HAHAH. sigh. cannot spend anyway. lol.

relc pay is in!
whee.

abang was sweet enough to call me today to wish me happy cny! HAHAHA. hilarious. and i don't know if it was my or his phone that kept disconnecting the call. he had to call back several times. lol.
i hope he'll cheer up soon! wheee.

i've been lazy.

byebye and enjoy yourselves everyone! (:

happy pre-cny eve.

i've been waking up to noisy cny songs on the radio for 3 days and counting. i think my father is trying to instill that cny vibe into the household.

but every morning i've been waking up feeling slightly pissed cos' of all that blasting from the speakers. i have to remind myself not to let it affect me though. or let others affect my mood.

because i control my life. and i allowed things to enter my life, which i might not like. i must do something about it.

cny songs make my brain feel warped.

i had to sew the hems in of two hand towels today after i woke up cos' my father asked me to. and i didn't wanna piss him off since he was washing the blades of the fans. ZZZ. spring cleaning.

i think of my TWO new pieces of cny clothing and i feel happy. ZZZ. too long never shop.

give to receive more. right? i should start.
giving from the heart is never easy.
we almost always want something back.

this week of hols bestowed by UB is supposed to be studying and project completing. i find myself lagging in all. SIGH. UBER SIGH. can someone please motivate me.

my com300 group is close to tatters. i want to stab people but i will not. because.........


breathe and smile. (:
you keep attracting the like.
so be careful what you send out.

abundance.
feel, think, see, know abundance.
ahhh.


i hope everyone is enjoying their cny festives so far! will update with pics soon. after entries with pics, this is pictureless.


HAD A FREAKING WEIRD DREAM LAST NIGHT. i had multiple warped ones consecutively. very restless sleep. SIGH.

the point is I DREAMT THAT I WENT BALD ONE STRIP DOWN MY SKULP ON THE LEFT SIDE OF MY HEAD. in the dream i could even feel the prickly sick sensation of skin. arghs.


randomness about me. i have to use tissue to squeeze out the oil of pieces of bakgua before eating them. ZZZ. yes i'm neurotic.


not sure if tummybuddy reads my blog. but thanks for the chat last night. (:

ahhh, which girl doesn't wish to be complimented time to time.

all i need is faith.
and utter belief.

changes from one's outside is easy. but never complete.
this time, i feel a change from inside.
i feel different and alive.
i feel lighter and happier.
i almost feel as if the world is mine.

can it be so powerful?
yes. i believe.

blogs with pictures are so much nicer to read. LOL.

I'M NOT LESBIAN.

i have to declare this first before people start assuming that i'm lesbian. i like guys/males alright. please. don't be like that laoahpek at the pub who thinks i'm lesbian just because i dress androgynously.

zzz.

recently, i've started watching more videos of this cute girl from hei sei hui mei mei called guigui.

yes, her name sounds like my bf xiao gui. but they are not together. and god forbid them to be together. =((( though i know xg thinks gg is super cute. BUT STILL.....CANNOT OK! i say CANNOT!!! hmpff.















isn't she adorable? her on screen personality is funky, cute and hilarious. the fact that she's so open and free and at ease with herself is amazing to watch. yes she's younger than me. i think around 19 or 20 years old. not sure. prolly younger even.

she's just tmd cute lah. cannot take it. =(((

soon i must start posting pics of guys so i won't be mistaken to be lesbian. wtf. think coffee prince hellllooo. think xiao gui. think wilbur pan. think my girl lead actor. EXCUSE MEEE. i like men. HAHAHAH.


you see lah. now they are even acting together in a show. i'm damn sad.

FINE. male pics ok!!! abc wilbur. hothot. wheee. mz, not your ex i don't care.












then my fav gui. with 2 other quite gd looking guys. azz and xz. HAHAHA.













ok i like this white shirt damn freaking alot. i will get it.

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this is turning out to be very pointless as an entry. either way, some updates.

1) got my xh tuition pay finally. from dec till now. zzz. thanks to wanyi. love tt babe. she's leaving on sunday though. fuckkk. =((( will miss her like hell. HAIZ.

2) gonna get my hard lens soon. yes, contact lens. shocking right. i think i will go get it after cny. SIGH.

3) gonna get a new pair of funky specs too! whee. blingbling here i comeee. love bling. BLING IS GOD.

4) set new aims and visualised aims.

5) experienced mini money rain.

6) grew thinner. my waist is 27 inches now. although hips didn't change. knn. hip bone cannot reduce liao sobs.

7) today got ppl say i'm da mei nu. let me bask in it for a while. HAHAHAH. i'm undiscovered gem ok!!! =DDD

8) i tried on this oversized tee from revoltage at far east today(omg im doing free advert). since i was wearing that uber short newfuture shorts today, i didn't take them out when i tried on the tee. so i came out to show nehneh and get her comments. she said it was not bad..so i decided to get it since i liked the design and size!!! lovesss.

ANYWAY, the guy at the counter didn't saw me when i came out i think. then while my back was facing him, he WAHHH damn loud until i turned around to see what happened. HAHAHAH HE THOUGHT I NV WEAR SHORTS OK.

please, i'm not so kinky yet. HAHAHAH. ok lah, yinyue trend sorry.

i think i'm used to going men's section already. zzz. sorry too fat and too tall. most tee lengths don't suit my body shape.

must get used to salespeople who ask if i'm getting items for myself or my bf. NONEXISTENT BF AH. zzz. but heck. wear nice can already. embarking on new trend. i think depression might render cool outfits time to time again. wheee. must check out revoltage soon when i'm richer. their tees and cardigans are quite nice lor.

SUPPORT LOCAL DESIGNERS!!!

9) i hope i won't look ugly when i wear my contacts. ZZZ. it's breakthrough for me leh. i wanna be pretty also.

10) i think my face will appear on depression.com soon. zzz. after avoiding their picture taking for one year. i succumbed today. nvm, support local designers rightttt. i hope my pimples will be photoshopped away. HAHAHAHA.

byebye my loves. i'm feeling happy. my life is changing.
i control my life. and i'm loving it. (: